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Friday, February 09, 2007

Cats,MeeeeoooooW.

Ah yes, after 25 hours, i'll be roughly boarding my flight to Kuching, the city of cats. Don't bother to read my blog after this post, i'll be freezing for like 2 and a half weeks. Ah yes, i'm picturing myself looking at the large 100+ feet trees all day long. Wonder if rambutan or durian is still in season or not. Yes! I can taste it in my mouth now,savouring those big,juicy rambutans that i pick myself right from the trees. Production from only those 2 trees is more than enough to satisfy all 40+ members of the family and there'll be too much that we can sell it too.

Well, all my family there treats me very nicely and sometimes,i think that they treat me TOO NICELY. They don't bother about my grades at school or how lazy i am. They're just plain nice. But then, there's has to have one of the people with prob with me. Namely Dad. Yeah right. When there's good,there's bound to be bad. I just dunno what's the prob with him and me, we're never been very close. Heck, the way he treats my baby brother and me, you'll see. Not that i'm being green or anything, but it's just seem unfair. If i were treated like my bro when i was his age, i wouldn't have any prob, but those who worked for my dad remembers that he(dad)'s the one who always makes me cry since i was little. The treatment just differs too much.

Is it maybe i'm not as cute as him(bro) since i was born? Well, bear with it. Some people doesn't have father because they were unforturnate enough. Some were forturnate enough to have a father who cares and support them in one way or another. Me? I mostly feels that i have a father but doesn't really own it. Sometimes it feels like i'm not his biological son. Tried to get on his side but can't and so, i finally gave up. Maybe it's because i believe in fairness more than i believe in love. Truth is, i value fairness very much. If something's not fair,i tend to fight for it.

Of course, occasionally we can still be good together but it wouldn't last very long. I can't really stand someone who values his car more than his wife. A car 's lifeless, but human isn't. I think i'll be better and more successful if i was a dad. Just that i don't like to be tie up by commitments. It's just too troublesome. Not that i am an irresponsible person or anything, just that i feel that it's just unnecessary to commit. If a commitment can be broken easily , what's the use of committing? Unless,you get legal papers done,duh.

Ya, what the heck,i'll be having too much fun with my cousins and time will fly quickly. Wouldn't be bother by anything during CNY so, i'll be happy like nuts. Oh no, speaking of commitment, it seems that in higher education, assessments,homeworks and projects stands for 50% for the academic results with tests and exams for the other half. Oh NOOOOOOOOOOOOO! *Me and my whole surrounding becomes 'The Scream'*

I'm known for my lazyness. I've never did any work for some of the classes(Note:never) and i've never complete all the works given to me since like 6th grade. Oh no, i'm doom. I'll be having four classes that will require me to write essays. Ah, Tian ah. T_T " Hope that i won't let this horrible thought getting its way into my festive mood during CNY.

Is it a crime to be lazy? Haiz~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

You Are 36% Angry

You're occasionally angry, but it's really not an issue.
While you may give in to your temper once and a while, you're pretty mellow.
And as long as your anger doesn't effect your relationships, then it's probably in check.
You know that anger is a bad habit - and you don't engage in it often.

How Angry Are You?

SS Phoenix @ 4:27 PM

Leaving love at |4:27 PM| ~-~ 0 Hearts given

Yours Truly KSS

Friday, February 09, 2007