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I'm 20! and this is the 100th post!!!

2009-10-20T00:25:00.006+08:00

It's been like what, 4 years since i've started blogging? Hmmm, 25 posts per year, an avg of 2 post per month, not bad la. But still, I'll need to blog more, many people have already pass the 200 mark in less than 2 years. Can't blame me, i have no life. But actually, I'm just another lazy person. Doubt people still come here. I mean, some even thought this blog is already dead. Haha.

I'm 20 now.... GOSH! I feel soooo old liao!!! It feels like a truck just slam right into my face. I mean i'm 20 and i feel like i did nothing for the past 20 years. Yeah, i know i've turn 20 last 3 weeks liao. -.-"

10 Stuff I had not done in the past 20 years but should had:
1. I never worked even part time(but if you considered working for 1 day as working...)
2. I haven't learn how to drive (most of my friends does now! even LYY)
3. I never had a girlfriend before, or a boyfriend for that matter in case some day i discover i'm gay, haha
4. Never went into a club before
5. Had not get laid, HAHAHAHAHA
6. I'm still not 100% sure what I want in life, is this the course i really want?
7. I have not travelled out of South East Asia.
8. I never got dead drunk
9. Went on a real adventure such as climbing Mt Kinabalu, camping in a REAl jungle...etc
10. I still don't have a credit card but ho, i'm still asking money from parents le.... so erm.. optional la. But would be nice to have one ma... ;(

10 things I'm done which a 20 year old should:
1. I've smoked before (once before 10 anyway then never again)
2. I stay up for 24 hours straight.
3. I stay out of the house until after 3 in the morning at least
4. I went travelling with friends only. (Last year KL and this year, we're going sg!)
5. I watch movies meant for the adults (R rated)
6. I found my best friends.
7. I lived out of the house... being independent, doing housechores, etc,etc
8. I took care of doing official papers without any help. (I applied and settle everything in uni myself)
9. I stood up for myself.
10. I did things a responsible adult would do like calling my parents to tell them i'm ok after a flight, making calls/sms to people in case of change of plans, etc,etc. There are some stuff i won't do when i was younger. I try not to make my parents worry.

Let's see, how life in uni. Not bad lo. My results are quite good la. If i try a bit more harder for my finals, i think i have a chance in getting into the dean's list. Why would i suddenly become so kiasu and want to get into the so called 'cream of the crop' students? I just want to enter just once la, at least to make my resume in my future job application to look more prettier. Can add 'outstanding dean's list student le'! So why not? Plus, they say first year,first sem is the easiest semester to get into the list, of course i must try this sem.

I still sleep in class though. Haha, and very exaggerating one. I lay down on 3 seats and slept for the whole 2 hours. Hahaha. SART dao... And i really need to try presenting more and more lo. I really suck at presentations. Haiz...

Let's get on to some mushy stuff now. Being 20, I feel that I really am very lucky to be able to find friends who trusts me, loves me and are always there for me. You guys are really one of a kind(you know who you are!) and it seems very hard for me to find others like all of you wherever i may be. I mean, for lot of people in uni, I act alot. I don't show my true colours and am polite, patient, humble and generous and stuff.

I'm no angel that i can tell everyone but i'm only human. I don't do serious crimes or mistakes. I don't frame people for what they didn't do and I certainly did not betray the ones who are my true friends. I can be very tolerant to my very good to best friend. Look at that sampat la, even if he's so paranoid, sampat and critical, i'll stay by his side all the same la,haha. But seriously, trust is important to me in a relationship whether it's between families, friends and lovers. I just realized. No trust, no confidence then no will to continue the relationship.

Oh my god, since when did i become emotional de? Bah, stop here liao. update next time bah!

Privacy?

2009-07-14T14:47:00.004+08:00

A quick update before my 100th post which i will TRY to write it as soon as possible. Yes, i've enter University Malaysia Sarawak in Kuching. Currently taking Resources Biotechnology. What's with the resources huh? Well, everything we'll be studying will be almost the same as the normal Biotechnology courses in the other universities except that we'll be focusing a little bit more on saving natural resources and what's not.

Of course, this is just to update on people who hasn't heard from me and is still reading this blog. I don't think i'll be able to update as frequently as i thought i can. I can't seem to access wordpress, blogger, blogspot and some other websites from my hostel. The wireless signal is always low there but it makes no difference even if the signal is excellent. I'm currently using the computer at CAIS aka commonly as Library. There's no privacy here...haiz...

University is alright... at least up until this point. I've made a few friends who seem be nice and friendly... a bit sampat too. HAHAHAHA, they're really my type of crowd. There's many malays here as expected but up until now, i do not seem to recall seeing any racial discrimination or abuse like what SOME people try to scare the crap out of me. But what i heard is that malays who takes my course tend to be afraid of losing out and there's one incident to prove that it's true.

AND my english deteriorated! You might find some or even lots of grammatical,spelling mistakes! I wrote a statement on what 'language' means to me and i got caught making lots of grammatical errors. So paiseh! I'm even starting to speak broken engrish! English is my strength here and i don't want to lose it!

Lastly, it seems i have to take 4 courses with Bahasa Melayu as the medium for generic courses... Luckily 2 of them seem to be easy to pass but i better start to work hard on the other 2 if i want to graduate in 3 years. I do not even dare to think of extending my university year for another semester! I hope my curse on someone doesn't reflect back to me... Praying....

My new house!

2009-05-30T23:44:00.005+08:00

Tomorrow's... i mean today's going to be a busy busy day... WE'RE MOVING!!!
But sad to say i won't be having any internet connection for a week or 2... Haiz.... How am i suppose to live my boring life without it? I've stocked GAMES!!! I've got around 15 of them just waiting for me to install and play them XD

But ho, i'll be going back to Kuching from 12th till 15th. No computer for 3 DAYS!!! Haiz.... Although i'm still happy to go back. Can meet ALMOST all my relatives ;) (Note: not close with SOME relatives but generally we're all a happy bunch except a few outcast XP

Right, sorry for nagging. PHOTOS!!!
Pardon the low quality photos.
Although our house may not be as exagerratingly beautiful as our neighbours: pic below, it still is quite pretty. Didn't manage a photo of my house outside though... but it'll about the same as my neighbors. Their house were brighter. haha And here's the front outlook of my house.Still not entirely complete though..
The living room
ANd there's 2 part for the kitchen. Weird. The 'dry' kitchen and the 'wet' kitchen. The dry one first. Spot my beautiful mother in pink in the wet kitchen.

And up the stairs we go.

And we end up in a small den. Don't mind the boxes. We've moved the stuff little by little but can't unpack yet. No furniture yet.

My room!

Open sesame!

And lastly, MY BATHROOM!.... ok, going to share with my other 2 sisters... Have two doors and both our rooms have access to it so have to lock both door when going in... HAHA. I just like the mirror.
Well, that's all. Hope our furniture won't spoil it when we move in.

Please forget... pleaaasssseeeee

2009-05-28T00:28:00.003+08:00

Went out twice with May Yan before she left for KL. But the thing is, someone saw mw when we were at the Mall. NOOOOOOOOO~~~!! It was Sheeling. And she asked me when did i come back? HAHAHAHAHA!!!Ok, fine. I know i'm being a LITTLE anti social since i'm been in Brunei. But ho, since i have no jobs, no contribution and no income, a guy has to do whatever it takes to save or at least be more thrifty,right?

I'm becoming a hermit i know. It's recently that i found out that i can live for months without a friend to talk to. Ok, with occasional calls from Mayan but that was it. It just doesn't bug me than it does to some other people. Some people says one thing and does the other. Not me, I have already accepted the fact that I am not popular and have few friends. Ok, fine maybe not a few friends. I have quite a number of them actually(more than 10). Haha. But ho, i don't try to take any opporturnity i get to socialize. I don't know why. I prefer to be in my room and look at my dearest beautiful lappie.

Alright, video and introduction.

First up, there's this korean guy in youtube. Really talented. Searched for yoonha85 in youtube and you'll come across a guy playing a piano. A pianist he is. What makes him so special is that he does NOT need music sheets to play pop songs. Yes, he improvise pop songs just by listening. No sheet needed. Some of the improvisation songs i liked are 2NE1's FIRE, BB ft 2NE1's Lollipop, BB's Haruharu, Wondergirls' Nobody and Slumdog millionaire's Jai ho. Lots more to list out.

Currently listening to mostly kpop except for Listen to your heart - Roxette, Dead and gone - T.I and JT(like JT's part only), pokerface - lady gaga and Broken Strings - James Morrison ft Nelly Furtado.

Swoosh~~~!

2009-05-18T18:56:00.003+08:00

So fast, it feels like it was just last week that i updated my blog and now it's been half a month! I thought i'll be really active one now le. Blogging now just for the sake of maintaining my sanity. No, i'm not going crazy, but you'll never know when there would be the day when your mind suddenly goes 'click'.

I've been listening to more korean ballads recently than korean mainstream pop. Watch some kdrama here and there. Finished a 2004 kdrama called Gumiho aka Tales of the Nine tailed fox on youtube. I'm now onto another kdrama called witch yoo hee on youtube as well. It's a bit bland but getting interesting.

I'm moving to a new house soon around this week or next depending on whether, some additional construction is needed to make more space for the house. But ho, if i'm going to go study in Msia soon, it means that i'll be staying in MY OWN room for like a month only. Well, not an old news that i'm getting my own room since i'm the eldest son! XP Still, my sisters are damn happy that they're sharing a room between the two of them instead of sharing the same room with the workers. And when i'm going to study in other places, SOMEONE is going to move into my room cough*elder*sister*cough

Currently listening to some songs by SG wannabe, korean group which used to be popular. It's ok now but the music they produced now are not as appealing as it used to be. I really love their mvs because it's like a mini drama and it's just well explained. There's always part 1 and part 2 for their mvs. One of my favorite's this one.

and the part 2 with a different song.

Try their debut song too, Timeless. Love the song.

Duty Free~~~

2009-05-03T17:56:00.003+08:00

It's sort of surprising that Jeffrey called me 'yesternoon' saying he was in Brunei for a holiday. Ah.... time flies so fast! And we went to watch X-men Origins: Wolverine! Great movie btw! OMG!!! Well, even the complain king didn't even complain about it! So it's just THAT good! Go watch it! Omg! According to my sister who watch it later, There was actually some scene AFTER the credits! Shit!!! I miss it! Wtf?! The lights opened already and everyone was going out ma! Don't go immediately everyone! ok?!

Oh, Spy's out. End. Watch tv.

And lastly, an eye candy for the ladies. Lots of hot korean men! Personally I like the song and not just because BigBang was in it. They(Big Bang and other famous korean actors) have equal parts anyway. I just feel so happy and cheerful listening to this song XD

Yes! the 80s are back! Ok, maybe not but it does send out some kind of vibes like it.

My spirit was partially taken

2009-04-20T15:56:00.005+08:00

No, I wasn't dying. Yesterday, I kept thinking about PeiYi's first impression performance. I was so kek tio that Wah Lai Toi was not broadcasting it or anything. Throughout the day I kept thinking about what was happening.

At night, I msn Yan and Szeyee asking about the performance. Haha, to my surprise, Szeyee said I was 'there'. Wanna know how i got there? And no, my spirit didnt fly there.

They pasted a drawn picture of me along with the others. Haha! So creative! My head's on the signboard Vincent was holding! Oh and guess what, I got this image from http://astrostarquest.blogspot.com/ - Astro talent quest official blog!!! Congrats guys especially Vincent and Yanyee! Hahaha!

Talents beat looks any day!

2009-04-17T17:25:00.002+08:00

Well, i'm just happen to come across this video and she was pure talent and amazing! Susan Boyle's voice is sooo angelic! My hair stood up the moment she open her mouth~~!

Click HERE for the video.

For some reason, I can't seem to embed some video on youtube to wordpress... I wonder why. No, not this video, i know embedding is disable.

I think Peiyi is getting better and better at singing lo.

Ok, i must admit I've play it quite a number of times... Hahaha. Really good.

Changed perspectives?

2009-04-10T02:23:00.005+08:00

Oh my, recently i just don't seem to be attracted by any looks. I mean naturally i supposed a lot of people(or most) are superficial about how looks are and i had even admitted before that I am very concerned how people are born to look like. I am kind of superficial in a way...

When i look at myself in the mirror...

I see a guy who looks alright. All my features are normal. To some point that i can actually be considered as someone handsome? Hahaha~~~! So paiseh to say like that also! *blushes*. I am not getting vain!Ok,maybe not but at least i look human.

Anyway, as i was saying, when i flipped through some youth gossip magazines my sisters bought, I see a bunch of normal good looking people who are actually stars! Case: I used to be VERY attracted to Jolin Tsai's looks. It's appealing to me really. Sexy and cute at the same time. Not too slutty, not too conservative. Just nice.

But, now she looks kinda old to me... in a magazine... she just looks like a normal person. I mean if she wasn't a star or anybody, i might take a second look at her if i pass by her on the street. But that's it. Life goes on.

Ok, some might say she IS getting older and that i might be getting sick of looking at her. Could happen. But could that happen to ALL the stars? There are also He Jun Xiang, Zheng Yuan Chang, Hebe, Lin Yi Cheng and even some of the DBSK members. All which i had admired their physical appearances or their charisma before. Now, those admiration went flush down the toilet.
I know I'm very addicted to Korean entertainment recently. But i don't find one star there which i would go WOW! That's one hot face. They are some appealing but up to the 'wow' level.
I came to the conclusion that there are 2 possibilties. One, my standard in looking at looks just upgraded, which is bad. I may as well live mywhole life alone. Two, I don't care much about looks anymore but rather it's the inside that counts. Oh boy....two extremes...

Kinda reminds me of how i shocked SPY about her weight being at the two extremes when her competition ends.
1. She gets fatter and bigger than before. Due to stress, she'll eat more than she normally do. Also, 95% of the other competitors are chopsticks so, if there's unfinished food, she might get the bigger portions.
2. She'll lose weight. Being put on diet by the people there and gets exercises learning hand gestures or even dance. Also, being surrounded by chopsticks, a sort of peer pressure to prompt her to lose weight will probably smack her right in the face!

AND VOTE FOR SPY on ASTRO!She's no. 15! I personally think she's actually the 2nd prettiest out of the girls(if i look from the individual photos)! Good enough! My sisters and I are keeping up with her competitors but we don't know how long we will last. It gets harder and harder. She's barely winning now thanks to us but the others will sure catch up.

I know the polls won't affect her chances for winning but who knows! It might act as something to show that she has a strong base of supporters. To boost her confidence! Plus, I am indeed kiasu also. Haha. My sister even got someone living in south korea to vote for SPY also. Haha. Cool ,right?

To end the post, one video!

BigBang ft. 2NE1 - Lollipop Mv (for a phone commercial)

Sorry,I couldn't resist the temptation ;)

Introductions....

2009-03-31T01:52:00.005+08:00

Ok, I'm trying to do short postings recently. Seems that I ALWAYS get very much into the details. In short, too long winded. It have its pros and cons.

Introducing my Bratty brother's own blog @ www.teeweechronicles.blogspot.com where me and my sisters will be writing all about the funny moments as well as adorable ones we share with our current 5 year old bratty brother. I might not be able to post too much after i go to uni.... Better cherish the moments... Go read it to lighten up. I assure you, I've tried to be a LOT less detail. OMG!!! Now I have 3 blogs to maintain!!!

In case you're feeling a bit boring, why not try http://moandmoc.blogspot.com/ for some challenging and nice games. All Free~~~! Just make sure you have a good antivirus program. It doesn't really guarantee that all games are virus free since it is not the host of those games. It just provides the links. Some games to introduce.

For people who likes to find stuff, I recommend Paranormal agency. For something more challenging, you can try Forgotten riddles: Moonlight Sonata. It gives you riddles to find stuff and doesn't exactly show what the stuff really is. I finished this 2 games in 2-3 days. I know, I have no life.

For people who likes playing tycoon type games, I recommend Cinema Tycoon 2. Or, if you are in the business field, You might wanna try Capitalism II. It's a very realistic but VERY difficult game... I quitted(makes my life hard). Too many stuff that you'll need to remember but i think it's a very good simulator for people who wants to make it BIG in the business world.

For a 'Dash' game, I recommend Leeloo's Talent Agency. For Action strategy games, I recon Westward. I've tested these games myself and I finished it except westward.XD

New game on facebook from the makers of Pet society. It's called restaurant city. Nice game! LOL.

Last to end this post, a video of my fave member from BigBang! Yes! I'm their fan.
P/S. He's the guy who had 2 funny dances in the video and you'll be looking right at him now. He may not be a looker but he's a real talent.

Life update

2009-03-25T02:32:00.002+08:00

In case anyone is still interested in what i'm doing these days. haha ;)

Yeap, first of all my stpm results. It's just really average and it's something you can find on the street. A common grade.
An A- for Pengajian Am(Yes, I got an A for Malay)
B for biology
B- for Maths
and C+ for chemistry.

Yeap, I'm as shocked as everyone on how i got an A- for my malay. It will be a great mystery i might not be able to know. It's true. My teacher was so shocked and happy i got an A eventhough it's a minus. What's more, it's my essay part which got an A-!!!! WTF!? I thought my MCQ which is paper 1 will bail me out and i thought i've nailed it. Apparently, i got a B+ for that paper. Wow O.O

And i totally thought i could aced my bio's MCQ... Ah well, no crying over spilled milk.
Below are the courses i applied to public universities. I can change it anymore but i think i've chose wise enough. Did my research and all as well.
Choices starting from 1st to 8th choice.
1. Biotech
2. Biotech
3. Biochem
4. Biochem
5. Bioinformatics
6. Food science
7. Cognitive Science
8. Industrial and organisation Psychology.

Mostly are either partly or full biology related course. I guess I ike biology the most out of the
all the science subjects.

In other news, I officially congratulate a very dear friend of mine and wishes to give my 100% support to her. Lol. S/he can count on me in case of any sms voting competition. Lol.

I am OFFICIALLY chubby. Yes! I can't even see any chin liao. Haiz... just like peiyi's emo sign....
;)) ) See? Double chin. Though I don't have what she has ;))))))))))) Haha. So many chin!

The day before tomorrow

2009-03-09T14:00:00.000+08:00

I'm getting anxious about tomorrow!!! In case some of you don't know... MY RESULT's coming out! ARGH!!! Please let it be a good one. Let me still have my study luck...

I always think i have some kind of luck in exams. Like ~~primary 6 and~~ form 3, i didn't really expect it. Yea, maybe it was just easy or something that year. There was so many people who got 8 and 9 As so 7As seems like nothing. Well, It was already a great achievement ;) Plus, in other batch it is a marvelous result already.

Form 5 was also unexpected. I keep failing add maths in class and occasionally some science. Still, I got all credits with 3As. Sure it may seem like a bad grade compared to others in class but in my sister's batch, 10 credits as in what i got was already a good grade. So why my batch so many brains one?

Oh please, let me have that kind of luck also for form 6. Pray hard hard~~~~

Bo sim.

2009-03-03T23:36:00.002+08:00

Wow, i must have broken some record for neglecting this blog for so long. 1/2 a year to be exact! Hurray~~!!! *confetti flies*

Actually, it's a bit hard to maintain 2 blogs for me. And there's no two authors in this blog lar. Jeffrey just need some place to vent out so i kinda offer him my blog. A one time deal.

Just going to summarised some of the bigger events that took part in my life.

1. After BigBang, i got into the Kpop world and I don't think i'm getting out of it! I just find korean songs really fresh and their mv are really creative. Some had asked me why i got so into korean pop. I'm not sure myself but i think a lot of songs rocks! Of course, BigBang #1 on my favourite kpop idol list!

I even asked my mom to buy 2 of their albums(one mini) when she went on a trip there last year and she got it! Oh man, how i wish the genuine albums in Brunei/Malaysia isn't so expensive! The full length album i got costs only 17,000won which is like B$17 dollars! I would have bought it online but i guess with the present state of my lappie, the credit card password might get stolen...

Went through the Kpop world with the BigBang craze, TVXQ craze, wondergirls' Nobody craze and now the SNSD's gee craze. It's currently the second song for this blog.

2. I went to KL for two weeks with some of the most 38ppl i know alive but they're also the coolest! Awww, touching ,ain't it. That was the best trip of my life i think there will be more? But don't expect I'll go for the Taiwan 2010 trip. Hey, can we wait when we start working? Haiz.... Tak ada duit.

Photos on facebook. Can't seem to upload it here. What's wrong with that? And imeem seems to have gotten faster. It was very slow so i stopped using it and didn't changed the song for 6 mths.

3. A few days before going back to kuching for Chinese NewYear, there was a flood in Brunei. I'm sure most of us experience it. I was at the Mall when the it flooded. Lol. Along with some friends. Wasn't able to went home for the night. I could have but it seems there was no electric at home so my parents asked me to stay at Chungsun's house where i watched eagle eye. Ty chungsun and his parents.

4. While in Kuching, i went to visit my friends. Hmmm, it's the first time really that i went 'bai nian' in kuching in a group. I mean, not counting the family ones. Something happened in Kuching also. It's a flood! Haha!! And guess what, it was up to 2 .5 feet and me and my cousins went swimming while it's raining! Water WAR!!!! Also the water was quite dirty and i did in fact swallow some water, it was still fun.

5. Last sunday, i went to work as a sort of waiter at the award ceremony at the chinese temple. Was only busy for like 2 hours distributing food although we went from 7:30 till 1. But still it was the easiest and not to mention the first 30 bucks i earned in a job! Ok, it's my first real job also la.

Wow, some people had passed the 100 post mark in their blog and i'm still in my 80s coming 90. Well, I'll try to get to 100 mark before i go for NS! My results coming out soon too so wish me luck. Yes, I will try my hardest to maintain 2 blogs! Sorry but the 2nd blog is a blog i shared with the top J.O ppl so it's sort of not open to public. Right? Szeyee?

P.S, can somone help me change my layout for this blog or not? I can't seem to do it. Also don't feel much like blogging when i log into my page. Haha. I would sure like an autumn theme layout @@

BIG BANG BIG BANG!!!!

2008-09-13T17:22:00.000+08:00

Wooo, recently been listening to really really REALLY old songs. Waseh, must be songs from my preteen period. Finally found a song i have been looking for for the past 3 months. It's Thank You by Dido! By Dido lagi le... It's a song i've heard and i really like most part of the song la...

Thank You - Dido

My tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why
I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
And I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be grey
But your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it's not so bad
It's not so bad

I drank too much last night, got bills to pay
My head just feels in pain
I missed the bus and there'll be hell today
I'm late for work again
And even if I'm there, they'll all imply
That I might not last the day
And then you call me and it's not so bad
It's not so bad and

Chorus :
I want to thank you
For giving me the best day of my life
Oh just to be with you
Is having the best day of my life

Push the door, I'm home at last
And I'm soaking through and through
Then you hand me a towel
And all I see is you
And even if my house falls down
I wouldn't have a clue
Because you're near me and

[Chorus] x 2

Courtesy from www.absolutelyrics.com

Also would like to recommend this Korean group called Big Bang. I find their songs really nice to listen to lo. Their genre is like electronics or something with some old skool hiphop ey~~~ Some of you might not find it nice but i don't care :P

Here's two videos from them. Both sounds quite similar but i still like them both though i like HaruHaru better la. Lies is also quite ok la but I love its MV the most. Hahaha!! Go watch it and pay attention to what the girl kill the other guy with, hahaha!!! I was like 'WTF' ROFL!!! HaruHaru or Day by Day's MV is very clique and typical korean drama scene.. Lame but i like the song. Without further a do.

Haru Haru (Days After Days)

Haru Haru (Days After Days) Part II - Same song

Big Bang - Lies

Other nice songs from them are:
Last Farewell
Heaven
Stand Up.
Always
and LOTS more!

I like BigBang coz they're not like the typical boy group nowadays. None of them are those 'cute' nor handsome or hot guys. These are the people selling their talents and music, not looks! Ehseh. They all look.... erm, average only. Plus, seems like they're leading the fashion trend and even beat Wonder girls and F.T Island(another ok group) to an award le. Nice~~~

The girl in the HaruHaru video is actually another 'plastic'. Hmmm, so many 'plastic' in korea nowadays. I actually prefer Stars which don't have any plastic surgery lo... Sigh...

T@gGed

2008-09-06T14:44:00.003+08:00

Starting time: 2.47pm
Name: KiSSang
Sisters: 2
Brothers: 1
Shoe size: 8.5 to 9(more comfortable) (I have big feet thanks to my dad)
Height: 170 XP I should grow tall already! Anyway, almost la

Where do you live:Kuching, Sarawak
Favourite drinks: Softdrinks, Pearl Milk Tea, MilkShakes
Favourite breakfast: Erm, have to wake up for one hour b4 taking. A lot lo but more loves mum's cook! Mee goreng also nicest!

Have you ever been on a plane?: Yes
Swam in the ocean: Yeah, In my ocean of thoughts during exams. Got drowned
Fallen asleep at school: Errr, you're asking the president of the unofficial sleeping club at F5Sc '06' plus World Sleeping Championship title holder le
Broken someone's heart: Mom's(didn't meant that), not that i know of
Fell off your chair: Don't think so
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: Err, I prefer sleeping
Saved e-mails: Those i find inspiring as well as those which contains important stuff like password and such. Scare to lose it

What is your room like: A dump when i share with my cousin here. Back home, just plain avg room with a messy table and stuff which are in boxes and mostly not mine... In other words, a storage room
What's right beside you: The window
What is the last thing you ate: My self cooked noddles. Not instant one. I have talent ;-)

Ever had chicken pox: Think so. At least I was told that when i was a baby
Sore throat: Is this a trick question?!
Stitches: Nope. Got one big big scar on forehead
Broken nose: Doesn't matter. Bad nose anyway but no

Do you believe in love at first sight: Sure?
Like picnics: Yeah!!! especially with lots of foods. F5Sc picnic!
Who was/were the last person/people you danced with: Myself imagining
Last made you smile: Myself, I find stuff to make me laugh and smile
You last yelled at: Kiung Kiwi

Today did you:
Talk to someone you like: Err, I'm happy living my life. Have lots of likeable ppl to talk with.
Kissed anyone: My bro but that's family so no.
Get sick: Healthy as bull
Talk to an ex: No ex
Miss someone: Miss my family as always but not intense
Eat: Yeah

Best feeling in the world: When all me dreams come true
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: No, my long pillow got la when i get back Brunei
What's under your bed: Another bed mattress
Who do you really hate: backstabbers, no one now in particular
What time is it now?: 3.08

Random:
Is there a person who is on your mind now: Nah
Do you have any siblings: -.-" Tiga, Three, San, 'sam'
Do you want children: Not sure. If have, then have lo. What matters to me is to enjoy life now and stop thinking of somthing which i should not be worry about now. I'm still young,ok?
Do you smile often: Yeap, laughing to be exact
Do you like your hand-writing: YEAH! Best handwriting among guys i know. Some say it's like a little girl's.... cute and neat
Are your toe nails painted: Yeah, with a layer of protein
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: Parent's
What color shirt are you wearing now: White. Pure as always, hahaha
What were you doing at 7:00 p.m. yesterday: Taking a nap
I can't wait till: The KL trip with the cheap ppl in my life
When did you cry last: errr, don't know. A few years back?
Are you a friendly person: Usually

Do you have any pets: House owners i lived in hate pets (mom , aunt...)
Where is the person you have feelings for right now?: -.-" I don't have
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?: My sweet grandma ^^
Do you sleep with the TV on?: Yeah, when i fall asleep in front of it. Happens during afternoons only
What are you doing right now?: Killing time and trying to find stuff to do so that i don't have to go study
Have you ever crawled through a window?: Yeah
Can you handle the truth?: Try me
Are you too forgiving?: Err, serious matter? No!
Are you closer to your mother or father?: Mumsy
Who was the last person you cried in front of?: Forgot
How many people can you say you've really loved?: Love is a strong word but still a lot ;)
Do you eat healthy?: Living in my aunt's? Definitely
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex: NO eX BAH!!!! CCB! Keep asking! Single for 18 coming 19 years liao ba!
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?: Nah, I think I'm the one with that power
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to?: My comp! I wanna be alone to clear my mind
Are you loud or quiet most of the time?: Loud and crazy
Are you confident?: So so

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
1.I celebrated my 1st to 8th birthday
2.I was in primary 3
3. I went to tuition for the first time in my life
4. I was curious and naive about everything
5. I thought i was in heaven with nothing to care less. Boy, was i wrong

5 things on my to-do list today:
1. Study
2. Eat
3. watch Tv
4. Sleep
5. Web surfing

5 snacks I enjoy:
1. Cakes
2.Chips
3. Chocolates (YEah!! Most of them!)
4. Cookies
5. Ice cream

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1. Buy all I want including my 10 hectares compound mansion
2. Donate to unfortunate
3. Become king of a country
4. Invest.. invest and make more $$$$$
5. Travel around the world

5 of my bad habits:
1. Cheap
2. Sleeping in classes
3. Drooling when sleeping
4. Eat all I can
5. Lazying

5 places I have lived in:
1.Brunei
2. Miri
3. Kuching
4. Johor bahru for a week for CNY a few years back
5. Hotels in places i visit (technically 'lived' there before right?

5 jobs I've had:
1. Human
2.Son
3. Brother
4. Student
5. Unemployed (also a 'job' can?)

5 people I tag:
1. Elbert
2. Peiyi
3. Jeffrey
4. Li ping
5. Sze Ern

Severe finger

2008-09-06T00:37:00.005+08:00

Ok, I severed my right index finger this wednesday night... opening a can. Darn it. Bled quite a lot. Can even see my bone liao... Err, it doesn't hurt as much as i thought it would be lo, or am i more resistance to pain now than i used to? I tried to open that damn can of sardine.... using a bottle opener! Yes, those old style one. The one they used to pop open those glass bottle coca cola back in my parents' day.

It's my first time opening a can with a bottle opener ok?! Seems that the can opener was broken already. Btw, i cut it from the frontal part of the finger ok.? Not from the palm. You know, the bony part with finger nails of course can see bone la, haiya. There's only a sheet of skin there nia ma. Why when i told people i could se my bone that they become so shocked one? Then i realized that oh ya ho... can cut from the fatty area to the bone ho. Sorry for causing any concern though i don't think anyone knows la, hahaha~~

Photos of my severe finger and my pimpleful face. Don't mind the background. I just thought of it and took the pics with the laptop's webcam ;O)

The yellowish thing are NOT pus. That's my skin which was cut apart from the rest of the skin. I think that part of skin has already died la but i've simply stick it back to cover the wound coz part of the skin was still attached to the main one ma.. You may notice that it's quite dirty around it... Well, that's my blood. Haven't wash my fingers in three days liao, hope it get better soon before my mock... Oh yeah, I bandaged that myself so don't laugh at my 'masterpiece' using cellotape...

Really Randoms

2008-07-12T18:55:00.004+08:00

If my blog is a person and posts are what keeps him alive, my blog must be a bed-ridden sick old man. Might as well end life, cut loose and get on with life. Haha. Tried changing the skin but can't seem to do it right. Skins from blogskins doesn't seems to work. LOTS of editing needed. Being a Tech-no doesn't make it more easier. Darn it. :/ No, i'm not closing down my blog. Just lazy to update. I do read others blogs and i admire their passion to keep it updated like kennysia, xiaxue and my friends like liping and chung sun. no wonder my english seems to be getting quite poor compared to when i was in form 5.

I'm feeling pressured. Failed maths and chem on the last sem's finals. And by a really big margin too. I'm thinking of going tuition for maths. For chemistry and bio, i'll be working my arse on it. On a side note, i've still managed to pass that compulsory sub but not safe yet. Just pass is not going to cut it. Might go tuition for that as well. How come my friend like Jeff have that kind of serious attitude when it comes to studying and i don't? I thought you'll become more similar with the people you hang out with over time? Man.....

I just need to be in the right mood i think. Hmmm, it's really hard for me to have that mood lo. It only happens right before exams and tests. Even for O level, i studied last minute. Was lucky to pass all. Lots of specs dropped for that ;-) I've been a happy go lucky guy for most part of my life. But this time, it's different. I feel the vibe. That this is definitely one of those obstacles that determines my life. One of those time point which changes my entire life and how i'm going to live.

I failed even in average for the last sem. And when i told this to mom, She said " You have to start working hard lo, If you fail, then what is the purpose for you to sacrifice a comfortable life to return to malaysia to study?" Somewhat like that. And it struck me hard. She clearly sounded disappointed. I've always tried not to let her down and it's been going well with few occasional disappointments but not in my studies. She never have to worry about that starting form 1. I was always in her expectation(I've always have higher la) to at least pass but now? I've assure her last time that i'll pass and i did. This time, i assured her that i won't fail too much in maths and chem but i did. At least 30% margin for both.

Sorry, if i bored you with this. It seems that all i can blog about are studies. I don't have an interesting life. It's just been like going with the flow of fate. Smooth, calm and nothing interesting ever seems to happen. Well, it's not like my life is dull, it's colourful. But once in a while i would live to have something extreme. Something totally out of ordinary of my life. But phew, if i'm always that way, i would have died of depression. ;)

Something out of ordinary
I had a grey hair plucked out of my head by a friend! GREY HAIR! Me! My face doesn't suit to have grey hair! It's like a baby with armpit hair! It's just plain unacceptable! I must be worrying too much and sleeping irregularly. Have to live like a normal teenage such as able to not sleep in class even if the teacher's one of the most boring teacher i've ever met. Yes, i still continue that habit ;( It acts as a defense mechanism for boringness. Haha! Might as well make that my resolution for next year. Hmm, don't think i've made any resolutions before. It would be a new start.

I found out that i'm a flirt or at least feels like one based on the reactions of people around me. Whenever I'm close to any members of the opposite sex, I would be deemed falling for them. Either we're together or i'm hitting on them. Ok, luckily people who truly knows my 'lovey' attitudes (which is few) towards female counterparts is just a sign of a deep rooted pure friendship with them. Maybe even sisters liao. Don't mind the rumours though, it must mean the people are jealous and are denying the possibly of a true pure friendship between man and woman. I feel sorry for them to live in such a small tiny world ;)

To end this post. I hereby solute two of my friends for understanding themselves and I'm really happy for them. Now the fun begins *evil grin* Hahahahahahhaha!! You know who you are Mr ------- and Miss -----. Ironic event. lol!

Rat Dissection XD

2008-05-22T14:08:00.011+08:00

My 1st sem exam was disastrous, not only will i fail maths, i'll also be failing chemistry too! Things doesn't look good for me. Fact: i've already got the maths 2 paper back which i had more confident in but then, i failed badly.... Everyone failed as well but how i wished i passed. Today is the last day of the exam... Maths 1 paper and duh, going to fail but have the feeling that it won't be as bad as paper 2. Man, and my maths 2 is supposed to be better than maths 1... Enough of this rubbish, i'm enjoying myself today! But then have to go back to school for 40 minutes tomorrow morning at 10 to finish up the last part of the mouse dissection. Drawing the heart we preserved in formalin. Will stink like soul milk....

Yup, the rat dissection is really fun and interesting! I never for a minute there thought it was disgusting and gross, ( a bit cruel but i got through) instead, i see lots of knowledge and guts and so on. Lol! Pics included! Get a bin or plastic ready in case of nausea ;) Don't worry, i'll start with some heartwarming pics. ;) Unfortunately i do not own a camera so it's all taken with my phone.

This is Mr. Mickey and Mrs. Minnie. I got them the day before the dissection. Need 2 white mice to look at the three systems in the body. (Circulatory, Digestive and Respiratory) And yes, i dissected not 2 but 3 white mice, wahahahahaha! One for practice ma....

!!! RED ALERT!!!
PICS STARTING TO GET UGLY

Anyway, i didn't take the pics of these two when i'm done with them but i did take some from the practice. (The bitch is a strict power hungry whore)

Anyway, first we crucify it like so.

Then we peel off its skin to see a transparent popia skin like skin? LOL! Even got some reddish black meat like thingy and greenish thingy that look like veggies le... Don't hate me if you don't like popia after this.... Haha. This photo is the most clear pic i can find on my phone. Stupid phone cheated me by showing a clear pic of it when i snapped it. Turns out this way :'-(

We need to cut open the popia skin and reveal a digestive system like this. Man, it smells like toilet! There seems to be some soury urinary smell. But i got used to it soon enough with the help of surgical mask anyway. The black thingy on the top are the livers. The greenish little thing just below is is the colon. Why it's green? The shit is still being half digest when i killed it, that's why. The others are the small intestines, large intestine and rectum and such.

This is how the final form of the digestive system will look like.

See any needles? ;) White mice are actually quite cute but for my assessment, i just had to killed it.

Whose hand is that? ;)

I'm focusing ok.... (actually just posing)
They say i look like a psychotic mad doctor here.... One of those bian tai.....
Loooookie here, it's dancing with me!

Don't drop your guts miss....

My last memories with Ms. Minnie. I made her a widow for 3 days by dissecting her husband Mr. Mickey. I finally release her from that pain of losing her loved one... To make up for her loss for the three days,i fed her cornflakes le... Ppl said i treated her better than when i treat a human. WHAT? Human will betray you ba. Unlike Miss mousy here. She literally gave me her blood, tears and life. Feel guilty especially when i accidentally cut her main vein which caused her to bleed non stop. Oh well. That's the end of this post. I'm going to play with my bro for now ;-)

Hectic and...?

2008-04-26T18:28:00.000+08:00

Ok, i was lazy and so didn't blog for quite a while (one month?) It was such a hectic and damn tiring month for me. Never seem to have enough sleep and rest. My eyes got smaller and my 'hei yuan quan' has gotten deeper and wider due to lack of sleep. (btw, what's english for hei yuan quan?) Pardon my poor english now. Form six here is definitely damn torturing.

We're having weekly tests nowadays. -.-" The teachers just have to give us the short quizzes and tests so that we can study. I mean it's good la considering that will definitely motivate me to study earlier before the 1st semester test. But what's annoying is that my stupid bio teacher expect us to have time to study, read the reference, do homeworks and read newspaper. Sounds like no problem. But when you have to stay back at school for four days a week for extra classes, duties and group study(after the extra class and a free tuesday), where do you have time for that? What?! Aren't we human?!!? Stupid B!@tch!!! We need at least a bit of time for something to release our stress called leisure! What the heck? You want us to go over the bend issit?

And somehow, I think she think we have so much time that instead of doing our work, we're wasting it off! We don't! We also have our responsibilities and need some personal time off!
I mean, teenage life is a hard phase of life we're going through so STOP assuming everything, you ******! Stop saying what we should have done, what we should do next! You don't have control over our life you control freak!

Sigh.... My forehead is still a grand canyon, sprouting out new geysers( at the average of 3) everyday. Can see my stress or not? In form 5, when i don't have much stress, i won't have much pimples anyway but now... sigh... Man, say stfu also kena condemn. My class is just full of 'polite' people and nerds. To me, polite people something makes me feel that they're so fake. Not sure la, that's just me. Scary also, i like to be around real people which the human nature to joke and stuff, not some future good employees (people who can rarely savour financial success due to lack of creativity and ideas).

So sien one.... I mean, it's like you won't break any traditions and just follow the the cycle which bourgeoisies have install for you. Just study, work, marry, give birth, retire and die. Why can i have like travel around the world or get rich or have fun for 10 more years in that list?
For nerds, ok la. I'm saying this because i've become a nerd and thus will try not to laugh at them. XP

We'll be practicing our dissection on mice on tuesday and i think it ain't gonna be pretty. See? Have to stay back also. What's more, we have short tests: maths 1 on monday(which i'm definitely going to flunk), pa on wednesday and friday(very long so have to split into half). Luckily thursday is labour day so won't have to go to school otherwise, they'll be a test as well. Test for whole week lagi.... Haven even go through that week and is already feeling the pressure. I'll definitely take the pics of my dissection experiment ;)

OOOoo, btw, my dad came by just last saturday. ;)

The right major for me?

2008-03-22T23:37:00.001+08:00

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You scored as Psychology/Sociology

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It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it.

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Psychology/Sociology

100%

History/Anthropology/LiberalArts

100%

Accounting/Finance/Marketing

94%

HR/BusinessManagement

88%

Education/Counseling

81%

PoliticalScience/Philosophy

69%

French/Spanish/OtherLanguage

63%

English/Journalism/Comm

56%

Biology/Chemistry/Geology

44%

Religion/Theology

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Visual&PerformingArts

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Great news

2008-03-19T22:23:00.003+08:00

Right, And here comes the good news. I PASSED ALL MY TESTS IN LAST TWO WEEKS' PRE SEMESTER TEST!!! Yes! You did NOT read it wrong! I PASSED ALL!!! Quite unexpected when a few number of people still failed in certain subjects. I'm so proud actually. I'm not that good in science subjects but since this pre semester exam, i feel more confident in achieving the 3.5 pointer i set myself for STPM. O, for an extra info, the overall pointer is 4. So, 3.5/4 is very hard to get. Getting 4 are for people like chi how, ccs and jie ming (Hmm, i'm turning into a geek? LOL!)

Here's the report of my grades( for form 6, 45 is the passing mark) :
Biology: 32/70= 46 and i might be able to get 47 if i get that extra one mark out of 70
Chemistry: 50 (Yes, over 100 and quite a good score compared to others)
English: According to my calculations, it's 81
Maths: Paper 1= 23/100 but paper 2= 72/100, so it's 47.5
PA(Malay)= 58/100

Right, i know it's still not good considering that most subject are in the boundary line of life and death . But still, when everyone have something that fails, it's a great achievement for me. Hello, this is Mr. KiSS you're hearing from. I mean, i prove myself that i can study and can achieve what others don't expect me to get, that i can be a genius as well. Side note: In other class, no one passed biology and i did. And the one who should had gotten the best mark in my class turned out to have 1 mark less than me. ;P

Here's a hurtful conversation someone had with me before the biology paper was given.
Sad guy who failed despite having tuition: Did you hear, all Sci 3 students' Bio paper 'quan jun fu mo'? The highest is only 41!
Pitiful me: What? Hmmm...(not much reaction)
SGWFDHT: The person who got the highest in the other class got a big fat cross for her essay! And everyone's essays are also like that.
Me: Hmmm, right.... but i believe Abraham(the guy who always get the highest in class for bio) will bring glory to our class. And i think our class will be better than them.
SGWFDHT: I agree. So, what do you think of it?
Me: I still think I have a fair chance of passing... Although a bit low but nevertheless i feel that even if i fail the paper, i won't be far from passing.
SGWFDHT: Wah! The highest in other class got 16/20 in her objective, what makes you think you can do better than her?

Ahem, the conversation went on something like this in chinese. But hey, although i'm a bit hurt for being looked down on,but he kept his fricking mouth shut when i got 31/70*100=44. But that's not all, teacher left out 1 mark from the calculations of marks and i got 32/70*100=46. Yeah! I passed! In your face! I didn't have tuition and i got a pass, what did you get?! Hmph! I know he fail only la. He's expected to fail as well actually.... I mean, why can't i changed and pass? I mean everyone have a fair chance of passing so don't ever judge a book by its cover, ok?

Now that i whine about my life and brag about my grade, i'm expecting rewards. LOL!

Start of school sem?

2008-03-17T21:54:00.003+08:00

Although the new school sem did start today but i don't feel like it's the real official start of the new school sem. Why le? Because ho, after wednesday, we will have a 2 days holiday for thursday and friday. It seems that there's someone very important in the country whose birthday is on thursday so we're on holiday again. Then on friday, it's good friday for Christians, so holiday lagi. Waseh, when we have good friday in Brunei, i don't see anything happen le~~~(at least not around me la)

And as usual, in Malaysia, there's no schools on Saturday and Sunday. But,buT,bUT,BUT... there's more. I heard that there's another occasion on next monday(24/3), so we'll have another holiday on that day too. Sart or not? 5 straight day holiday eh. Hmmm, so i'm not in the mood for studying yet. Go to school for three days after a 10 day holiday and another 5 day holiday comes by again. Mana ada mood? Why didn't i skip these three days' classes and went back to Brunei since the start of my last holiday ah? Sien.... just know about it today. And i must say, as always, my signal is considered fast and efficient.

Hmmm, i got a few of my papers back from my pre sem test today but i won't announce it first. Let's just say that things turned out alright for me.... Just alright.... Sigh, i'm staying back until the evening even for these three days of school. Haiz, what a busy life i lead. Bo pian, people who do big business like me are always busy one la~~~ hAhahaHaHA!! (ok, you can puke now)

Holiday

2008-03-07T23:20:00.004+08:00

It's holiday now and guess what? I don't have any homeworks! Erm.... not exactly though.... But i'm not doing it? Haha, going back to the lazy old self again right after pre semester test. I sort of have a very high on my biology, chemistry and maths 2. As for maths 1. I'm definitely flunked it.... Man! Big mistakes!!! And it was a very easy paper!!! People are so going to get 70 above while i have to be content with a 20. Argh!!! I'm so angry with myself! I was too confident so i only studied 10 minutes for maths 1.

I'm not usually good in maths but how could i had been so confident? It's matrices.... and should be very easy. But i messed up 3X3 matrices while the majority part of the scores come from.... Shang Xin... This is what i called stupidity. Taken aback by my own foolishness. I may as well dig a hole when i get that paper back to save myself from all the humiliation...

However, i'm quite confident in my maths 2. Cause i was able to do correctly a 14/50 mark question. Some people can't do it so i feel a bit proud la. Lol! I mean it's not everyday that you find me, Mr. KiSS says that he's expecting a high grade in a maths test. In case no one remembers, i failed every add maths test in all form 5. I managed to pass 2 in form 4 though... lol

Hmmm, went out with friends to eat sushi king today at the spring. Got very full until i can't eat dinner... And for Rm 31 . Hey, it's consider very cheap if you compared to Brunei. Don't know whether i can be full or not with B$20 or not.

Went to watch movie today after the sushi .. We were going to watch jumper but it had already shown at 2:30.(We got there at around 3:20) and who the hell say the movie starts at 3:30 arh? >.> But then they want to watch vantage point. And you know what? I, KiSS don't like no movies like these. Assassination movie with a cute and determined bodyguard. And some hot and pretty girl gets involved....blah,blah,blah. An TYPICAL movie. There's no originality already these days for action movies. Boring. I think the movie will end with either the assassin got his target and live freely after or the assassin was killed or captured. You want to read/ watch an action movie? I can also write one for you la. Here's an evidence to prove that i was right that it was gonna suck.

Anyhow, we didn't watch that movie. Cause i managed to convince them to watch this one instead. The Mist based on stephen king's book. If you don't know stephen king, erm... I'm speechless since even i know. Note that i don't like to read books....much. It's a VERY good movie!!! Must watch! All movie of my choice are always interesting de la~~~ coz i'm very interesting de ma *pukes* I rate it a 4/5. Why minus one? Because it made me very kek sim...

Well, anyway i'm off to enjoy my holidays. Tata~~

Post CNY schedule

2008-02-18T21:30:00.004+08:00

I am NOT lazy these days at blogging la. Just that my schedule is REALLY TIGHT! And i had not been getting enough sleep so if you're here, you can catch me sleeping in almost every class except.... CHEMISTRY!! Shocking but true. I just kept on copying everything she's explaining and from her slides and the board and i can really understand! Wow! Never thought i would be interested in chemistry. Well, organic chemistry la coz i heard that there's little calculations and many theory. There's also lots to memorize which i had not started.

Pre-semester test is coming and i'm a bit anxious. I really want to start studying but i can't. My schedule is like a uni student's schedule and even longer. Going to school at 7 am then only to go home after 5pm for the past one week! Really tired after that and after i finish my homeworks(some of it), it's time to sleep! How am i suppose to study like that. I'm starting to regret of having to participate in so many activities. Too many, i don't have enough time! My initial purpose of joining so many activities so that i can pass these boring days quickly to head out for uni. But what's the purpose if i can't even pass?

Bad thing happened. My pencil box, that 'nightmare before christmas' one got broken. The zip went off and i can close it now... have to buy a new one.... Worse, one of my tooth hurts during chinese new year. Though the pain stopped now, i don't think it won't stop till here. I need to find a dentist... fast! But can't seem to because of my packed schedule. :( And i can see one of my front tooth decaying.... OH no! You might see a bunny with a lost teeth the next time i went back! NO! But wait, i might not go back to brunei this year... Holidays will only be a week from now and these 'holidays' will actually have 'extra classes'. Talk about holidays. Since when did the definition of holidays changed? Let's check the dictionary. From the dic it says:' any day exemption from work'. Since students are considered as an occupation and works given are known as assignments and homeworks. I don't think we can sue anyone for this, can we? I mean it is a violation of human rights.

Wrote an english essay to enter the Commonwealth Essay Writing Competition and i feel stupid to pass that up... I mean i try to write it like it was from a mature adult and with a local flavour of Malaysia. Local flavour? Yes! Mature? No! Over dramatic? Definitely! Haiz... i might want to write another one to compare. If it is better, then i'll use it... But given the current time i have... i don't think i can... Well, at least it was a nice try...

By the way, i have a few nice songs to recommend. English songs la. First is built to last by melee and the second one is Bleeding love by leona lewis. Go find it,lol! Anyway, please do recon some songs for me. am a music freak these days... could be my way to get rid of pressure...

annoyance...

2008-02-04T23:15:00.000+08:00

as wat i expected, ssiang is stil soakin in his so-called awaitin-for-cny mood..he's been de same.. lazy n slackened by his own attitude.. Its crystal clear by readin ur blog.. U hav time 2 write new post.. Yet lazy 2 do ur essay.. N congras on findin a new 38 mate.. At least better than wat i encounter in pteb.. Ppl here r (OMG!) freakingly out of de world.. It seems tat i came fro mars.. Of de same type they r.. Annoyin n dreadfully different tone.. Its like i say hello they reply thank you.. N talkin bout pimples.. Strive 2 obstruct de spread lo.. Pimples infection can b pandemic.. Awful n terribly indestructable.. Chinese new yr.. Hmmm.. I'l b stayin in brunei.. First tym.. I don feel any c ny-liked atmosphere here lo.. Well mayb in q-lap huaho.. Where u can see a lot of barbarians rampage around.. Knockin ppl n things.. It was so cramped in there.. I went just nw.. Anyway.. I'm havin a debate soon.. On capital punishment.. Err.. Disgusted.. Al de best then.. Good luck ppl.. Good luck 2 me 2..
P.s i passed my law..nenene bubu.. Blez.. :p

Jeffrey kong

Pre New Year Spirit

2008-02-03T22:12:00.000+08:00

Yes! Chinese New Year will be here in a few days and i'm already getting lazy. Can't blame me, my holiday started from 1st till 11th. My family's coming over to Kuching and I can't wait to see my little baby brother (who by the way forgot my voice when they call from Bintulu). Can't blame him... he just woke up from a nap(which i can obviously differentiate). They'll be here tomorrow so i wouldn't be able to get online for a week. Why? Cause i'm going to stay in my grandparents' house until they leave which doesn't have a good signal of everything. Not even for my cell.

I'm been lazy in my studies since i came back. No surprise huh? I don't know... it just seems that i'm so carefree about it but the fact that i actually really do care but refuse to do anything about it kinda bugs me. Even my dear friends back in Brunei can't feel my stress that i kept so well in me. I guess i have my facial expression to thanks for that. Well, maybe i'm not really stress usually but i do stress when tests and exams are coming. But i vowed to do better once chinese new year ends. I hope i do succeed. But hey, i'm making effort in maths 2.

I have a 1500 word essay to write for my english class(MUET) cause i was voted by the majority of class (17:1) to participate in the commonwealth writing competition. There's also 4 others who were voted to write. And they need four to participate.... I'm LAZY!!! I kept on emphasizing to my classmates that my english is not really THAT good and that it's deteriorating rapidly. I think if they read some of my old classmates' essay back in chunghwa, they'll blow their head off. Truth is, i don't have much confidence in my vocabulary. I once saw haohan's essay and woah, i can't even understand some of the words in it without looking up the dictionary.

I find that i always get misunderstood with girls i get close to. There's a girl in my class who sit next to me. Well, I find that she's not that conservative and a bit 38. My kind of people ;) So, we talked a lot and rumors start between the others. A lot speculate that we are together but that's not the case. We're a bit like little brother and older sister(since she's older than me). Luckily, i found that some of my friends were actually not serious and they can feel that we are NOT together. Phew....

Well, i'm sure i told some already that i am the secretary of a club named the Interact club. It's growing quite well compared to other clubs with more than 20 members maybe even 30. Well, recently, i was given the task during a board of directors meeting that they want me to plan an event at a Children's Home. Ok, we're also going to do this activity with another school. I typed the letters and did everything so basically i'm almost done. Just hope nothing goes wrong. This is indeed my first time to be an organising person in charge for a school club and stuff. I think it's a great learning opportunity ;)

And for my school's sport day i went there and [s]compete[/s] sold drinks for my club. Business was quite good the day i went and the sports day lasted for 2 days. Went there on the first day. Hard that business sucks on day 2 so i guess it's me ;)
I must be a money tree~~

OOo, recently have lots of pimples on my face. Yes, even on my cheeks! Oh why me... I might as well do plastic surgery now. Lots of pimple on my forehead and not even pimple cream helps! Hmmm, could it be the fact that i start eating veggies? Man! I don't want to become a red bean bun! T.T

Well it's been ages since i updated and so blame it on my laziness. But i got nothing interesting to tell so will blog nonsense even if i did. Well, anyway, i'm sharing this blog with jeffrey so you can sometimes heard from him through my blog. Just look out for the name jeffrey kong after each post and you'll know it's his post. Well, Ta ta and happy chinese new year!

A new flavor of life...

2008-01-25T15:57:00.000+08:00

Well, startin today, i'l b adding some post... I'm not a crazy blogger who tends 2 share everythin 2 de world... I need privacy.. We need privacy.. Anyway i'm juz a short term weekly blogger... Not tryin 2b a 'blogmaniac'... Control urself people... Astonishment and disappointment juz smashed right at my face.. De pain is excruciating... Words can't describe my feelin.. Well its nothin very serious la.. My teacher said i've been writing crap..Boohoo~ he said if i were 2 hand in sth.. Think wise b4 doing so.. Life's hard in pteb lo.. Hope it'l b over soon.. N there's a guy who i would like b pit myself againstk de law.. I'l kill him if i can.. He looks like a plain paper wit 3 lines... Try 2 imagine.. No characteritics at al. Me at least got 2 thick eyebrow... Easy 2 look4 me when i'm lost... 4him u may mistaken as a fox in de zoo wit his eyes bein hardly pulled from behind... Talkin 2 him is utter annoyance... He keeps on skepticizin ppl intention.. Who he thinks he is? De messenger fro god.. Wake up! I'm bit 'chicken movin' here... Wat can i do? Shud i retort every single word he says? He will kill me cos even ssiang cannot tolerate wit me sometyms.. Mayb i shud juz stay in de library.. So tat i won hav2 look at A4 paper wit somebody scribble on it everytym... I'm so isolated in pteb... De ppl there r at a different tone wit me... They don talk bad bout ppl.. Mayb they do..u know..backstabber... He always stick gold b his face.. I think he got no place 2 stick anymore.. Its full.. Watever la.. Being friends wit him is an extremely insurmountable task.. Help me ppl.. I'm suffocatin and stiflin here.. R u wondering who de hell is this 'thing'? Well he's juz a dirt in my life... Haha.. I'm 2 mean.. Sorry guys hav 2 bear wit me..
P.S there's some part i'm over-exaggerating... But arnd 99% is true..

Jeffrey kong

I may not know it but i understand

2007-12-12T16:06:00.000+08:00

Wah, my first post after a long time of inactivity on the blog scene. My excuses this time? Erm... let's see, nothing interesting happened. Well, not that my life had been a roller coaster ride. But i seem to have an inspiration to blog right now. Strange, i thought i lost that when i went to kuching. I'm searching for a new skin for my blog now... So leave a comment in case i do change it. Maybe i should make one myself! ...................errr ok... comp idiot here, i'll stop embarrassing myself now -.-"

Well, food for thought first. Have you ever wondered what will we be like in the future? Your high school friends, your bff.... your ex maybe? Ok, i have no ex so cut me some slack. Imagine, one day when you were picking your daughter/son from school in maybe America?(who knows that you might migrate there). Then a horny,bitchy bitch honked at you because she couldn't get pass your car although you think there were enough space to pass. So, you raise your middle finger to her and say 'fuck you!'. LOL!!! She came out of her car and asks you to pull down your window where you both realized almost immediately that you were high school friends back in the days.

Lol. Now that's would be an awkward scenario,wouldn't it? Let's add some more spice into the scenario. You see that she's pregnant and suddenly a kid runs towards her yelling mommy! Wow, some shock. How about we replace that friend with your ex who you dumped? And what's worse, your wife. Awkward~~~

But nah, it wouldn't be awkward for me. I mean if it's my friend(Eteng, Chiayee,Mayan....etc) then i have perfectly no reason to be awkward let alone embarrassed by my finger pointing act. LOLx! We would laugh about it, i'm sure :p Why? Because i have never been too polite to them(but not too rude either,mind you) to begin with. They know my style and since we're true friends, they would have expect and accepted the way i acted. What i want to prove here is that friends accept the way you are and won't change you if your personality is not that bad. I mean if you have the tendency of doing over unacceptable things, true friends will change you and guide you in telling you what's wrong with you. No, they wouldn't laugh at you or at least deep down inside them. And if you can't accept the criticism or the embarrassment that they have thrown at you, then i'll say you're such a nice 'true' friend you are yourself.

I mean if you can't forgive them for something they did wrong to you, then how can they forgive you if you did wrong to them. True friends are about forgiveness. If you are causing great distress for your true friends(or so you thought they're true) then what kind of friends you are. Of course this only apply to friends who had been with you through thick and thin.

I want to say STOP dreaming for those who has ever been complaining and whining about friendship problems, blah,blah,blah~~~ Friends are not perfect, even true friends and bff. Your friends are won't be there every time you get into deep shit. They would like to but they can't. It's the heart that's count. I mean even if your bff can't be with you when you're in deep shit, they'll still be worry about you, and wonder how things turned out. You might not know it but if your friendship holds true, then it's certainly is that way.(if they knew about it)

Face it, your true friends are not made to be a perfect companion for you. They still have flaws you have to learn to accept. Your life is definitely not like those novels or movies! Yeah right, as if 'may death do us apart' kind of friends is really that easy to find in real life. Lower your expectations! On them and yourself. You all expect too much! I did once but now that i've accepted the fact, it's great! i have great and true friends and i'm positive about it! Although not many but it's enough to last me a hell of a lifetime.

I'm not some over egotistic self proclaimed social butterfly who has always think that they have sooo many friends and many more of that would want to be their friend. To tell the truth, i have not many friends. Heck quality beats quantity as i always have believe. Are you sure that you so called friends wouldn't back stab you when you turn around? How about when you're in deep shit? will they help you? They might be drop another kick at you while you're at it.

Ok, this next statement might seem harsh although i do drag social situations. Some people around me, i never consider them as friends. Seriously. You can feel it when I'm with them and it's a bit obvious. I considered them as just acquaintances, people i know. The people i'll greet when i meet them(or not) but not saying anything more than that. Maybe a few more topics on common stuff but that's all. It's not like i'm going to pass on some hot juicy gossip about who just came out in the open to someone i don't familiar with,someone i don't quite trust(you have to earn trust). I may look like a 'big mouth gossiper' but that's only around some people. Hey, what's life without some juicy gossip to spice up your life?

Jeff, if you're reading this, then let me tell you. You are VERY shitty at times!!! LOL!!! You're sometimes too judgmental but, never mind. I have accepted it. The point i'm trying to prove here is that i don't talk behind my true friends' back. I tell them in the face! LOL! And yet, does that break the friendship? No! If it does then it's not true to begin with.

My last words, don't expect too much, this hurt both sides of a budding friendship. Well, hope this post will entertain you guys. Well, at least some of you XD

PS. True friendship doesn't need advertising! You don't need it out loud even for that friend. No reminder and no regrets! It's a you know i know thingy...;p

Adulthood and you know what that means...Booze time!!!

2007-09-22T23:24:00.000+08:00

In just a few moments, my privileges will change forever! Not only can i do what i want (as long as it's legal) but i can decide my own life! Shocking isn't it to think of all the new work and responsibility you are going to hold. Which actually doesn't mean anything to me except that it would be very troublesome. Being an indecisive person as me, i'll take a lot of time to think about it. In short, i'm the customer who'll make the salesperson tick.

Anyhow, celebrated my birthday in advance with some good friends at the Hartz chicken. of course, i'm paying but only half of the price. Nope, not that it's my birthday(so they'll give a a discount) or i'm so cheap that i'll only pay for half the price....It's just that there's another one of my friend, Dinesh......who shares the same birthday date as me!!! Well, he's younger than me by one year and not to mention an indian. But anyway, it was ok but i feel really unwell after all those food.... Went to buy cd some more with that feeling in my stomach, you know the feeling you get when you're too full......

Spent a lot of $$$$$ today and i'm feeling a wee bit guilty towards my parents. Why? Maybe because i bought Cds with their hard earn money? What's more, games CD. I came all the way to study and why am i doing? Fluttering my money away which will harm me in my studies. Not that i'll study normally but still i don't need any more distractions than i usually have,right? The point is, now i'm spending money to distract my own self. How ironic....

And right now as i sit here typing this post, i had actually drank some alcohol!!! Hehe, i'm in the state between drunk and sober now.... Nah, just a little drunk but it's feels kinda good. I drank a 325ml of Tiger beer which consist of 5% of alcohol and a big mug of roughly the same amount of Royal stout which consist of 8% of alcohol. You think this is going to make me drunk? Hehe~~~

Anyway, my aunt actually allow me to drink for this once since i said it was my 18th birthday, a rite to adulthood. Haha.... and what can adult do which kids can't? Drink, fuck and drive. Since can't do any of the 2 later choice, i'll just pick door no.1. The heck. Anyway, that's all and i might not update my blog sooner since the semester exam is only 12 days away!!!!

I'm becoming worse.

2007-08-30T22:52:00.000+08:00

Sigh...... i feel like an old man these days and think maybe i should retire or something.... I'm just too tired to do anything except watching movies and not moving entirely until the movie ends. The point here is, I'm getting lazier and lazier..... O.O" how can a person like me get lazier and lazier when i am already a lazy person? Well, it's worse now.... even i get the feeling that I'm being too*10000 lazy.

Failed every single tests here.....Not that I'm the only one failing but everyone, failed as well in maths paper 2 and chemistry. Only some people passed maths paper 1.... We haven't gotten our bio back but the teacher had already told us that it was disastrous. I know i failed that one too and so is P.A(Pengajian Am, the compulsory Malay subject that we needed to take...) Heard that the highest is only 12.5 out of 25..... So pass is the highest. I know i failed because:
1. I didn't finish my conclusion
2. I only wrote about 200plus words in which the requirement is between 300 to 350....

I'm just getting slower and slower.....like getting old.... Though i don't expect my self to pass but i also didn't expect myself to fail so miserably... So terrible, it's even worse than when i was in form 5. Depressed? Definitely. Suicidal thought? Unless it's the end of earth.

Planned to go out to Santubong, a place with thick forest as well as a nice beach to catch insects for our group project with my group. We're doing preservations of the insects as well as plants. Due date is three weeks later but it's not enough(for the plants). We need to catch insects! Things that i don't usually touch or even dare to share the same space with. Sigh...... It was suppose to be tomorrow but it was postponed to Saturday....

Now the end of all these shits.

I GOT A NEW LAPTOP LAST SUNDAY!!!! Congrats me and it's great! Web cam is infused into the laptop already!!! All for RM1999! With space of 120GB HDD, DVD player and a digital surround system which comes with it(the catalogue say one la). It's definitely worth it. Did i mention it's ACER? Well, it's my prize possession now. Treasured it really, really much.

That's it. That's the only thing i feel happy about these days....

I'm thinking of taking IELTS. aka The International English Language Test System. I mean with my ability, I'm confident that i won't fail it.....yet, not getting a good results either... Heard that it's really hard but they holding it once a month if i'm not wrong. The catch is.... it cost a bloody 500+ ringgit to take a test like that. don't have that much money... don't wanna waste money unless I'm absolutely confident about taking that test.(which i don't think I'll ever will.....) Oh well, at least it's an internationally recognized test.

I want to learn to drive but i don't think i can with my current schedule..... Sigh.... Life is hard....

No excuses, just tests

2007-08-11T15:55:00.000+08:00

I don't know why but i lost the inspiration to blog nowadays. It's been like around a month since i blogged....Don't know why..... i've even stopped reading blog until just recently. Maybe because i'm having quite a lot of stress and pressure right now all coming in one go. Peers pressure, studies pressure, activity pressure, a bit of family pressure and so on. But what can i do? As someone with high EQ (err-hem), i've identified all these pressure and managed to cope with it. With help from O2jam and my aunt, of course. Of course many events has happened so it's gonna be a long,long post to make up for the long absence.

On a saturday, two weeks ago on 28th of July. Went to an American fast food chain food store. Guess what? It's an all-you-can-eat buffet!!! The name of the store: Hartz chicken!! For only Rm15 (excluding service tax), you can eat all sort of junk food, fast food and fatty food ranging from soft drinks, ice cream, fried/roast chicken meat(plus all the organs inside) to spagetti, curry and marsh potatoes with only 15 ringgit!!! A worthwhile bargain!!! Too bad, i ate until i puke a bit and continue to eat again but at last, i puke again when i got back home. Was too bloated. And it's effect lasted for five days. I call it ' The Hartz effect!'

Some weeks ago(forgot the actual date) .... I was having Muet class(Malaysian University Entrance Exam).... OMG!!! We watch a clip about a woman who's giving birth!!! All the details were inside!!! The private part,the cutting, the blood and the time when the baby came out!!! Yes, all frontal view. Trust me, it ain't pretty. BE GRATEFUL TO YOUR MOTHER!!! Kektio, i wasn't able to eat breakfast during recess after that clip. I know it was gonna be ugly but i didn't expect it to be THAT ugly. Hmmm, maybe the govt could try to promote safe sex but selling that as porn. You know, disgust that documentary as a porn saying hot sex and stuff. Then when those perverts and rapists see it, maybe they'll change their minds.

Chemistry short quiz on a certain monday 6th of August( happens once every chapter finishes)- The effect? The chemistry shocked effect. Don't know whether i might fail or not but hopefully not. Which reminds me that i got around 41 and 2 over 3 for my first chem short quiz. Grade= Pass by a little. Not fair but at least i know i did the right thing by NOT peeking unlike..... but luckily there's only less than my fingers number who are doing that.

A few days ago on a certain wednesday, 8th of August. I had my Bio test! The results, FAIL!!! Yes, the big capital F! I haven't receive my paper back yet but i know my result from my bio/form teacher. Reason is quite simple, i missed chapter one lesson and she focused around 40 marks out of 50 for chapter one. An additional catch is that the chapter one topic was biochemistry. Heck, how am i gonna understand those molecular structures of glucose, cellulose.....etc on my own? I suck in chemistry in case anyone haven't notice especially in calculations and formulae. Damn! Luckily i don't think there wouldn't be much formulae in bio anymore over the next 21 chapters!!!

I almost flipped in class yesterday on 10th August. That guy sitting beside me is sooo damn annoying!!! He keeps making excuses for his annoyance by calling them as jokes. Cheh! What's the point of 'joking' if he's the only one who finds it funny? Plus, i'm not the first and only one who got pissed off at him. I thought maybe i was being a bit oversensitive at first but then again if i'm not the only one who got pissed off, then it's not my fault, ain't it? That's it, i'll be changing my seat even if it means sitting at the first row. It might be torturing in maths class but i'll get use to it soon enough.

Confrontation
In my current school, they also go by the system whereby the prefects takes disciplinery actions against the students. However, they are all understanding and helpful most of the time. They are also reasonable. No, they wouldn't use their special identity like some kind of power hungry freaks. They are only there to advise the students and if they fail, then they have to write down the offender name and pass it up to the disciplinery officer.

Anyway, that's not the main point. I kinda got into a little confrontation with their assistant head girl( sorta like the assistant head of prefects for girls) regarding..... name tags. Yeah, we are all supposed to have a name tag sown to our shirt. But!!! since a lot of the form six students are new students, they don't have their name tags even if we had paid for it a month ago( for me, three weeks). And the prefect wants us to buy a temporary name tag(TNT) made of manila card for 50 cents!!! Hey! We're new students and it should be acceptable that we have no name tags at the moment! It's not about the money, it's about our principle! Plus, the people who are supposed to buy those TNT are supposed to be those who did not bring their name tags to school. So, how the heck are we, the new students suppose to bring it if we don't have it? They should give it to us for free, ya know.

Acting on my instinct, i reasoned with the assistance head girl that i refuse to buy that ugly piece of yellow paper aka TNT. I demanded that she provide a perfectly reasonable reason that we must buy that TNT, giving my reasons and all why i refuse to buy it. Guess what, they just don't have any good enough reasons. Until today, they still haven't give me the reason. Oh, did i mention that their head boy aka big chief of the prefects is in my class? Not even him can give me a good reason.

The other day as i walked through the security check made up by the prefects to check for tidy uniform,TNT...etc after the incident, one of the normal prefect who obviously doesn't know who she's dealing with asked me for my name tag. Turning my head back slowly to look at her, i was about to 'do my stuff' when the assistance head girl(yeah, her again) said never mind about moi, which literally means that i'm free to go without being bother for not having a name tag. That was a sign of my victory.

Went to the kuching fest a few hours ago, and it was great! Lots of food!!! Food heaven!!! It's way better than brunei's pasar malam, that's for sure. And the chinese singers there was magnific! Very good voices. The catch is that there's too many people (and traffic jam) with too little tables there. Lots of different stalls there. I ate a lot of food from different cultures though they're not really imported from the native country or something. They don't call it kuching fest for nothing. I was able to eat korean, chinese, taiwanese, thai, italian, indian and local food. Missed japanese, indonesian and malay food though.... didn't feel like eating sushi unless there is tempura. Most importantly, i ate something called.... FRIED ICE CREAM!!! Yes, it's ice cream which has been fried in bread powder. It'll still be ice cream after it got fried. Locked inside bread, you'll just don't which flavor you're getting until you take a bite.

You Are a Centaur

In general, you are a very cautious and reserved person.
However, you are also warm hearted, and you enjoy helping others in practical ways.
You are a great teacher, and you are really good at helping people get their lives in order.
You are very intuitive, and you go with your gut. You make good decisions easily.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

It's hard for me to make decisions. Hope this long post is enough to make up for the past month. Song added: Planetarium and Flavor of Life.

Busy bee~~~

2007-07-19T22:53:00.000+08:00

I know,i know.... i had been neglecting my blog for almost two weeks. Been quite busy trying to catch up all the topic i missed. I now announce that i like chemistry more than maths. Shocking, isn't it? Don't know but i can't seem to do even the maths i learned like logrithms.... Guess i've been wasting my time in maths class in form 4 and form 5.

Hahaha... Heard that if you have as many position in the clubs you joined at school, it would be more easier to get the scholarships. There was 15 classmate in my class two weeks ago but one left a day later but two more came a week later. Then after another week, another new guy came. So, basically we now have 17 ppl in the class with 7 guys and 10 girls.

There's one guy who came with a girl about a week ago, guess what? He was recruited into the prefects along with the girl the FIRST DAY he came to the school. And today, he was elected as head of prefects!!! Shocking eh.... heard that the reason was before he came to the school, he was already elected as head of prefects in his school before he got transferred. Lots of prefects who didn't get any position and had train for the whole month under rain and sun wanted to quit partially because they suspect that there were favouritisms in the election of the head prefect. It's unfair to them and i guess they didn't know that he was already elected in his previous school. But the other reason was purely because they didn't get any position. Kinda give me an impression that they have the 'sour grape' mentality.

Hmmm, as for me, i had only one position in all the stuff i joined. I was selected by the teacher as supervisor librarian for wednesday but it's all the same except that i get higher marks but more work like writing reports.... Still haven't found a sport to join yet since all the time between the sports and clubs clash together.

Will going onto the street to ask for donations as a member of the red crescent society. I think i'll be going on....umm.... sunday? Not really sure... Thus, you can see i've been really busy.

I think i'll be going back to MD when i go back to Brunei on August. Reason: I need to return the books i borrowed from the teacher personally. Ok, then maybe i can also meet some friends while i'm there as long as it's not too early.... Need sleep now.... good night.

PS. Don't you find my english deterioting? I do.... T.T

You Were Born Under:

Popular and crafty, you are a master at the art of seduction.
You are intelligent and intuitive - and make a savvy businessperson.
You live life to the fullest, even if it means maxing out your credit cards.
Many people are secretly (and hopelessly) in love with you.

You are most compatible with a Rooster or Ox.

What Year Were You Born Under?

Aiya, don't say anymore.... Can't pick business liao!!!

Fate decides it all.And It wants to torture me!!!

2007-07-07T19:29:00.000+08:00

Bah, it had been decided that i'll be studying in Kuching permanently...Studying Sciences, the subjects that I dread so much, the subjects that i vowed never to take again. Sigh, if arts subjects were in English that would be a different story but no..... they have to use malay to teach it. Will begin my search for any nearby tuition for Chem and Maths. Luckily, heard that tuitions are cheap in Malaysia when compared to Brunei.

Decided to join the English club, The Red Crescent Society and ummm, for sports, i might take up bowling or badminton or any other 'easy' sports. Just have to go to the Red crescent for like 18 times a year and the other two clubs for 12 times. Should be easy. But i did take another extra co-curricular activities to gain more marks for my report. Librarian. Heard that it's one of the easiest way to gain more marks,so i just took it. Should be nothing except that i'll be going there every Wednesday.

Currently trying to patch all of flyff's files and it's taking so damn long!!! Why can't they put it with the downloads? Been patching for like 2 hours and it seems like an endless task! But what to do? Have to find something to entertain me until i get back to Brunei for the holidays on 18th Aug. Should be around that date BUT!!! I heard that everyone will be having their tests and exams around that date too!!! Drat! If i miss that chance to go out with them, then i have to wait around until December! Hmmmm, must plan AEAP.

My life is currently as boring as hell! Though the relatives i'm staying with are all swell and good people, they have their own life too, you know....So like i'll be sticking around the house with no one and if i go crazy one day, it has to be because i've been in the house for too long. Hmmm, seems like all i'm doing in my blog is complain,complain and complain which i love to so much. Am wondering what happening in Brunei... There might be a news/rumour so big that i don't even know. Sigh....makes me feel so detached from Brunei... please, someone, keep me updated with the rumours. I can't live without them.

There are a few good things in Kuching that i have to say:
1. The food!!! OMG!!! Everywhere you go, there're bound to be all sort of food! Hmmm, might be the food heaven on Borneo Island. If i keep what i had been doing this entire week, you might see fatty siang the next time i go back.

2. My dad agreed that i could buy a new laptop here if it's cheap.... Hmmm, since i have more freedom now than ever, I might as well buy a PS2 while I at it. Heard that it's around Rm 700
here so, i should be able to buy it. But.....Where can i get a tv? There's only one in the house and it isn't mine...Well, i'll see first, maybe i'll buy a new phone too, Haha~~~ Daydreaming~~

3. Jeff suggested that maybe i should go buy lots of stuff to make up for my mental needs. Errr, he's trying to convert me into a 'Bai jia' person like him, but he does have a point. I mean, if there's nice clothes here, i'll just buy them and use the excuse that i'm buying it for the Chinese New Year,haha!! There's one catch though.....The fashion they sell in Kuching tend to be a little more outdated than other parts of the island like Miri. Hmmm, i'll just pick stuff i like. Haha, if i find it unattractive after buying it, I'll just give it to ppl when i get back to Brunei! HAHA~~~

Oh yeah, no one knows it but i've cut my hair the day before i left Brunei. Well, somehow, it look like the style middle aged men loves to cut when i wake up late in the morning err...afternoon. Wash it and it instantly becomes more stylish. Maybe i should post my current photos of my current hair..... Nah, don't want to give anyone a chance to laugh at my pathetic face.

And there's one thing..... the dogs outside tend to howl every night from a specific hour but until a specific time, they all stopped howling all together. Feels creepy especially in the middle of the night. Everything is sooo silent. Escpecially when all the noises disappear together at the exact same time. And i thought that time just stop... And i just felt weird... I can't really describe it but feels like i'm being watched by many eyes but there isn't really anyone there....Hmmm, my mental health must be getting worse... might even be getting deaf.

Anyway, thanks to some people, i've made it through the first week in Kuching with only little emotional difficulties.
Thanks for:
Sze yee: For calling me as frequently as she could. Even finish her credits just for me though it was gonna be finish anyway -_-"
May yan: Messaging me. At least eventhough she had not been in Brunei, she still offer me emotional supports! Hmph, unlike some other ppl.
Eteng: She's the only one who actually showed some care. Heard from my sis that she called my house to know my number.
Jeff: Aiya, i know you're a cheap guy,so i didn't really expect you would call me. Bleh! But still, at least you are still aware that i'm still alive somewhere and not dead yet unlike some others!

As for others, thanks for letting me to pour all my grievances t0 you on MSN. You know who you are~~~Seriously, unlike some other ppl, yuck! You only know who your true friends are when you've having trouble.

By the way, my number is 0168939737. There, if anyone who still does know my numbers will get a piece of my mind when i go back. Do not give me any excuse! Hmph~~~

You Are 28% Shy

You are slightly shy, but overall, your reactions to social situations are normal.
You dread difficult social situations, but you still handle them with grace.

How Shy Are You?

Bright but dangerous. Dark but safe.

2007-07-03T19:34:00.000+08:00

First post from Kuching. Had been in a bad mood.... It's quite tiring and frustrating. Ok,the day i left i was very emotional. I don't know, maybe i just flipped or something. Was not really mentally prepare to leave. Who would when you only know that you're gonna leave your family and friends four days before you're leaving. Was as shock as anyone.

Oh well, i guess it'll be good for me? Miss my parents!!! T.T
I guess i might get use to it soon? I hope so..... I mean i'll leave them sooner or later but..... I DON'T WANT IT TO BE THIS SOON!!! Sigh.....On a side note: Be grateful you still have our parents around.

First day in Kuching: Well, got up quite early. Went to school and it seems that an academic officer was expecting me. Well, she knew i wanted art and ask whether i want to study in an account class or bahasa melayu. Errrr, dumb question for me, of course i'm choosing Account. And when i got into class, it was......not as i expected. You know, they said that Green Road Secondary School(GRSS)<----- [kinda look like grass......grass school?] is among the best school in Kuching. I was expecting sophisticated, brilliant and interesting minds, not the opposite...... Sigh, art class student are ummmm......artistic? And after a few periods i was dumbfounded...... I was expecting english medium but turns out that they use english in science stream and malay in art. So, how? Don't understand bo.....plus, the class was crowded. With about 30 to 40 ppl.

Day 2: Errr, a weird thing happened. You see, the seniors there( form 4,5 and 6) are all in the morning class and need to wear tie. And so, i went in without a tie since i haven't bought it the previous day. Kinda forgot about it. So ummmm, one of the 'pengawas'(prefect) there stopped me at the gate.

Pegawas: Eh?! Are you in the afternoon class or what? Why come so early?
Me: Errrr, I'm in the morning class......
Pengawas: !!!...... Then, why no tie?!?!
Me: Ummmm, I just transferred here yesterday.......
Pengawas: OHHH!!! Ummmm, well....be sure to take a tie.
*Other pengawas about 20 in line were looking at us the whole time.*
All the pengawas and the one who talked to me(who apparently looks like the head): WELCOME!!!
-_-"'

So now i look like a form 1 to form 3 student. HOW NICE......! *notice my sarcastic tone*
Mei Li Mao!!! Some of them are even younger than me.......and they looked at me with those shocked looks! And i'm suppose to be the senior...Sigh.... what to do? I look young ma.....Dunno whether i should be happy or sad.

I have something to announce..... I'M TAKING SCIENCE T.T..... Chem,maths,english, pelajaran am and the last....(bio or physics?).... I choose bio la. I don't need another subjects with lots and lots of calculations...... It's in english ba,that's why lo. By the way, I'm beginning to like chem....haha, the teacher was VERY NICE!!! Well, now i need to catch up a month's worth of work. Well, at least my new classmate are more friendlier and more what i expected. And guess what, there's only 15 ppl in the science one class and only 5 are boys.

Found out that i need to join a minimum of two clubs(or three)!!! Three categories: Uniformed clubs(cadet, prefect and such), Sports(!!!, Hey, i don't play sports one!!!) and ummm normal club(i dunno la, don't know what they have, i'll go see tomorrow....) Well.....I MISS EVERYONE!!! T.T

This world is sooo cruel.......Might have to go tuition for maths and chem.....

Your Inner Child Is Scared

Like a kid, you tend to shy away from new experiences.
You prefer what's tried and true - novelty is scary!
New foods, new places, and new friends are difficult for you to deal with.
Some say you're predictable, but you enjoy being comfortable.

How Is Your Inner Child?

Really? Are you sure?!?!

2007-06-14T14:13:00.000+08:00

Hmmmm, sometimes i do feel that i have more reader for this blog than i think. Hmmmm, maybe i'm being over sensitive again? But then you'll never know..... Gives me the creeps to know if someone or even a total stranger would read this blog..... Aiye~~~~ But what heck, news would spread like wild fire if i insult anyone here. Haha~~~ (Like one of my early post which insulted a group of ppl which by the way, i don't regret blogging it 'Bleh!!!) It's just something i want to write it out. And what the heck, I WILL NOT try to satisfy anyone since it's my blog.

Yes, reading the opening will vaguely tell you that this is another one of my criticising,insulting and magnificent post,haha!!! Yes, another masterpiece! But anyway, not going to insult particular people here, just some shitheads la~~~ Ahem, as my loyal(do i have any ah?) readers, you'll all know that I am GOOD at expressing my dissatisfaction towards ppl. Haha, I don't hide and i have nothing to hide.

Anyhow, this post will be insulting some of the unglobalised and uncivilised brain dead students in my current school. Ok, to put it nice, conservative. Ever since i've started this school, it had been a very good and refreshing experience to study with a whole lot of Malays. Since i was a 5 or 6yr old cry baby, i had been studying in a chinese school until form 5. Not many malays in school in the later stages. But anyhow, from my experiences with the malays then, i was one of the typical people who'll just heard of the bad things about the malays and never any good. Like Malays are lazy,violent,sporty but not studious and all the typical traits people would descibe a malay.

Ummm, then when i enter this school, i find that malays are not that bad in fact, they have some quality that we should be learning from them. What we ever heard or seen about malays are just a small group of them. You know about them being violent and stuff. But when we look at things around, actually all the races in this world had violent people in them too. Just that since we're living in a small corner of the world that we never ever got to see the other violent people. Ok, here i am saying that i hate and despise violent people. I find that even those so called educated people could be violent as well. Makes me wonder why people are still wasting their resources trying to educate them when they just couldn't be. Ok, i'm being pessimistic here.

I heard that from one of the malay friend i've know in one of my classes that s/he(to protect identity) feels that s/he had been discriminated by those low lifes who think really highly of themselves, the St. Andrew bitches. Ok, i'm not insulting that all the St. Andrew(or St.George) people are all jerks and bitches, i'm only saying about those whiny and proud nutheads. Anyway, from what i heard, those bitches are not friendly to him/her and other malays but only friendly to chinese like them. Even if this malay friend of mine tried to be friendly towards them, all s/he receive was cold responses from them. Ummmm, note that this friend is a very friendly person. On a side note: Curiously i asked him/her on how she thinks about the ex CHMS-ian, and s/he said that the ex CHMS-ians are awesome and friendly! Keep up the good work,guys!

I felt ashamed and embarassed that we had these kind of nit-wit in my race. Hmpf! And they call themselves a chinese. Some of them can't even write their chinese name or even speak chinese. Fuck you, BANANAS!!! They are too westernised.....on second thought, they are half westernised. And they call themselves a chinese. When whatever they do or wear are westernised without any chinese taste. and they call themselves a chinese. When they thinks they're the more superior race. Yeah right. Ever heard that the organisms still living in today's world are the strongest living things? Survival of the fittest and after millions of years, we're still alive.

And some bananas are just too proud to admit their flaws. At least i know that the malays are straightforward and admit about their culture's flaws. For example, s/he admits to me that malays are lazy and not really good in maths. S/he also believe that chinese all are good in maths. Even some malay strangers i've met while doing my work in a place all have this thinking that all chinese or at least most chinese would take up maths as one of their subs. Haha, turns out that because i look intelligent(nerdy to put it simple), they thought i was taking maths as well. Well, I said to them 'Nah, i'm not a typical chinese' and they were like 'oic'. And i think that malays are faithful and promote religious tolerance. Unlike some radical religiously disturbed fellow in my previous school who said that all religions other than his are all fake and evil. Ah, shut your pie hole! Unlike me who's soooo open minded thinks that all religions do have their own reasons to be different and exist.

But after so much insults, in the end, all the things and matters come and go. Some malays also discriminate against chinese. In fact, all races has those over conservative thoughts that makes them discriminate against other races. Why is there racism in this world ah? Makes me wonder if the world can be rid of those unethical and uncivilised racist or not. But it all depends on the individuals and therefore what i'm saying is just a pixel in a computer screen. Haha~~~ computer term. hehe~~~

Scary thought that i even hear of someone who's a radical racist that he or she(i don't know the sex) was trying to plot a genocide to wipe the so called impurities in the world. One of the world's race.Peace Man!! WE NEED PEACE!!!

Also,I want the gathering pics!!! Someone please upload it somewhere so i can steal it. haha.

Your Blogging Type Is Thoughtful and Considerate

You're a well liked, though underrated, blogger.
You have a heart of gold, and are likely to blog for a cause.
You're a peaceful blogger - no drama for you!
A good listener and friend, you tend to leave thoughtful comments for others.

What's Your Blogging Personality?

Errrmm, some people dread my blog la, I'm also VERY dramatic. And i only consider about my own feelings so, I AM considerate. :p

Short

2007-06-04T18:25:00.000+08:00

This is gonna be my shortest post yet!

30th May--- It turns out to be a typical 'gathering'of F5Sci '06' plus some NVIP. Oh well, i was never had much great expectations but to meeting all my friends who come back from KK and KL was worth its value. (though a lot ppl would know why i didn't want to go in the first place.

31st May--- Yes! Went to the Mall to watch POC:At world's end with some of my bestest pals(and also my lil sis who tagged along) was GREAT! The movie's great and the conversation was also great. Best of all, rich cow ET treated a regular $16++ earthquake!!! And we were so sampat and loud in Swenson, no wonder we received slow service,hmpf!

1st June--- Went to Chung Hwa to watch the singing contest and all i can say is that without us, The form 5 of 2006, Chung Hwa has become nothing now when compared to our glorious days! The MC's an ah beng and some singers looked like ah liangs,no wonder lo. But Mmmmmmm, the nostalgic and tasty Chung Hwa canteen's food was well worth all the trouble to get there! The Nasi Lemak and Kolo Mee!!!! *space out*

*...............back to earth*

Today, on monday 4th of June 2007. Brunei almost seems like it was gonna have its first air disaster in its history. A plane looked like it were in danger! First we saw the plane in MD and since my current home is REALLY near to the airport, it's unmistakable! You see, whenever a plane lands, we'll get to see it quite close, so it's quite noisy. Anyway,back to the story. My dad and i saw that the plane was unable to land!Maybe due to some technical prob? There's no mistake about it, it tries to land about 3 times(i saw 3) but didn't and flew up again. At one time, when it was going close to landing, i saw NO TYRES COMING OUT BELOW THE PLANE!!! And it flew up again. Maybe the hatch to the tyres got stuck? Well, after some time, when i almost finish my lunch, it finally landed.

Recap. First saw the plane tried to land when i was going home from school which is about 12.10. I finished lunch on about 12:45? So it tried to land for like 35 minutes? Man, if i were a passager in the plane, I might had pee on my pants.(on second thought,nah!)

Song added: Golden by Fall Out Boy..... get the meaning of the chorus! I just LOVE it!

Your Animal Personality

Your Power Animal: Eagle

Animal You Were in a Past Life: Whale

You are active, a challenger, and optimistic.
Hard-working, you are always working towards a set goal.

The Animal Personality Test

Random Stuff

2007-05-27T19:16:00.000+08:00

Sleep at 2am yesterday and woke up at 3pm!!! Wooooooo! Refreshing,no doubt. Let see,if my maths is still fine, I say that i've slept 14 hours! Yes,as expected from the self renowned sleeping club prez. A title i got from Cikgu Yahya if i'm not mistaken. But, that is not my record! It would be too short to be called a record. From what i remember all my life, my record time for sleeping is 17 hours! I am not call the prez for nothing! Hmpf.

Actually spent the night before watching the movie '28 weeks'. Yes, i might be too slow but who cares, it's not like it's the must see movie such as spiderman 3 or Pirates of the Carribean: At world's end. Damn that movie, have an urge to throw up. Oh,please don't misunderstand that i thought it was too bloody and disgusting that made me want to puke, it's the way the scenes are spinning around,trying to make the movie seem somewhat chaotic.

I have to rate the movie 2 out of 10. Stupid! It's very illogical and not even scary at all! I don't even find the scenes disgusting or whatsoever. Well, i have to say to the director of the '28 weeks' movie, 'Nice try but it's lame'. Don't even find any suspense or tension in the movie. Very predictable too and i could have make that movie myself. Hmmmm, must be some kind of low bugget/quality movie to scam people out of their hard to earn money. However,it does provide some thoughts to chew on,that's why it got a 2.

Firstly, if that kind of stuff happens in real life, what would you do? Obviously, the first thought that comes into the mind is that 'Nah, it'll never happen. It's just some wacky screen writer wanting to make some extra buck'. I think that's the problem with humans, they'll never think of the possiblity that it could actually happen.Me included of course. I mean,just because it never happened before doesn't mean it wouldn't,right? Ok, maybe everyone getting a virus transforming into some disgusting,bloody man eating kind of fast running zombie wouldn't exactly happen(exaggerating) but there could be some other chaos just waiting to burst out all of the sudden,right? What if there's some secret cults to erase all humanity had formed somewhere? Can we handle the surprise?

Oh well, i've have some thought to that and if that sort of things ever happen, i'll kill to stay alive, to survive. And if i could not fight it, if i ever get bitten,i'll try to kill myself first before turning into one of them. Hmmmm, hope they eat up my body after that so that no one can see my grosteque body. Well, at least i try.

Enough of these craps.........

I'll show you guys an example of how business companies take every opportunity there is to get money.

See that?
Bought it from Hua Ho Maggis Mall if you can see the tag.
Pardon the low quality photo.......
It's saying 'Have a lucky Break for your exam,have a kit kat'
Sigh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Since schools all over are now having exams, this would sell,i think. Good opportunists, that's why they've survive for some long. When i first saw it, my reaction was 'Wakau, this CAN'T be a coincidence.'

Well, i wonder why so took a peek at the back,it said: A hit in Japan! Kit Kat is taking Japan by storm and for a really cool reason too. The name of this delectable chocolate sounds like 'Kitto Katsu',which means "sure-win". And it has become the exam season buzz phrase used by Japanese students to wish each other good luck before taking their papers. Now it's your turn to do the same for your classmates and friends.With a delicious bar of kit kat,of course! Ok, seriously,since i've never miss their limited edition stuff,i've bought one. Plus, my sis's taking her mid year.....

Flashback: MMmmmmm,delicious, mouth watering dark chocolate kit kat~~~~~
Well, for more info: go on to their web here

Mentioned in my last post that i would post a short R rated story but i changed my mind. Reason: Maybe too dirty to handle and i might get a bad reputation out of this. Take this line for example: With his strong arms ,he held his partner tightly around his arms. Instantly, as if his partner had read his mind, tilted forward to meet his incoming,passionate lips. Then, he knew that the one now in his arm felt the same way he did. Like a bad pirated Dvd showing, their movement froze as if the scene got stuck. They feel each other's tongue in their mouth, savouring it. Their eyes close to enjoy the taste they both had long for........The taste of truth.

You DO NOT want to see the rest of it. No way. Gosh, that African novel must have really got into me. Aiye~~~~ I'm turning a bit yellow minded. If i continue, my blog might get ban for illicit contents. Well, that's long post. Have a feeling that i'll be lazy blogging.....

Your Hidden Talent

You have the power to persuade and influence others.
You're the type of person who can turn a whole room around.
The potential for great leadership is there, as long as you don't abuse it.
Always remember, you have a lot more power over people than you might think!

What's Your Hidden Talent?

If i ever influence anyone, plz do tell.

Sickness in my heart and soul

2007-05-22T17:08:00.000+08:00

I am going out of my mind. Yes, this will also be one of my 'i should had thought about the consequences before i acted' post. It happened yesterday and had been quite bothering me ever since. Ok, it was in EAS class and we were discussing about persuasive text/debate we had. Ok, Dr. Sunil(not really a medical doctor) was talking back on how we all had done well and went to the topic of............. you guess it,Love vs Money. He was making some statement about people with an high capita in one country having many worries.....etc. Naturally, as someone who has an immerse instinct to debate.............rebuke him.........Yes, you did not hear me wrong,i rebuked the teacher.

Well, after a brief exchange of arguements.....he said that i don't get the point. What???!!! I'm perfectly sure that i understood what he said. Well, i kept quiet then although i could rebuke him. In the end, the class progress normally. That's not the point, i just thought it was a harmless debate and lo and behold, one of my Eng Lit classmate who is also in my EAS and history, told me that she feels that sir was going against me or something. Of course she supported my points as she feels that they were good points but she found that sir was a bit annoyed by me. Instantly, my normal, lame mood suddenly turns bitter. Got depressed and couldn't really get it off my mind even until now.

Oh heavens, why did thee not give me any sign of dejavu? What did thee just watched in silent as if it were a drama in thy TV? And i've just made a bad impression on a History teacher(not mine though) before that scene happened.

Oh well, other thing is..... BANZAI!!! Yesh! It's the latest trend! It can be used as any words you like even as a swear word. I.e: A brick fell on your one of your foot and it can be used in 'Oh my BANZAI foot!' Ahahahaha~~~~ Man, i am getting REALLY lame.

And thanks to Eteng, the song 'Thanks for the memories' by Fall Out Boy is officially on my Disaster Box( even if i don't favourite that other song of theirs). And their MV for the song, weird but creative and hillarious. Well, watch it and you'll know what i mean.

I feel that the song's a bit gay. I mean they are a boy band right? Then what's with line in their lyrics about '.....He taste like you,only sweeter.....'??? Sounds gay to me. Oh and i have a great idea of a story that i'll be writing in the blog. Well, it's gonna be totally different from all those normal and unoriginal stories. It's gonna be a R-rated one,buahahahaha!!!! I think i would post it on my next post so if you're under 18.......ok,17, then you can't read it! This MEANS Wei Hon!!! Ahahahaha..... Well, here's a bit of idea; i got my inspiration from a book we're reading in EngLit and well, you DO NOT want to imagine what the contents are.

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
You're open to new people and friends, which makes you a pretty popular person.
Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down.

How Do You Live Your Life?

Spoiled or just plain unreasonable?

2007-05-20T15:38:00.000+08:00

Man, i had my first english debate in EAS yesterday. Topic: Which is more valuable? Love or Money? Well, naturally normal people will always say love(duh??!!!) but as you know i am not normal, i am extraordinary and unique! Ahahahaha!!! I had supported $money$ and those recently around me should know. Guess what? I've won!!!!

YES!!! At long last, money won for once!!!! But anyway, i don't think it can really be argue. I like this answer i've found online 'Love and money cannot be compared, they are completely different things.' But what the heck, when it was my time to speak, the debate was soooooo intense!!! That girl who debated with me, man.....she was soooooo unreasonable. Even personally attack me saying am i afraid to lose. Wakau, luckily i didn't reply her, will just waste my time. I mean it's a debate,right? So, i should be competitive,right? If it was a debate(is it called debate?) in a law court, a real lawyer wouldn't stop arguing,right?And what the heck, by saying that it signifies that she is the one who's afraid to lose.

And since she is from the english debate club, if she loses to me(a non debate club member who is debating for the first time in english), then she is the one who will get embarassed. What the? I mean i guess the stardard of the english debate club isn't all that. It's quite low quality considering that she insulted me and that she somehow keep interferring with questions that is not relevant to the questions. And she wasn't even rebuking me with a questions. Still had 5 to 6 points to present but my time ended.

Anyhow, i've shocked the people in class. Believe it or not, i'm quite quiet in my EAS class and after that debate, everyone was literally shocked by the way i talk. Oh well, luckily i didn't join the english debate club, people there are too serious and will get angry easily...... well, that's what i heard. Weird thing is that i felt some pain in my heart and gut after the debate. Had a hard time breathing... Hmmmm, maybe i was too freaking shocked and scared by her.

Well, recently been thinking about what i should do with my boring life. Oh well, maybe should start to learn how to write fast since i have to finish FOUR ESSAYS IN 3 HOURS for history!!!

Your Personality is Very Rare (INFP)

Your personality type is dreamy, romantic, elegant, and expressive.

Only about 5% of all people have your personality, including 6% of all women and 4% of all men
You are Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

Typical Libra..........

Think before i speak!!!

2007-05-16T17:54:00.000+08:00

I wonder why i've been so tired starting last week. I've been sleeping early......11.30~12. Hey,my usual bedtime is 12 30 la. So,why am i still sleepy. Right now, i'm prone to sleep in English Lit class. Feeling kinde guilty since Sir Peter Holland's (i think he likes people to call him that) a very nice teacher with almost no temper......though he once said to me that i looked like a train wreck on one particular day......

I think i've been getting brainless these days. I mean i don't really think before i speak. The results: Total social suicide. Especially in History class. I didn't realized that i was talking full of pride. E.g

History Teacher: Ok,since Siong Siang had gotten best speaker on the last presentation, he is not eligible to be elected again. We must give chance to other people,is that alright,SiongSiang?
Brainless me: What??!!! Then no chocolate for me????......*stops* ok but the winners have to share their prize with me. *laugh*. I guess i have to get best group then.......

Idiotic me to the guy(who by the way looks like a psychotic killer when he laughs) beside me: Man, i thought i could get the chocolates again.........
Guy: *smile* no chocs for you.

Can you see something wrong with the picture? LIKE I'LL DEFINITELY WIN......I was talking in such a vain manner....I wouldn't be able to win all the time,right? And i just realize it after it happened.....*hit myself on the head* Drat! I guess i am getting so use to the 'non-survival' games classes that i totally got carried away. If i talk like this in the previous yr in F5Sci, i'll be eliminated in a second. Phew,have to restrain myself.

Got exchanged seat from a clear view of the whiteboard in history class to a view where the teacher can't really see me well and with a 6 feet guy blocking the whiteboard. What the #$%^??!!! The reason, she wants to see clearly the people who failed the MPR. I got a C,the highest anyone could get for this MPR......or so said a History student from another block. But still, i think i've reached my best standard.......i don't really think i can improve anymore.

And guess what. I'll be getting suspended by the school coz i didn't pass my student pass. So, if i don't go to school on Saturday, you can assume that i'm suspended temporary, i think.

Oh yeah,must introduce a new song from SHE called 'Wu Yue Tian' or Mayday.
Oh here's the video with with Ah Xin from Mayday in it.

Selina and Ah Xin KISSED!!!!

And there's a duo band which i think isn't really newly formed but the lead singer is quite pitiful. He got nominated for Best Male Singer five times and never won. He's a singer with the talent but not the looks. The group's called 优客李林 . His voice is like heaven man. I think he can even match Fei Yu Ching. I think their song 'Just for you' can be sing on birthdays. Which remind me, why can Jay Chou become a Idol Superstar???!!! His songs are getting worse and he isn't really ummmmm, have the good looks of a star. Ok, to tell the truth, i maybe a little biased since i'm not really a fan of him. You figure it out. Anyway, of course some of his songs are nice la~~~~~

Well, i've been getting socially suiciding myself so i have to start saving my 'reputation' or else i might not finish this year.

You Follow Your Heart

You're romantic, sentimental, and emotional.
You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly.
Some may call you fickle, but you can't help where your emotions take you.
You've definitely broken a few hearts, but you're not a heartbreaker by nature.
Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the wind

Do You Follow Your Head or Your Heart?

Ummmmmm, i've never fall in love lo. Fickle i am but i never,ever.....(well,except my friends') break any hearts. And my intentions never have much change,plz la,it makes me sound like and emotional person. I AM NOT.

Xin yang yang~~~~Damn him

2007-05-08T14:31:00.000+08:00

Just then, i went to check on my email and found out that my cousin who's working in KL,sent a message to me in friendster. I was like 'waaaaa, so free kah,working in a bank......can send me message but cannot send photo to me. Anyway, as i open the message, i saw the 'pin ying' and i was like, i thought his english not bad one le......on further inspection, i found out that those are not 'pin ying' but rather the english name of another cousin. It says 'XXX is gonna marry on [date censored]'. WTF!!!???? Are you serious!!!!????

Now i'm only believe half of what he said. 4 factors:
1. The cousin who sent the letter to me was always the joker/trickster of the family.
2. Wakau, that cousin who's gonna marry isn't really the ummmm.....(to be polite) prettiest girl you can find le~~~~and she sometimes look ok because she has a lot of make up. (Note: I'm degrading my tastes now)

BUT............
3. Why would the cousin who sent the letter be joking about that when there's a lot to joke about? And since he worked,he's not really free.
4. I personally think that the to-be marry cousin is quite......'hiao' so maybe the marriage was a consequences of being like that....you know 'xian shan che hou bu piao'

Wonder who's the lucky guy. Anyway, it's not really new to me. A cousin of mine who's younger than my elder sis married last year and has a cute baby now. Makes me wonder whether marrying young is the latest trend in Malaysia.If the new is true then it makes me feel a bit old liao......so the next time i visit the married cousin, then someone just might call me...... OMG!!! 'Biao jiu'. *Lightning flashes and thunder claps and horrific music,te de~~~~*

Other than that,i'm starting to find myself weird. I'm too open minded as said by a malay friend. Throw any weird stuff at me and i wouldn't find it abnormal. I think gays,lesbians,bisexuals, wife working and husband staying at home type of family.....etc acceptable....le. And i can also accept the fact that incest happens BUT i don't approve nia.... Sigh, i'm so weird.

Achievements to report in school are: Getting D for sociology MPR. Hey, the teacher told me that she was tempting to give me a C.

And i also got the best speaker prize in history for a presentation. Though i know that the history classmates were just being nice. Oh well. And prizes are chocolates.

What Your Hands Say About You

You are logical, analytical, and rational. You have good verbal skills.

Idealistic and dreamy, you tend toward the impractical. You have a knack for getting yourself in sticky situations.

Consistent and reliable, you like to count on structure and routine in your life.

Your emotions tend to be well though out. You're willing to wait out a bad situation, and you're never too quick to act.

What Do Your Hands Say About You?

Don't look at me. My hands said that.

@^#@#&^&$^!!!!!!

2007-05-01T15:05:00.000+08:00

The reason for the title is this: As frequent visitors to my blog will know that i hasn't been updating much lately and the reason for that is because i've moved house so no phone line. Then last wednesday,the phone line works already. And TODAY, my dad found out that the wiring connecting the espeed is WRONG! WTF!!!!! My dad's a more idiotic computer user than me and he FIXED it!!!!!A lot of lines fall down -_-!!!!! NOOOOOOOO!!!!! Die lo~~~~~

Hmmmm,just got the burden of Sociology test off me....sigh......Failed lo~~~~~~ The reason for my assume failure:Not enough time to finish my essay,so......die lo~~~~Will be having History on next monday but i gotta tell ya,it's definitely gonna be more easier than Socio. Up until now,all my works in MD are all C below with occasional B. And i can't seem to improve.....yet. But at least i'm trying ma.

Let's see i had a lot to say in my mind but can't really recall it. Anyway, i have a few stuff to say now.

1. Most malays are really nice people. I've met quite a lot of friendly people. Definitely people i like to meet!

2. I HATE MD's SYSTEM!!! When they want to inform something,they'll write it on the white board outside the Admin Office. Pffft! I don't usually walk pass there and now i need to because i need to see what stuff i need to know.Some clubs are even more 'obvious' to let us know what they 'll be doing like having a meeting.....By pasting pamplets! WAH,SOOOOOO OBVIOUS!!!! As if i know a piece of 'junk like' looking paper is informing something important. Well, personally,i like PTE's intercom. That would REALLY be informing. Yet,just inform the stuff at the right time coz i heard that they even inform when lessons is preceding.

3.I've done a lot of 'face-throwing' stuff. Now,i'm basically trying to stay out of sight. For Eg. B4 Socio test today,me and the boywatcher were walking to class. Halfway,with her ultra boy senser,she spotted Alexander(Good looking but........) in a class we walked pass. Seeing through the dark glass was nothing with her super boy-crazed eyes. She asked: Is that Alexander???!!! And i have to be busybody enough to walk backward and look through the window for her. And i confirmed for her with Al looking at me and i looking at him.(You know,eye to eye)The most embarassing part: More than half the class was looking at me!!!! Toink! I have to stop getting into other people's business or i'm gonna regret it. I was disrupting their class walking backward and take a peek into their room. Fine,fine.

4.I'm desperate for a locker! Too much file to carry so i really need one! Well, just two and one in my bag but you'll be complaining too if you have to carry that gigantic Socio textbook!

5.An interesting moment in class....yesterday in EAS. I was staying up late to study Socio so i fell asleep in EAS. I was slowly opening my eyes when i was touched by somebody and before i open my eyes entirely. The humourous EAS teacher was shouting in a VERY LOUD voice beside my ears saying 'IS THERE ANYONE HOME???!!!' Ok, i was a bit blur but anyway, the caring teacher was concerned about me and asked if i'm sick or what. Nah,i was just tired. But he's a nice teacher la cause i don't think he ever got mad.

Finally,i'm still wondering whether i got into First Aid Prefect or not. Actually, i'm starting to regret interviewing for it. Ahahaha. If not choosen,then i will have more time to go online and sleep instead of staying back at school sometimes. If i get choosen, well......i'll ummmm.......haiz, will have to go on with it lo since i don't want a bad record......Sigh. Irony. I interviewed for prefect so i can make my record more prettier and now i regret and if i regret and quit; will get bad record. Not exactly regret but rather not really eager like before i interviewed for it.

I CAN BE REALLY 'hangat*2 tahi ayam' at times!

You Are 50% Extrovert, 50% Introvert

You're a bit outgoing, a bit reserved
Like most people, you enjoy being social
But you also value the time you have alone
You have struck a good balance!

Are You An Extrovert or An Introvert?

Things tiring me recently

2007-04-12T17:46:00.000+08:00

Have not had enough sleep this week.....4 big acnes had once again occupy my recently better face. Must blame it on my laziness for that,always doing the homeworks late at night. Padan Muka,awu? <-----------Informal Malay i just learned. In case anyone still doesn't know,i'll be moving to a new house this sunday so i've been busy.....(actually, only packed 1 box) packing. It'll be in Tungku Link(still in MD area) and so, i will be very sleepy on Monday.Like Hell~~~~ Today st Socio class, i almost fell asleep.....again. I wonder if the teacher saw me or not. Anyway, at the end of class,she said we wouldn't have afternoon class with her on Saturday. 'Yes!' is in my first thought since we have an essay to pass up that day. Then she continued 'But you still have to pass up your essay before lunch'. What? That sucks~~~~ My mood was on high then it went down immediately......flat.

History can be fun too, you know....literally. Please bear in mind that the guys in my History class tend not to think straight. For example;the teacher once called Napoleon an 'alien'. And the fat guy next to me was like 'really? how do they know?'.....Ahem,actually,teacher was refering that Napoleon is a foreigner of France. (-_-")

Ok,note that the guys doesn't think straight. And here we have a history that makes the whole class laugh including me. Remember the history of Awang Alak Betatar aka AAB? He married the princess of Johore,right? Well, there's a few version depending on which perpective you look at.
First politically speaking :

He married the princess of Johore in order to get in good ties with Johore. That's the common one.

A story:

AAB once owned a bird. (right here,some people were laughing already)
One day,he lost his bird........
The he asked Awang Semaun: Where's my bird???!!!
Awang Semaun said: If you sail to Johore,there you will find your bird.

In Johore........
AAB went to the palace of Johore. There, the bird met the Princess........

I was laughing hard~~~hehe. Maybe it doesn't seem funny here but when the teacher talked about it,we were laughing. So, who says History is boring???!!! I for one always think History is interesting. Plus, the malays studying History might end up being Ministers or Ambassador,you know. It's a requirement for them to know History,ahahaha. I think maybe i'll go 'ba jie' them. Then again,since i'm not Bruneian,maybe not.

I've added a new song named: The rest of my life by Less than Jake in my Disaster box.....just telling. Like the quote in their MV.

"The day the child realizes that all adults are imperfect,he becomes an adolescent; the day he forgives them,he becomes an adult... "-------- Alden Nowlan

and also

"The day the child forgives himself,he becomes wise"-------Alden Nowlan

Have i ever put that in my blog before? I forgot.....need sleep......

You Are 24 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Life's like LOL??!!!

2007-04-07T16:07:00.000+08:00

Today i found a shocking fact that there's a friendly malay girl from an all girl's school had been in all of my class (History,Sociology,Eng Lit and EAS) for the past 2 months. Well, almost. She dropped her EAS and changed to GP so, almost every class. But she's also have the same PS block with me and has the same Civic class. Kektio, such a coincidence and i just realize today...... *lots of lines coming down in dark blue background*

Haiz, i think i'm stuck in MD liao lo~~~~Drat! Even if i wanted to go, i don't have a chance. Yeah right, the'r words was like treating me like a mature adult and yet in the end, to them, i'm just their little boy forever. Jeez wheez, they want me to grow up and mature but how could i if they're actually not letting me. Parents.......sigh. I think i'm trap in the bonds that will destroy my future life.

So,how do you guys think of the new layout? Found it on blogskins and couldn't resist to use it. Of course i kept a copy of Piang's work and i think i'll switch between them,hohoho. Plus, what do you guys think about the song 'Set the fire to the third bar' by Snow Patrol? Is it my taste getting worse or just that my sis doesn't really have any good sense in music anyhow. I prefer to say that she has worse taste than me. Kids can't really 'feel' the songs. That's a phrase i've gone through.

I'll be busy next week....real busy. All my sub are gonna be doing lots of stuff like we'll be having a quiz with assessment marks in EAS, Essay from Socio due on next Thursday,Play in English Lit which we have to memorise the lines( all the thee and thou,jeez) and for history, a possible essay assignment. *Faints* Plus, i'll be presenting the Civic stuff on Monday which i did not entirely lay a finger on it or even seen it yet. The unforturnate partner of mine is doing all the work, so to not entirely embarass myself,i'm doing research now on prayer. I think maybe i'll also get some info on other religion's prayer, to prepare myself and enrich the presentation. God, i have to speak Malay!(which i got E last yr for the oral......)

Thinking of dropping Kendo,too bothersome to go from place to place.Especially when my transports are limited. Unless i drive which wouldn't happen for at least a year. Sigh~~~ Life's a joke if ya ask me.

I find that some people are so funny because unlike me, they crave for popularity which i think is an empty thing to have. Why have plastic when you can actually have warmth? In fact, i happen to laugh at the one who wants popularity more than everything else. I mean, anyone can achieve popularity, just that it's something i think will pass eventually. I've been popular once,(note:once) but i just threw it away. It kinda limits stuff you can do. And why would you need it when you don't have the real 'soul'? I rather have the real 'soul' devoted then having a temporary shelter full of lies~~~~

You Are As Cool As They Come

Rational and relaxed, no one could accuse you of being dramatic.
You roll with the punches, and nothing ever gets you too worked up.
You are able to maintain perspective and see the big picture.

And even if you're emotional inside, you don't let it show.
You're great at keeping it together, and you're rewarded for that.
People see you as an ideal friend, employee, and partner.

Are You a Drama Queen (or King)?

Seriously, i'm really full of drama. So, REJECT!

Is it a crime to have second thoughts?

2007-04-03T21:15:00.000+08:00

Oh my god, i guess i'm quite 'wu ke jiu yao' liao. Now, i'm having second thoughts about going Kuching...............again. KEK DAO~~~~i CAN"T make up my mind.....ok, i know i said that when i get accepted,i'll definitely go but now because i'm starting to like MD,arrrgh~~~~ actually, it seems that there's something violent running about in Sarawak. Call me weak, i'm used to Brunei being boring but still, it's sooooooo peaceful le~~~~

Aiyo, i know i can go to Kuching without dying or getting too home-sick but the catch is, is it a better choice for me? That is the question. Though i'm quite upset that i didn't get to do Business. Toink! We must all realize that what i'm taking now in MD is good for a few selected and limited job. Lawyer,journalist,writer,mass media stuff,sociologists,ummmmmm historian? Duh, when i look at these job options, questions cross my mind. These jobs are giving me questions like 'Hey, how much do i earn from these jobs?' Basically, i can only see that my future is dim at the moment. Ever heard that journalists and writers are very,very poor unless you're the next J.K Rowling but she was also tight before Harry Potter was published.

Yeah,right. A lawyer/attorney???!!! Please la, i think i heard that the people study law from England la~~~~ Plus, i wouldn't be able to move from country to country or change my profession to much extend if i become one. Plus, i have an unclear speech problems and i will be dreaming about my next life if i want to study law in England la. And my parents might not be able to send me to study law even in Malaysia. I'll most likely end up in UBD if i stay here and what can i study in UBD???!!! History kah and become a poor scholar for the rest of my life? Sociology? Become what? Sociology teacher meh? I thought about that the most lowly job i'll go for is teacher. Not really lowly la,but to me, i hate kids so there,i might go berserk and kill them......hahaha~~~~

The reason i wanted to go to Kuching was because I'll have a second chance of choosing the subjects over again and this time,business and accounting are in my consideration. At least i think i'll survive out in the society. I can become an accountant and live the boring paperwork life or a business man who knows his accounts so he wouldn't be cheated. Sadly the choice i made in selecting the subject i'm studying now are all based on my dream. But face it, this is the real world. There's only working class waiting for me if i follow my dream. I know it sounds like i'm getting mild and dreamless, which some said without dreams then you'll be worthless.
But, since studying sociology, i must think that maybe because people follow their dreams that they end up as working class and middle class. Never the upper class people. Ok, some people do succeed but what are the chances? i think it's even less than 0.1 out of 10. Where do you get all the rich?

Ok, i'm in denial. I'm just feeling insecure,that's all. I thought that i should learn more skills in order to survive the harsh world. Thinking of learning skills such cooking,hairstyling.....etc. Those professions that involves skills. At least i'm be able to open my own cafe and such lo. Haiz, being 'duo xin' will kill one if ya know what i mean. So, this huge thing has been giving me headache for quite some time. Even my dad's think that staying in Brunei might be good for me. Duh~~~~~It's because i want to start to rely on myself rather than my parents, that's why i have the idea to go anyway. Plus, if i start Form 6 there in Malaysia, i might even get a loan from the govt to study uni la. The very benefit i'm hoping for in the future, so i can lighten my parents' burden. It might not sound like me to sound like that,i guess.

Anyhow, if i really need to decide liao before the payment to enter AS Level closes this Thursday. Well, now i have a funny thought. There's always room for insurance agents and salesperson..........AHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~

Your Dominant Thinking Style: Visioning

You are very insightful and tend to make decisions based on your insights.
You focus on how things should be - even if you haven't worked out the details.

An idealist, thinking of the future helps you guide your path.
You tend to give others long-term direction and momentum.

What's Your Thinking Style?

Ummmm.....face blushes

2007-03-28T18:12:00.000+08:00

Today,i discovered a weird thing about my History lecturer. She's nice and all but i think she really,really,really likes chinese people lo. I don't know,just think it was kinda weird for her to keep praising us chinese. Maybe she was being sarcastic? But ummmm, i don't really think so though, she seems kinda real when she's praising..... She's saying that chinese are very organised(......on second thought,maybe she has yet to see the unorganised ones)and disiplined . Ummmm, does this all apply to me? Don't really think so. Anyhow, there was also one day when she was kidding with the guys in the class and it was something about joking about a guy's gf. She was saying something like chinese are not 'hiao' or something like that and that we're a hardworking race which we're all taking 4 to 5 subjects . She says that them,the Malays should learn from us chinese in a lot of ways.

Anyhow, that's not the point. Everytime she praises the chinese, after one praise or two, she'll go like 'Right,Siong Siang?' Ummmm, quite paiseh,given that i wasn't quite the teachers' favourite in CHMS. Why huh? and that's not all, everytime the teacher ask 'Right,SiongSiang?' Everyone looks into my direction, i mean like.....the whole class.The front turn to face me and the side turn left to face me too. Ummm, actually i don't really know how to handle a situation like that. I could only just give a smile......... I wonder if the people in class will become hostile to me........ maybe backstabbing me like i'm a teacher's pet or something......(which got me thinking that i'm one of the 2 chinese in class,why me? because i sit nearer to the front than him?)

Anyhow, when we got the form to apply for the AS Level today, it got me thinking again. Should i stay in Brunei or go to Kuching? The due date to pass up the form with the money is four days later for me(BE6). If i pass up the money, that means i'm staying la. Money cannot refund man....... and if i don't pass up and if the Kuching there don't accept me, then i'll miss my chance
to take AS Level for my 3 subjects recommended to do AS. God, my head hurts!

Oh yeah, currently sacrificing my precious time to do my history homework to play the NBA2 Elbert put up. Damm you and thank you both at the same time for making me addicted to the game. Took only 20minutes to download. I must say, it's harder than the Demo.... kept losing.

Ah well, all i can say it,life is full of decisions(which i am not go at making) and surprises.

You Are Strawberry Ice Cream

A bit shy and sensitive, you are sweet to the core.
You often find yourself on the outside looking in.
Insightful and pensive, you really understand how the world works.

You are most compatible with chocolate chip ice cream.

What Flavor Ice Cream Are You?

Progress

2007-03-23T18:09:00.000+08:00

Yes, finally,i've start to do some of the holiday work. Read the 14 page notes.......in 2 hours and boy, i'm telling ya, it's not because i'm a slow reader but rather, there's some vocabulary which i need to look up in the dic(dictionary) and i need to fully understand the meanings. The first few chapters in Sociology is like Chem, everything afterwards will be related to it like in Chem, the stupid 'moles'. Now that i finish reading it,i guess i need to start 'writing' it.

Anyhow, if i don't let my laziness stop me anymore,my work should be finish before the start of school. Anyhow, there's this song that's really funny. I find it hilarious but maybe christians will find it insulting. But there's no mv for that song......Anyhow,enjoy listening to it. Some of you may heard it cause it's about 2 years old already but anyhow i find the lyrics and tune hilarious.

Might not sound quite nice to some ultra-sensitive people but it's really funny.Buahahahaha :B And FYI, he's not saying fucking hell, he's singing i'm stuck in hell........Trying to clean it up a little.

I'm a bit addicted to the cinema~~~ feels like watching movies but i don't see any interesting movie at the moment except Stomp the Yard. But i think i'll go to the blackmarket for it. And no, i don't want to watch Mr.Bean,thank you. I always thought that was dumb, who's in the world who's unsensible and stupid enough to do such acts la, unless he's a real retard or not really 'socialized'.

......i think i should lay off sociology for a while........

All American Kid

Popular but not plastic. Athletic but not a jock. Smart but not a brain.

You were well rounded and well liked in high school.

Who Were You In High School?

Ummmmm, does it really mean stick to the popular kind of person? And yeah i'm really athletic, walking to the canteen/sleeping is the sport i'm so good at.......and ummm, smart? maybe but definitely not a brain,that's for sure. Well round heh? So, people likes me because i have a round stomach and round face?

ZzZzZzZzOink,Oink! zZzZzZzZ

2007-03-21T18:20:00.000+08:00

NOOOOOO! Holiday almost over liao and i still haven't started on my homework.*Sob* How cruel and indirect can this world get as in holiday which everyone will think that it's a few days rest from all those work when it could have meant that it's homework days. Happy Homework Days,sheesh......Have you guys ever see an adult who goes on vacation with the burden of work from their jobs? Well, maybe some but i don't see all of them! and since we're considered adults ourselves, then maybe we should be given no work during the holidays,huh?

There's only 2 homework for me in the hoildays but still
1. History: 3 pages(minimum) essay in which i have to take out the points from 7 sets of notes. Plus, when you have your handwriting as small and cramp as me, boy isn't it easy.

2. Sociology: 8 questions of Short Answering Question. Have to read a 7 page notes which is photocopied from 14 pages of a book with the letters smaller than my handwritings.

How easy isn't it. Doesn't seem to involve much writing. Just reading and that's easy. Stupid! My perfect eyes and delicate mind will explode! And horoscope said that today i'll be able to solve a problem which had bothered me for a while. Here I am, typing this post when i could use the time to do the work. One word: LAZY~~~~~~~

I wouldn't be going out for a while,don't want to scare the hell out of people with my disastrous and hideous face. Caught the 'red eyes' yesterday and recovered today.Close call. Went out to watch movies a few days ago for two times. 'Haunted School' and 'The Unseeable'. Reviews? Personally, i think the visual effects of Haunted School is way better than the unseeable. Both are not really scary la cos the unseeable uses the element of surprise to scare people nia. Not really creepy. But know what? The girls' uniform looks like the uniforms that the CHMS girls wear. Same colour and same dress length. Buahahaha! The guys' are the same as CHMS too, except that the colour of the shorts are somewhat yellowish green. Kinda like the colour of the poo the babies make when they got scared.

I decided to join more clubs in school rather than to limit myself to one. Considering Counsellor, GO(because many chinese) and some other la. Wonder where can we join those clubs. And i also want it to match my time schedule. See first la. Can really decide anything. Yup, that's me....always find it hard to make the right choices.....Sigh.....Life is just so dreadful yet so beautiful!

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as warm and well-balanced.

Overall, your true self is passionate and physical.

With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react.

In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.

In stressful situation, you seem like you're oblivious to the stress.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

Whatever

2007-03-11T17:39:00.000+08:00

Got tagged a few weeks ago and i think it'll be a bit rude if i don't post it~~~

â€œEach player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names.â€

1. I have to go pee either before or after i bath usually. It's a must for me.

2. If i eat or drink in the early morning,i'll either puke or have to answer nature's call. So, i tend not to eat or drink before school. Very troublesome.(Quite normal kua)

3. When i'm doing my business in the W.C, i need to find some other things to do like reading something or playing with the toilet roll. (I don't think it's weird)

4. I can't waste a single bit of good food even if i'm bloated. I have to eat it all up even if i puke. Also don't like to see other people waste good food and if you're really close enough with me,eg.my family,Jeff....etc and if you can't finish your good food,i'll be willing to finish it off for ya if you ask although i may complain.(Sometimes i may reject cause i'm full or not up to it bcoz i've finished mine) A bit disgusting but i think i'm practicing good moral. All thanks to my mom.

5. I like to complain......a lot.(Who doesn't). I can complain and bad mouth a stranger with my friend next to me saying stuff like he has no class or something......when that stranger does something wrong such as littering or spitting.

6. I hate it when i talk and people don't listen with any attention. I think it is very rude to do that. I mean when you guys talk,i'll listen with all my heart and yet when i talk, your mind will float away,thinking other stuff or you just talk about your own stuff not listening. It's not respecting the speaker! I like people to respect me so i tend to respect others first.

Beware! You might somehow step on my fox's tail without knowing it.

Other than this tagging thing, there's only some other boring stuff too. If you want, you can stop reading now.

Got my first book(Hurrah......) on Thursday from Sociology. Thicker than a dictionary and as big as a phone directory. I also finally receive a homework which i can't simply pour my ideas and creativity to it. Today, i cut my hair. Well, that's all.

Your Power Color Is Red-Orange

At Your Highest:

You are warm, sensitive, and focused on your personal growth.

At Your Lowest:

You become defensive and critical if you feel attacked.

In Love:

You are loyal - but you demand the respect you deserve.

How You're Attractive:

You are very affectionate and inspire trust.

Your Eternal Question:

"Am I Respected?"

What's Your Power Color?

Freaky~~~~~~

2007-03-06T17:31:00.000+08:00

Almost a week in MD and still no sign of books to distribute to me. But i don't think i'll have any books but one(Big Thick Sociology) from all four subjects. Reason: They use mainly full scape paper for doing works. Plus, there'll be lots and lots of notes===== GOOD FILING SKILLS!!!
*Panicks*. Things i don't do well, sigh.........

Had lots of embarassing moments in class at MD, for eg. During EAS class yesterday, we were asked by the lecturer to roll a note we wrote something in into a ball and throw it anywhere you like. A malay guy obviously accidentally, threw his ball of paper of mark and gets a bull eye----
Right into my face. Embarassing,isn't it? But i for one thinks that it's funny, so it doesn't really bothers me. Plus, i have bad karma with things of round or sphere shape mainly a ball. This sort of stuff kinda happens to me even when i was a kid. I remember once that i was struck on the head by a basketball in PE class in Primary 5. The class was over and some people were picking up balls while i was leaving. And that's when it happened.

I feel that my head has an uncanny ability to attract all things round. I was also hit accidentally before by a volleyball/netball, tennis ball, those plastic with air inside ball used to play dodgeball, paper ball,rubber ball.....etc, you name it. I think even the shutter we used in badminton......or not. Coincidence?

Today, in History class........I fell asleep. Was woke up by the lecturer. Oh man, she warned us on the first lesson that she dislike people sleeping in her class. I'm doomed. I admit it was partially my fault to do my coat of arms for Eng Lit late at night. But still,when you listen to her repeating the same stuff over and over again, you'll fall asleep too, you know. It's like listening to a tape which keep on repeating itself. Tiring really. Not that i'm not interested in History anymore, just that i just wished that the lecturer will only repeat things twice not 5 or 6 times.

Other than bad things, there's good things to share too. I wouldn't be having afternoon class on Both Tuesday and Thursday. EAS lecturer let us get free for his supposed afternoon class and i have PS on Thursday afternoon. Plus, all my classes in the afternoon will end at the latest 2 o clock. I'm starting to like this skool~~~~

Your Personality Profile

You are pure, moral, and adaptable.
You tend to blend into your surroundings.
Shy on the outside, you're outspoken to your friends.

You believe that you live a virtuous life...
And you tend to judge others with a harsh eye.
As a result, people tend to crave your approval.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

Yeah right, like people tend to crave for my approval. i think the tests sometimes are a bit wrong~~~~~

College Life

2007-03-03T14:21:00.000+08:00

Well, today i only had two classes that's History and English Literature. Socio is in the afternoon and the teacher cancelled it on Thursday. There's no classroom for EAS as the conference room was used by the teachers and i had PS for the first period. Still, i hasn't been able to get any books yet. Yes, that's great, no heavy load for me. I think there wouldn't be any book for History, buahahaha! EAS too. Now, all that's left is that big book of socio and a tiny story book of Julius Caesar(which looks like a handbook by the way). We'll be doing a coat of arms for eng lit. Was buzzing with ideas and lazyness erased them all. Sigh.

Started history lesson and it's not as easy as i thought. I need about five minutes(or ten) to read one single page. I'm not a slow reader,mind you. And certainly not a fast one too. There's a lot of things just for one page,you know.

Oh right! A funny thing happened in the morning during registration. When i enter my room, i saw 'Hao ren' (that's what his name is pronounced) and thought that they must be conducting some kind of class for the seniors. He saw me and asked what i want but i didn't answer him as i thought that they're having class. But then a few minutes later, i saw some of tutor mates going in and out freely. So, i went in again and this time,'Hao Ren' told me that he's in the same class as i am. He went NS and just came back. A bit embarassed but what the heck, don't think that the Malays in our class really knows what happened,hehe.

Well, other than that, i think MD is lack of toilets. I couldn't find any when the one near my socio,history and EAS classes got crowded. FYI, i hate to crowd up with people, makes it difficult to breathe. Was forced to return to that toilet ten minutes later, sigh.......On my quest for a toilet to pee, i was stop by a Female malay teacher......(getting tired of them la).
Here's what our conversation is:

Teach: Boy, you're hair is too fashionable ah......
Me: Really???!!! Is it fashionable?
Teach: Yes,it is. You have cut it like this(pointing to a guy with an army's haircut,Bleh!)
Me: Ok, i'll cut it tomorrow.

Felt a bit 'cry smile no got'. Funny thing is that my hair looked fashionable, haha, 'suan' ah!Got praise by her indirectly! Bad new is that i need to cut it........*sigh* Finally found a hairstyle that suits me and now i'm forced to cut it.(Plus, i'm not in the army!!!!) Received not a single warning until today, what bad luck. I wonder if i can get out of sight until the holiday or not. Probably not. Oh well~~~~~~~I knew that this day will eventually come......I'll just shorten my hair a bit.........or i'll try to soak it in water in the morning before school and make it less fashionable.......Ok, i doomed.

Your Birth Month is September

Tolerant and inspirational, you are wise beyond your years.
You are universally sympathetic and a great humanitarian.

Your soul reflects: Devotion, light, and love

Your gemstone: Sapphire

Your flower: Morning Glory

Your colors: Brown and deep blue

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

Doors

2007-03-01T15:35:00.000+08:00

I'm a person who likes to have many choices to choose from. Two or three is just too insecure for me. Don't be shock if i tell you that i have five(more or less) ideal jobs for myself. I might be going to MD for now but i'm also applying for a government school in Kuching. If i can, i'll surely go there. Brunei is just not the place i want to be working. Heck, jobs here in Brunei is rather limited for foreigners like me.(Preferences for locals)

Since i have a lot of relatives in Kuching, expenses is trimmed down to about the same price as the expenses i'll be spending in Brunei. And i can easily get part time in Malaysia too. An experience of a lifetime to learn to be not dependant of my parents. Will really miss them but if i ever let go of this precious chance, will i ever get another? Most unlikely.

The orientation wasn't as bad as i imagine. Just plain boring. There's really nothing good to mention and nothing bad too. Just felt happy that none of those teacher who gives boring speeches are my teachers or else i'll sleep right in their faces.

I have one 'ang mo' teacher teaching English Literature and that classroom is at the back of the library. Small room but the air conditioning's great. He's requiring us to do a coat of arms so he can remember us better. I'm having English 'AS' in the conference room until june because there's no room left for class. Same with Eng Lit. The chair's comfortable but it's so damn stuffy that i almost fainted. Well, falling asleep would be more appropriate.

Both history and sociology teacher are female Malays. Both are ok teachers except that i hate it when the history teacher pop out Malay that i don't understand. She would speak in English and Malay alternately. Not a uncommon sight. I'm starting to adapt to MD life now but i'm still hoping to go Malaysia. And i did not get a single book from any of my subjects today. Makes my day easier. Got three texts form Eng AS and was asked to read it all and discuss it on Sat. Easy work as each text are only one page and i've got two days to read it. Phew, i'm glad i didn't get any work involving writing so soon.

You Were a Whale

You see the unseen and connect on the deepest level.
You help others find their soul's song.

What Animal Were You In a Past Life?

I'm a whale,i'm a whale, wakk!

Cats,MeeeeoooooW.

2007-02-09T16:27:00.000+08:00

Ah yes, after 25 hours, i'll be roughly boarding my flight to Kuching, the city of cats. Don't bother to read my blog after this post, i'll be freezing for like 2 and a half weeks. Ah yes, i'm picturing myself looking at the large 100+ feet trees all day long. Wonder if rambutan or durian is still in season or not. Yes! I can taste it in my mouth now,savouring those big,juicy rambutans that i pick myself right from the trees. Production from only those 2 trees is more than enough to satisfy all 40+ members of the family and there'll be too much that we can sell it too.

Well, all my family there treats me very nicely and sometimes,i think that they treat me TOO NICELY. They don't bother about my grades at school or how lazy i am. They're just plain nice. But then, there's has to have one of the people with prob with me. Namely Dad. Yeah right. When there's good,there's bound to be bad. I just dunno what's the prob with him and me, we're never been very close. Heck, the way he treats my baby brother and me, you'll see. Not that i'm being green or anything, but it's just seem unfair. If i were treated like my bro when i was his age, i wouldn't have any prob, but those who worked for my dad remembers that he(dad)'s the one who always makes me cry since i was little. The treatment just differs too much.

Is it maybe i'm not as cute as him(bro) since i was born? Well, bear with it. Some people doesn't have father because they were unforturnate enough. Some were forturnate enough to have a father who cares and support them in one way or another. Me? I mostly feels that i have a father but doesn't really own it. Sometimes it feels like i'm not his biological son. Tried to get on his side but can't and so, i finally gave up. Maybe it's because i believe in fairness more than i believe in love. Truth is, i value fairness very much. If something's not fair,i tend to fight for it.

Of course, occasionally we can still be good together but it wouldn't last very long. I can't really stand someone who values his car more than his wife. A car 's lifeless, but human isn't. I think i'll be better and more successful if i was a dad. Just that i don't like to be tie up by commitments. It's just too troublesome. Not that i am an irresponsible person or anything, just that i feel that it's just unnecessary to commit. If a commitment can be broken easily , what's the use of committing? Unless,you get legal papers done,duh.

Ya, what the heck,i'll be having too much fun with my cousins and time will fly quickly. Wouldn't be bother by anything during CNY so, i'll be happy like nuts. Oh no, speaking of commitment, it seems that in higher education, assessments,homeworks and projects stands for 50% for the academic results with tests and exams for the other half. Oh NOOOOOOOOOOOOO! *Me and my whole surrounding becomes 'The Scream'*

I'm known for my lazyness. I've never did any work for some of the classes(Note:never) and i've never complete all the works given to me since like 6th grade. Oh no, i'm doom. I'll be having four classes that will require me to write essays. Ah, Tian ah. T_T " Hope that i won't let this horrible thought getting its way into my festive mood during CNY.

Is it a crime to be lazy? Haiz~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

You Are 36% Angry

You're occasionally angry, but it's really not an issue.
While you may give in to your temper once and a while, you're pretty mellow.
And as long as your anger doesn't effect your relationships, then it's probably in check.
You know that anger is a bad habit - and you don't engage in it often.

How Angry Are You?

Packed and ready.

2007-02-07T18:03:00.000+08:00

As you all must know CNY is around the corner. Exactly 11 days from now. Well, i'll be going back to Kuching at 10th(3 days from now) so, i wouldn't be updating my blog for about 2 and a half week after that date. Might seem early to go back so soon but on monday,i received news that my grandpa has a bad fall and he needed 20+ stiches. And he's 80+. OMG, don't worry, grandpa, your beloved,smart and wonderful grandson will return home shortly!

Don't bother to look for me or anything during CNY except after 28-ish. I'll be living in the mountains, far away from the noise pollutions,air pollution and water pollution. Heck, there're wouldn't be much to do there except breathing the fresh air, eat fresh poulty,fresh fish and fresh fruits. And there's no sign or simpang to that house,only a stone road as marking. Isolated and there wouldn't be a strong signal too. Luckily there's still a tv with astro there. Funny thing about going back to my homeland is that i don't feel like going there but when it's time to come back to Brunei, i want to stay there. Sheesh, what a hard to please person i am.

Well, been lazy for the last couple of day and i don't feel like starting school. Maybe it's the festive mood i'm getting. There's this tradition(not really) that started like two or three years ago, the young ones of our family in Kuching will choose a day before the New Year's Eve and we would all go out to Bandar Kuching to shop,watch a movie and play there together. Note: All of us which is like 10 to 15 people. So, imagine that such a large group of young people walking together, it feels a bit like being in a gang. Well, luckily we don't look hostile. Hope we still keep this tradition this year. A highlight in CNY i enjoy.

Well, i might update my blog again.......or not. But anyhow, Happy Advance Chinese New Year,everyone. So, where's my ang pao? I want my ang pao before school starts,if not, i'll charge double, wahahahahaha!

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.
Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connected to your soul.
You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.
Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings.

You have great vision and can be very insightful.
In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.
Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.
You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Any Old Soul and Peacemaker soul?

Seems close yet far.

2007-02-01T20:33:00.001+08:00

These few days, i have not been getting enough sleep. I slept 6 hours on monday night,6.5hours on tuesday night and 8 hours on wednesday night. It might not seem serious but if you're a sleepy head like me who needs to sleep for at least 10hours, you'll know that feeling. I've been deprived of my sleep(except on monday),having to wake up at nine these two morning just to apply for MD. Quite frustrated for the first day but seeing my mom so determined, how couldi let her down,haiz~~~

It seems that though that some of my friends who apply for the same school(MD) and that we can still meet at school(hopefully), I think it'll be quite rare for me to meet any of them. Most of them would just apply for sciences and maths and i do mean most. Me? Heck, i'm just not interested in moles and equations. I'm actually the only one who apply for one of the 'cold' subject. History,to be precise.

I think there's quite a few number of ppl who apply for Sociology. And I'm taking English Language AND............OMG.........i seem to forgot. Was it ELL or ASL? Ummm, i think it was ASL,English Literature. But, i'm not quite certain. Haiz, now that i'm taking all the subjects that involve a lot in reading. I'm quite satisfied with the subjects i've chosen but still, I might be in a little problem since all of them will involve in writing essays. I think i really have to study hard or else, it would be chaotic and i wouldn't be as lucky as i was in 'O' Level.

Yes,people, I got a C5 in Chem and C6 in Add Maths. So, who wants to see a show when i raise my head until only my nose show to that !@^&* Conception. Hehe, i've sure show her. A C5 in Chem may not seem like a good result for all. But when you always gets an 'E' in your former school but end up with with a C,you'll be overjoy too like me. That no good *****, she's always look down on me and never for once think that i can score a credit. Oh well, luckily i never listened in her damn boring class before so, she's not my teacher. She doesn't deserve to be a teacher though. I like Anne way better. She changed to teach us. She has what we call, a teacher's heart. Conception? She just have the knowledge but not the heart which makes her a failure. It's also a teacher's duty nowadays to capture a student's attention. I guess she's just too old fashioned to realize that.

And i think i didn't disappoint Mr.Chew, the add math teacher. I may always get a 'U' in his class, but at last i manage to do much better than just getting a pass. To me, Mr.Chew is a swell teacher(after he bumped his head), at least he's not worse that that *****. Haiz, i guess no one will know the feeling of a lazy person like me. Not only did i not do any of Mr.Chew's homework for the whole year, but i also didn't practice much for the exam. Except until the night before the exams which i 'open night bus' or midnight oil. Smart ppl, you just wouldn't understand that feeling you get when you totally can't get any ideas on how to do it.

But i think i'm quite guilty for letting Madam Tan,our Malay Teacher down. She really is a good teacher but i just did well below the forecast results she gave me. Can't really show my face. Sorry. And have i ever mention before that Mr.Chew gave me an assessment mark of 10 out of 10 even when i never did his homework and listen to his class. Well, it's not that i didn't want to listen, i just fell asleep. Can't blame me, a lazy person like me has to get his beauty sleep.

Very tired from going to The Mall but Death Note 2:The Last Name was definitely worth it.

Your Life Path Number is 5

Your purpose in life is to life freely and collect experiences.

You love life - new adventures, new people, new ideas.
You are very curious, and you crave novelty in all forms.
You tend to make friends easily, and you enjoy the company of all types of people.

In love, you are fun and even a bit intoxicating. But you won't stick around for long.

You are impulsive and spontaneous - which sometimes leads you to do things you regret.
Sometimes you can be overindulgent with food, sex, or drugs.
You have many talents, so many that you are often scattered and unfocused.

What Is Your Life Path Number?

I must admit sometimes i really am impulsive and spontaneous BUT overindulgent with SEX N DRUGS????!!!! That's ridiculous! Food, on the other hand........... And i have many talents????!!!! What? Talent of sleeping? Talent of buck teeth? Talent of lazying? I can't seem to find my talent at all.

Unbalanced

2007-01-27T00:12:00.000+08:00

I'm kinda having one of those 'i'm down but nobody notices' kind of period. And no one ever knew when i'm having a bad mood or when I'm down. Am I really THAT hard to predict? I don't know. Had many things going around in my mind now. That's why i'm trying to shake it off like understanding more about astrology,more about myself. And i do find astrology accurate. I know it's somehow a bit childish or irrational to believe these things but still when you find it accurate, it does seems like a good way look into oneself throughly.

I'm in an unstable state now and i might just explode any moment like a time bomb. But those who knows me will know that i tend(note:tend) not to blow my own probs on the innocents like a immature person. It's just not cool to blow your steam on people who has no involvement.

Found out here at Astro (a site that's all about astrology)that i am a true Libra by a few hours. Look into it if ya want(registration's free). It seems that there's changes every year for horoscopes and those like me,who's not sure about which horoscope i am cause i'm in the middle of two can check the truth there. Just be sure to know what time you're born. It's great. It even has a database of states and cities of (i think) all the countries in the world. It's really accurate, tried it on our Carrot and it's accurate for him too.

And, people with different dates but same horoscopes has different potrait of their characteristic. Don't puke but i look up at a lot of sites and it states that Libra has produce the most number of handsome guys and pretty girls. Hehe. But wait,there's more. 'Even if that Libra does not really look handsome or pretty,they still emit a warmth and friendly aura.Charming you could say. Nevertheless, all Libra should be charming.

Ok, i'm stating too much good about a Libra, i'll state some bad things then. Libra are very,VERY undecisive because they see clearly about the pros and cons about the choices given. And they are passive people when it comes to relationships. Meaning, they never makes the first move. (Sounds so familiar, now where have i heard THAT?)

Ok, enough of this, don't want to bore people with these stuff. By the way, I only know things about Libras. Can't really blame me. But i think it gives people a good guide la. Like me, I'm suggested to become lawyers,art dealers,human resources or public relations. Hmmmm, get the picture? All non science.

Since i have sooooo much free time, i've made up a chart in my head about who(F5Science'06) will take which subject when they go MD. Here's a few example:
1.Carrot (Chem,Phy and Maths(which he said) but i personally think that he'll take one non science related stuff.
2. IS----- things about IT(what else),maybe business? econ? marketing? yup,things like that.
3. Derick------ Business,Accounts, Econ..........etc(business related)
4. Chia yee---- Chem,Phy,Maths

Well, i think all others are most likely taking Chem and Physics. Of course,my chart are just my guesses. Well, seems like i'll won't be seeing everyone often even in MD(hopefully). But what the heck, it's no prob. Just that our path will part,that's just it. Ah well......

You Should Get a JD (Juris Doctor)

You're logical, driven, and ruthless.
You'd make a mighty fine lawyer.

What Advanced Degree Should You Get?

Lawyer,Lawyer,Lawyer. Is that really the best choice for me?

Mugged

2007-01-22T16:28:00.000+08:00

Recently, some a**h*** kept on using our unsecured wireless network. AND I DON"T KNOW HOW TO LOCK IT AGAIN,thank you. I'm a self renowned computer idiot if anyone still doesn't know. I've tried going to the IP address and lo and behold, I need to fill in the username and password which is lost.(I gave to my dad and HE lost it,now he's blaming me) Are all cancer people(my dad) just like that? Always blaming others for his own mistakes. And I'm the one who always gets the blame. The reason? Simple, I'm the only guy in the family(beside a 2yr old baby bro). Sheesh. What lame reason is that?

Kek.......maybe i need to call people from Telbru? What the heck, anyhow, in about one year if not mistaken, i'll be moving to~~~~~~~~~Bunut. And it's really,really far. But i hope that i get to MD b4 we move, hopefully. The construction hasn't even started yet. When we went to see that piece of land, nothing but a swamp. Guess what? It's two blocks from one of the big Hua Ho.
Simpang 1245???????!!!!!!! Now that my friends is far.

Ah well. These few days, i finally confirmed a few things about myself. A really important milestone in this lifetime. But i wouldn't tell anyone........yet. But it will eventually be told which i hope not.

Your Career Type: Enterprising

You are engertic, ambitious, and sociable.
Your talents lie in politics, leading people, and selling things or ideas.

You would make an excellent:

Auctioneer - Bank President - Camp Director
City Manager - Judge - Lawyer
Recreation Leader - Real Estate Agent - Sales Person
School Principal - Travel Agent - TV Newscaster

The worst career options for your are investigative careers, like mathematician or architect.

What's Your Ideal Career?

Yup, that's me. One who never really likes science related stuff. And i like the sound of being a judge too.Yup, i just LOVE to judge people.

Choked

2007-01-15T13:57:00.000+08:00

When i was brushing my teeth last night, I choked on the tooth brush's hair(dunno what it's called).A freak accident really. The hair just came off while I was brushing my back molars. Stupid toothbrush! Weird, considering i just used that toothbrush for just a few weeks. People, DO NOT USED ORAL-B. I wonder if i can sue the company for trying to endanger my precious life or not........

Ya, what the heck. Threw the toothbrush into the bin right away. That senseless dad of mine, he didn't even notice that i choke. AND HE WAS JUST A METER AWAY FROM ME. I guess the cyber world is just really powerful. I wonder if this incident can become a tv commercial or something. Advertising for laptop. Like one person is dying beside you and the lead is just too busy with the laptop to save or even notice the choking person. Now that, my friends is creative.

Ah yes, i will expose here that i know one thing that i'm almost(ALMOST), the first ones who knows this little secret.. That is all. But it will be reveal soon or even sooner than expected. Fellow bloggers, it's really something that you all wouldn't know. Though i don't think it should be so secretive.

Anyhow, the phrase(please help me type chinese in my chatbox so i can copy and paste to put it here, don't have chinese program....) ' a thought or worry in the day will surely result in a dream of similar meaning at night aka 'Ri you shou si, ye you shou mo' is verified by me as truth . Last night after i choked, i dreamt choking on my new toothbrush again.....Kektio, being choked twice in one night, how you get that huh.

Next up, this is another mv, No promises.......again(yup, you guess it, it's the same song). this time it's by a danish singer, Bryan Rice who is also the original singer of this song. But i like the cover song by Shayne Ward better la. I found out that cover has seventeen meaning, Ai,karumba.

Strong foreign accent if ya ask me.

Next up,

Your Values Profile

Loyalty:

You value loyalty highly.
You're completely devoted to your friends and family.
Even if they totally screw up, you're still there for them.
Just make sure they're equally loyal to you!

Honesty:

You value honesty a fair amount.
You're honest when you can be, but you aren't a stickler for it.
If a little white lie will make a situation more comfortable, you'll go for it.
In the end, you mostly care about "situational integrity."

Generosity:

You don't really value generosity.
Your needs always come first, no matter what.
And you'll possibly help someone else out...
But only if it helps you in return.

Humility:

You value humility highly.
You have the self-confidence to be happy with who you are.
And you don't need to seek praise to make yourself feel better.
You're very modest, and you're keep the drama factor low.

Tolerance:

You value tolerance a fair amount.
You are open to new cultures, beliefs, and ideas.
You have very few prejudices that you're aware of.
And while you are tolerant, you do stand true to what you believe.

The Five Factor Values Test

Well, that said about what my values are.

Hooked? Me? So What?!!!

2007-01-09T00:41:00.000+08:00

Ok fine, recently i have been listening to musics and got hooked up. So what? I can listen to that one song for one whole day and still not tired of it. Haaaaa........such nice songs. Not be brag about it, I think i have good taste in musics. Bleh! Hit me la, stupid!(Try this in cantonese)
OMG, i'm being vain right now! AHHHHHHHHH!!!!*stop*

Back to the story, personally, i think someone i know has finally ticked and fell head over heels for a certain young star(and we all know who that is, yes, this means you.), is being too obssessed. And he said it himself, he's becoming more 'bian tai'(maniac). Ok, i think it's really normal, who has not been obssessed to superstars, comic heroes and famous ppl? Just hope it will cool down like a chicken poo, sooner or later. Ah,ah,ah......don't try to say 'just you wait and see, my love for her is eternal' or 'don't judge me, you have no right'. Nah, things like that isn't realistic. I'm a realistic person.

Anyhow, this is a song that i saw on tv and i think i like the meaning la~~~

It's saying about parting with loved ones but looking at the bright side that, we'll eventually meet together again. So ummmm, dedicating to all my friends who is or going to oversea to pursuit their 'bright,BRight,BRIGHT' future? Too late, o well.

The next one was discovered accidentally when i visited www.absolutelyrics.com. It was on the most popular lyrics list and why did i listen to it? Because, about a few weeks or months ago, while we're out, Wei hon saw his CD and was excited all about it. So anyway, like this one song. No promises by Shayne Ward. Heard it before actually but never really paid any attention to it.

It'a a few months old song......ok, i'm getting out of the 'tide', so what?
The mv is really nice for me. 4/5 stars for it.Really a touching and meaningful mv. Guess what? The singer developed an illness called vocal cord nodules. NOOOOOOOOOOOO....hopes he gets cure, or is he cured already? Anyway, Julie Andrews was a singer????!!!! Wow, shocking fact for me. She developed this illness which stop her singing career. By the way, this illness's not life threatening, just damages vocal cords which will degrade ppl's voices. Beware, Carrot! Bwahahahahaha.

Well, my post has became long again, good!
Lastly...........

You Are 31% Vain

Okay, so you're slightly vain from time to time, but you're not superficial at all.
You are realistic. You know that looks matter. You just try to make them matter less.

How Vain Are You?

Ok, true, i'm vain sometimes. But who isn't???!!! Step up!!!!

Absolutely normally....shrug....

2007-01-06T00:05:00.000+08:00

Uereka, i've done it! A poem that rhymes! Hope that it's still unintelligible like last time. Bwahahahaha! I think no one will really know that last one true meaning. Bleh! Unless i tell!Which i won't. Composing so that my mind won't get entirely useless for this period of time.

Mindless for nothingness

Views so shallow and views without light,
Heart so narrow as it's lonely in the night.
Shocks from the brain or born from fear,
Attempts will be vain that i'll refuse to hear.

Good to try until you cry,
Was all just lies when differences fly,
Target wisely polish it with sight,
Strike blindly then that's your fight.

Ahem....... i tried my best to rhyme it all. And it's not easy!!! I don't really have a wide vocab.
But i was wondering if any of you would like to hear stories that rhymes, eg.

A cow that gives milk tend to moo, like a fool sitting on a loo. Can it be that much fun? When the grades out then the fool got to run.

Ok, that's really*1000 lame......

Well, today, instead of sitting in front of the comp, i manage to move my butt and went swimming with CCS and his sis. Well,that's all.....

You Are 80% Happy

You are a very happy person. Generally, you feel content and that all is right with the world.
Occasionally, you have a down day - but you have the ability to pick yourself right back up.

How Happy Are You?

Hmmmmm,it seems that my happiness level dopped from about 90+ to 80.....

Go! Best luck to you all!!!

2007-01-02T15:58:00.000+08:00

Well, a lot of people are gonna leave these few days, my friends who's going to KL and KK, best luck to you all! Sorry i can't make it to the airport to see you guys off. But don't worry, we'll meet again,right? Unless you don't want to see me again in any case. Oh well, I'll try to keep in contact with them, one way or the other. I've been thinking, what's the point of people like me to make resolutions? I wouldn't be doing it anyway. I'll just let it slip off my mind.

I know it's not a must to do one resolution, just that.......i've reached my goal in life, i guess, being happy. Enjoying the simple things in life, that's what made me happy, i guess. Look, if i have a full stomach, i'll be happy. I think i'm quite a simpleton, but aren't keeping things simple much more burdenless? I don't really have a real goal in life. Becoming a millionaire? That's not a goal, yet not a dream. It's something that's not important if becoming one isn't happy. I'm saying this cause i'm envious about the people i know who have goal. Goal for success. Of course,i'm not envious of people who thinks their goal are far greater than everyone he knows. There just won't be success without friends and people sharing it.

Oh well, that's life? Just surviving? Nope! I want to just more than survive, I want........to enjoy my lifetime.

You Have A Type B Personality

You're as laid back as they come...
Your baseline mood is calm and level headed
Creativity and philosophy tend to be your forte

Like a natural sedative, you have a soothing effect on people
Friends and family often turn to you first with their problems
You have the personality to be a spiritual or psychological guru

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

See? I'm even a B type of person. Haiz......

Soi to the ground.

2006-12-30T14:33:00.000+08:00

Lately i've been jinxed or even cursed if ya ask me. So, where's the silver lining in all these bad luck? Every gray cloud should have a silver lining. What? After all these bad luck comes the good? Now that's a possibility. Here's some things that happened these few days. You can find some bad luck properties in all.

26th Dec== Went out to see Curse of the golden flower. Great movie if ya ask me. Though there were some scene that Jay Chow's expression was quite funny. Like when he found out that the emperor(his dad in the movie) was drugging his mom(the empress), his way of crying is indeed funny. Guess he don't have many expression to show, does he? And there was that scene when he was fighting against a zillion soldier, there's one expression when he pucker up his lips. Weird actually. Still, with Chow Yun Fatt and Gong Li, two gigantic superstars, the movie is really,really good. A must of the year movie. But when your arms and legs hurt like mine after a sunday badminton and swim, you wouldn't be happy walking with sores for an hour or two. Well, at least for me that is.

28th Dec== Again went out to see Confession of pain. This time, it's not the sores, it's the weather. Just before the movie started,i was running a bit late. But if it wasn't raining and slippery, i wouldn't have any problem walking to the mall from my dad's shop(Got a bit wet). The movie just started a moment before we went into the cinema. And that airplane flying !@#$%^&* , he said he would definitely go and oh yeah he did, after we finished the movie and i have to go back home that is! Ok,the movie storyline was boring,it was like a normal average killer and police flick. However, The two leads really have perfect acting skills which makes the movie not totally a waste of money or time. The theme is GREAT! 'Secret by Ayumi Hamasaki.' But it's not out yet,so i'll just wait for it. ^^

29th Dec== Pei Yi call me at about 6 30 to ask me to go to the Red Chilli at Kiulap. Ok, fine, i've got permission from my mom to go but after dad came back, SHE CHANGE HER MIND!!!!??? Saying that dad wouldn't drive me there cause it's raining. How piss off i was!. Grarrrrrr!!!!!!!! Now, i'll be known as the airplane prince. (King's not me, you see)But it doesn't end there, When i was typing my post that night, CANNOT FIND PAGE is the f***ing sentence i have to find after trying to save it as a draft. Stupid !

Well, that's basically what happened. And this is indeed the second time i'm writing this post. Have anyone curse me?

You Are 80% Grown Up, 20% Kid

Congratulations, you are definitely quite emotionally mature.
Although you have your moments of moodiness, you're usually stable and level headed.

How Emotionally Mature Are You?

Hmmmm, true,true and true. Bleh!!!!

Absolute disappearance

2006-12-25T15:07:00.000+08:00

First of all,
Seasons to be to de jolly,falalalala,lalalala....................end

Merry Christmas to all and to all the merry.
Lame...............
What the heck,haven been really keen on writing my blog right now. Anyway,is there something i should know about? There's rumours of me going out of the country flinging around. What the? Aiya, i know one who said that was Miss Cow. Luckily for her,if she haven said that she got a Xmas present for me,i would have slaughter her and make beef burger for everyone. Bwahahahahha!!!!!!!

What can i say,it's partially my fault too for not saying anything. But still i'm being entertain in one way or another by the internet. I almost die when the comp broke down for 2 whole days. I start to play one of those fantasy war games. You know,just words and numbers and you train troops and attack ppl. But one isn't enough, i had to register 7 different websites to make myself busy. Seven kingdoms to take care of everyday. Haiz,busy,busy,busy.

Anyway,i'll be going for CNY next year for a month. About 8 of Feb to March if i'm not mistaken. And this is a confirmed news. Still staying at home isn't so bad, i'm really saving up a lot of money. Have i ever mention that i'm poor? Ah well, be going to watch movie tomolo......

Your Element Is Air

You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world.
And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly.

Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life.
You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful.

You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person.
With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that!

What's Your Element?

Cheh, i know that i'm the element of air for a long,long time already. It's all soooooooooo true. Except for the last part people love that meh? I thought they love the opposite one?

Enriching really

2006-12-13T00:37:00.000+08:00

Ah~~~~i've been complaining about my holiday life being boring but there's a few good parts really. First i can sleep late and now that mom's went for vacation, no one'll mind even if i don't sleep. Secondly,i hide at home to avoid seeing ppl so that they can't see my fat and pimple-ful face.

I think i've improve in some things too. Like i had practice some drawing and improved. Yes, i'm not the only one who said that,you know.Actually,it's more of imitating the expression from the comic i've mentioned. Now,my character's eyes are more beautiful than i've ever drawn. Now all i have to practice are the ears,facial shape,nose,mouth.......blah,blah,blah.
........Ok fine, i've only improve the eyes and the eyebrows so what! Ceh~~~~~~

Anyway,caught up with the naruto episode and is surprise that it's all still fillers! Damn~~~~ losing my interest liao. Heard that the fillers will end in Feb NEXT YEAR!!! Walau.... still have like at least 10 more episode of fillers~~~~~kek. I wonder if i'll start to watch others anime on youtube.....

Your Aura is Blue

Spiritual and calm, you tend to live a quiet but enriching life.
You are very giving of yourself. And it's hard for you to let go of relationships.

The purpose of your life: showing love to other people

Famous blues include: Angelina Jolie, the Dali Lama, Oprah

Careers for you to try: Psychic, Peace Corps Volunteer, Counselor

What Color Is Your Aura?

Ah yes! A psychic! I predict that i'll........ummm....become rich and famous?

Discrimination on women? Nope~~~~

2006-12-10T13:20:00.000+08:00

Women and girls are half of the human race and guys' the other. Together, this two different beings will continue as a whole to flourish the human race. I'm one that really supports that women should be given equal rights and power as men. Women are as intelligent, able and as great as men. But do the women really have to abuse the rights and power given to them?

Look at the animal kingdom for a change, it's ruled by almost all the female counterparts. Almost. But, when we give the same rights and 'power' to our female counterparts (especially modern ones), they would just crave for more power and thinks that they are more superior than the men and try to replace it. Ever heard of 'Drink water, Be grateful for the source'? After i seen so many women who abuses the rights, i guess not all the women should be given equal rights,huh?

As far as i'm concerned, there are just maybe a few black sheep among all the wonderful and great women. It's just those bitches and sluts that spoiled and degrade the image of the women.
So i wonder, is this why women nowadays are not getting the full rights that they deserve? Or should we be blaming us men, for being such a loser for being afraid that one day the women will be more superior than the women?

I don't know the real answer to that, but the most reasonable answer i can think of is that, both the sexes are wrong in their doing. First , because some women are getting to be bitches that have big ego when they get 'power', thet'll act totally unreasonable and for one, could even lead to ours extinction. Secondly, because men does not give the rights to women in the first place, it prompts the women to become rebellious. But.... because some women are given rights and become unreasonable and abuse their rights, i guess giving power to them isn't really good too, isn't it?

So, who's wrong? Of course there're would be some debate over this matter though. But some women becomes very unreasonable and must win no matter what. Pride or Justice? Heck, blame it on the MC or blame it on men. But is MC really the causes for them(the women) to be not able to accomplished certain things. Certainly not! I have some good girl's friends who's really fun even if their MC arrive. It's just the attitude and EQ of one's way to cope with stress. See, when men are in stress, they also have mood swings just like the women. So, what's it all about? A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E!!!!

Eat more chocolate for heaven's sake then.Of course, some girls around me are also so unreasonable blaming men and MCs. But, i think that that is just cases of anorexia, an illness caused by eating disorder. Two of the symptoms for that are huge mood swings and low blood pressure. So, i pity women who have this kind of illness,is it the MCs and men fault that they got this illness? Ya,right, blame the men for loving slim women. But if all the women are fat, then do the men really have any choice?

Haiz, not one being is perfect i guess. And girls,do not blame the men for being so unsensitive and guys, the rule 'ladies' first' is a way to show our respect to the women. But girls, a word of thanks and a smile of gratefulness is always gonna tell us men to respect you again cause if i respect you, shouldn't you be respecting me back? Anyway, it'not that men are dumb when dealing with women. It's just that male teenagers are more stupier and immature, that's all. So, just you wait, when we all grow up, girls(then women) will find men attractive and much more sensitive than you think.

You Are 60% Boyish and 40% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Hmmmm, this is yet another test which shows why am i more popular with girls than guys eh.....

Life ain't so bad, if you're me that is.

2006-12-07T15:30:00.000+08:00

What can i say,i'm often right about things. See, i've predicted that my parents will give up and well, they did. I'm so right about ppl, not to be vain or anything but i guess ppl are predictable to me(except weird ppl that is) especially adults. I guess i'm psychic,buahahaha! Nah, seriously, i guess i just know how the world works,that's all.

My aunt which left a few days ago told me things about energy within the body. Some energy that can only be found in some ppl though. One of those energy that give ppl 'power' to do things. Not the kind of power where fireballs shoots out from your palm. Just energy that enable one to,let's say see things clearly or predict things. It's something that's born within. Of course i don't understand about it all though. Just a few things that i heard from my aunt.

She asked if i know about energy in our body or not. I said i think that it's some energy that were created by salts or sodium,or something(Dunno where i heard it from though).She said that that's the truth. Created using the sodium we consumed. Oic......she said she can feel those energy and of course, i let her test on me. Hmmm, my results was i have great energy. She advised me to use that energy wisely.

Erm, actually there's another explaination for my results though. I might have eaten too many salt and i don't exercise, so i don't think the salts can really flow out of my body easily. But still, when we put our palm together(my aunt and i), i really could feel one of those shocks, the shocks that will really hurt when we play in an air conditioned room. Walau, shock went into my joints between the legs and the thigh. Hmmm,i guess it's true then.

Haiz, what can i say, i guess not everyone is lucky. Wahahaha! Well, nowadays,i would just sit in front of the computer and see animes on youtube. Right now, i'm doing some serious catch-up on naruto which i've not seen since a few months then. Borrowed a few comics that is really funny from comic house entitled Freeman. A story about a band called Bremen,how they are formed.....etc. It's really funny! And all the band members have animal personality which sometimes their faces will turn into. A cat,dog,chicken and a horse, which all depends on their special features. Not finished yet but will soon. Only nine episodes in the whole sets only and had finished five.

Seriously,i think this post is really confusing.Haiz.....

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

You shine in your ability to relate to and understand others.
Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel.
You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations.
A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict.

You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

Quite accurate la, except natural born leader???!!!Dunno about that though~~~~
And what? i teach ppl how to get into conflict ah?

Of parents and children

2006-12-04T17:12:00.000+08:00

Haiz.....there is a slight delay on my plans for the holiday.The reason: My parents thinks that i can't handle things for myself. What!!!! That's not true,i protest!!! So, they'll try to find something for me to do in Brunei first. Haiz.....then i bid them good luck,it's gonna be so hard,that i know they will eventually give up.

I am always 70% right about things if not 80. wahahaha.......i doomed. -_-"
But i think there is something i am almost 100% positive about, most parents and i mean most don't really understand their child at all. It's what's causing the problems between parents and kids today. Lack of communications. I mean parents can't just take the teachings in their era and just pound it into their child just like that. Time is different now. Things has to change to change for the better. Most parents always tell us that we must be good,honest or whatever but doesn't it really help us in a world harsh and 'unreal'?

The answer? I don't know,really. But one thing is for certain, if you only have good and honesty, it will always be taken advantage of. But is it really a bad thing? Nope,it wouldn't be if you're lucky. But can luck always protect you from harm's way. Hard to say, it may or may not. While parents work hard to raise us,giving us unconditional love....they always left out one thing. They think things kids thinks are often immature and incorrect. More over, they think that they are the ones who always see it clearly and is always right,without a second thought.

Is it stuborness? No, parents aren't really so bad. They're just trying to protect us and want the best for us or them. But the best they figured for us doesn't seem to be the best for us. Sometimes i guess selfishness just took over them. Our feelings are sometimes neglected.

Take my mother for example. She still thinks that i'm that cowardly kid who cry for everything. Ummm, duh,i'm able myself now and I seriously have not cried for the last 2 years. It's not that i'm not feeling anything or really all that brave. I'm still afraid of some creature,you know.But is that cowardice? Check the dictionary please. Ceh, i am more courageous than i look. My look of being a sloth and doesn't seem to want to try anything. But doesn't it really seem that way? Just by the look of it? It's really shallow of parent to just look. Why not stop and feel? That would be more appropiate,don't you think?

So, i don't think anyone should be blame for this matter.Or if someone should take the blame,it would be both the kids and the parents(another way of saying no one should be blame). Just being frustrated over here,no biggy.

Currently finished the anime,The Law of Ueki,which i think is one of the best anime i've seen(not that i've seen many anime though)
Current addicted song: No Regret by Koda Kumi(Second opening theme of the Law of Ueki)

You Belong in Summer

Energetic, creative, and very curious about the world...
You're not going to let anything hold you back, especially a cold day.
Whether you're chilling out at the beach or partying all night, you live for the warm weather.

What Season Are You?

Unconfirm plans

2006-12-02T01:27:00.000+08:00

Finally work out some html codes :)
Well,i was discussing about things like having braces with my mom and a favourited visiting aunt when my naive mom suddenly realize that i wouldn't start school after March next year. Duh, told her that before and i said that i would like to go Malaysia~~~~(haiz,she thought i was still in CHMS......)

Anyway,my 2nd aunt is having a course here right now,so she'll be leaving Brunei on Monday or Tuesday. Ok, here it comes: I might follow her to Miri and find some part time jobs to do there or i could follow her back to Kuching and stay with my dear old grandparents who i think is the best grandparents in the whole wide world. I'm sure my company with my grandparents will brighten their day up.They're almost alone together all the time. T_T

Of course,all of these are still under negotiation but it has a more than 80% of success,yeah me! I love to experience things i never experienced before except drugs,that is.(i smoked one cigarette before......oooo,bad memory....) Hey, you can't blame a guy whose never work before you know. I'm really anticipating this event. But don't worry,i'll be back after chinese new year ,a few weeks before chinese new year ;)

Yes! A test to see if i can survive living independently. But actually,i might be living with my fave youngest aunt in Miri,but i'll likely be working for just two months before returning to Kuching with my family to celebrate chinese new year. At least my life wouldn't be too boring and unproductive thoughout the long,long holidays. I'll tell how the negotiation goes on when i get the results.

Oh yeah, i decided that i wouldn't be afraid to go SOAS anymore, now that i think of it,why would i want to follow my sister's footstep? But still,i wouldn't be able to meet all my old friends who would be going to there~~~~haiz~~~~

Your EQ is 147

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

Based on this test,i'm convinced that i have high EQ which i always know i have. yeah me! *clap,clap,clap*

I'm sooo easily influence,haiz~~~~

2006-11-29T00:36:00.000+08:00

You are 87% Libra

How Libra Are You?

I'm beginning to think that the results in blogthings are true after seeing all the other's results, oh well, i'll wouldn't be braggy about it anyway~~~Took all the interesting tests that were there and will be posting one at a time in my posts to put up some colours in my blog.(Not for this post however though......i'm putting 2 :p)

Yup,i'm 87% libra-ish which i think is true coz i really act like one,i think. I'm indecisive, loyal to a certain friend which i think i may have kill his parents or something in our last life(i'm basically repaying my debt right now.......)and i am fair when looking at things.....usually.But still, i think i'm also a bit scorpio-ish because i tend not to forgive ppl who hurt me deep. Ummm.......ok fine, i'll forgive them.....eventually.

But i don't think that ppl who don't forgive others is entirely immature though, it's just in their defensive nature,i guess. When ppl get hurt, they should be able to learn from it,defending or avoiding the same kind of trap in the future. We must all face reality that this world is just unfair and full of many baddies. Not that i've met any true baddies though,just some semi-ones is enough to let me learned my lesson.

It's not like i'm saying that there isn't love,good or fairness in this world,it's just that at the times we face challenges,good and fairness isn't always beside us,the world is often unfair and someday,i know that everyone will learn to accept it.Cause isn't it better to avoid than to cure.

Oh yeah, here's a list of ppl that i know who will be going to where:
Me(hoping),Derick,IS,Hippo,CCS,Jie Ming,Chi Haw,Wei Hon (MD)
Jeff,Fly girl,Shirley,ysk,Ghee Vui(Institude Sinaran,short for IS....nope,not ing siang)
YY Girl(good luck),4RTA (Taylor's College,KL)
Cow (Singapore)
Paw Cat(Austalia)
Reb,SPY (New Zealand)

I think that's all i know but, if there's any error or someone i miss out then don't hesistate to tell me.Anyway, i don't know i'll enter MD,just don't have confident... look at the ppl going there.All of them the smartest in our class.... waa.....though i heard that to enter MD, we need to have at least 5 credit la(which i have) but still.....there isn't absolute in everything....haiz,worry,worry,worry...If i ever end up in SOAS.....haiz.........

You Are 84% Open Minded

You are so open minded that your brain may have fallen out!
Well, not really. But you may be confused on where you stand.
You don't have a judgemental bone in your body, and you're very accepting.
You enjoy the best of every life philosophy, even if you sometimes contradict yourself.

How Open Minded Are You?

Quite true~~~~~

The time for moving on....

2006-11-28T17:24:00.000+08:00

Well, first of all, i like to show the results from the link Ah piang provided.

You Are a Pundit Blogger!

Your blog is smart, insightful, and always a quality read.
Truly appreciated by many, surpassed by only a few

What Kind of Blogger Are You?

Personally,I think this test is quite exaggerating really,i don't think my blog is all that great la,for 1 thing. Secondly,in my opinion i've seen a lot of blogs that surpass me by.......a lot. So, maybe some tests are really just to show that ppl's tastes are really different,~_~.....(plz don't laugh at my results......)

The next few things are what's going on with my life recently.....

1. Have to resolve about the National Service thing for next year or else i'll be unable to study in MD because heard the school will not accept the student after their NS. No~~~~ i don't want to graduate a yr later than all of my classmate.....But i can't seem to find the form to go NS earlier like from Jan 1 to March 11, that way, i'll be in time for MD. Only able to find the postponement form though. If i can't study in MD, then my only choice left is going to Malaysia lo...*sniff,sniff*

2. Resolved a personal grudge with XXX lo. I'm not gonna carry all the memories from CHMS to my whole new life,u know. Which means i will likely brainwash myself to prepare more space for my brain then.

3. Trying to find something to do in this long,long,long holiday... Hope to find a job lo,but then again, who am i kidding, all the ppl wants are Bruneians and PRs here. Hmph, not that i'm complaining about Brunei or anything, it's one of the greatest country we all should know. Hope my father becomes a PR or something soon.

4. If i'm so unlucky that i can't apply to postpone or do anything abut NS,i guess i would try to convince my parent to let me wear braces then,which means i'll be going to Miri for a few months... Ah ,bite me....

Yet,another fullstop in our life

2006-11-26T17:05:00.000+08:00

The graduation ended at about 10 30pm, one of most memorable day that will go with us wherever we go or what we do..... I don't know if we will all meet again or not. But then again,since fate brought us together and apart,who knows? Someday,i know that we will all meet again. We may even have our own kids then....but nevertheless,i have no regret in my life.

I must say that it was really a touching moment.....i know it may sound unconvincing from me but it's the truth.I really felt touched that day. I just didn't express that feeling yesterday, But that doesn't mean i'm not touched because i didn't cry. It's just that maybe in some way, i've been immuned against things like that. Believe me, i'm not heartless (T_T)...Come on, we can all have tea some time in the future.

Here's an inspiration from yesterday's occasion for yesterday's occasion.

Is it our fault that we could not let it go....?
Is it our fault that we must choose our separate path?
Is it really true that we must part our own ways?
After all, we've been through so many phase......

I know it's real, I know it's true,
But all i want is to be together,
I know it's life,i know it's fate,
But is it too much to ask?

I realize at that moment ,life will no longer be the same,
I knew that it's the start of a new life,
But what's this i feel,a feeling of uneasiness,
Is it what they call the feeling of the second phase in our time?

I have doubt about myself and my ability,
How is it that i'll overcome the fear of losing,
How is it that i'll play my part in my new life,
What if there is no part for me to do in my new life?

I can't think now, cause i can't think right,
I have no regret and also eagerness,
Is that what life is all about?
Just becoming a thing of the past and be forgotten.....

Maybe we should just treat it as a transformation for adulthood,
Or a training for survival in the harsh,cold world,
But what about the tears that were there?
Can we really treat it as just salt water?

The more we refuse and repel reality,the nearer it comes,
But when we accept and acknowledge it,makes us heartless,
However,none of it really matters,
What matters is that,can we still meet and chat like we used to....?

Well,i don't really think this 'thing' (i dunno if it's a poem or something) is deep or good either
...But still, this is all i can offer for the one last time as a class mate and as a friend. Hope that we can all stay in touch and connected always~~~

The Criticising Continues

2006-11-21T18:40:00.000+08:00

The article of entertainment that some have been eager to read,buahaha~~~
(Very sorry about keeping ur neck long~~~~~~)

I've seen many types of people that appear in my life and had earned more than enough experience to criticise yet another lower level organism. Being drifting around the different classes in our grade,i had interacted with almost all the ones that studied in our grade and find that ppl i had met,not only are interesting but full of soul and kind intentions. What can i say,it's not like i'm the one who's always lazying around or don't even use my brains.I used them very,very frequently~~~~(no,it doesn't have anything to do with studies)

The one i'll be criticising about is one that i find disgusted about it's actions among all the good ppl i know. Yes! from this sentence on,i will be refering this low life, an 'it'.With reference of 'it' to bacteria,virus......etc. But i wouldn't of course focus on just criticising,i will be adding positive quantities of 'it' inside.(since last time,one reader urged me not to look only at the bad side) To be fair....honestly.But with reference to 'it' is to cover any info about the person only.....(got you there,didn't i?)

Basically i think 'it' is someone somewhat self centered and has a big,big ego. 'It' was once well known for a while but its fame didn't last long like all other things in the world. It's not like i hate 'it' or anything,but i just dislike 'it',that's all. 'It' had gradually been pushed out of the main crowd over the years,well.....that's what i heard.

Hearing bad things about 'it' is not an uncommon matter, and hearing good stuff about 'it' is an occasional matter la~~~~ but,bad stuff is what's flying about 'it' most of the time. 'It' has that attitude developed from popularity over the years and ppl just dislike it. So, is 'it' the attention seeker that i like to criticise? The answer is no,fortunately. 'It' appears to have the attention seeking intention but 'it' doesn't belong to the normal attention seekers' group,'it' is rather the type that crave for popularity through connections...like with ppl who are naturally popular.

'It' also likes to boast about things it does and how or what things 'it' has done for ppl.A person who likes to bring out the past to enjoy and being praised. Duh, does 'it' also has to bring its family,someone 'it' knows,relatives.......etc, to it's conversation about 70% of the time? I know la,that 'it's trying its best to start or maintain a conversation,but 'it's way of doing that just feels kinda wrong. Life's just not about others or urself,it's also can contain some interesting facts or material like ummmm,let's say 'oooooo,eating more something,something can keep the body slim'. An interesting fact is also an idea. Even giving advice is some sort of conversation.

Personally,I don't think that 'it' thinks before 'it' talks because 'it' had anger a lot of ppl when 'it' talks. Does 'it' care for others' feelings? Well, half and half lo~~ The good thing is that 'it' cares the feelings of those who are 'closer' with 'it',but when it comes to others,'it' doesn't give a damn shit about it. This may sound weird coming from me though....( i'm still learning to care for others' feeling,though i may not be 100% caring.....everyone's not perfect,mind you)

Can you say that 'it' is naive? I think not!But what i know is that 'it' is not pure and innocent.Can you say,fxxk up,stupid ('it')! 'It' however likes ppl to think that 'it' is a pure and innocent being. A fake again? Certainly, humans being always likes to 'cover up' inside and only desire to show off the good side....(me included,i must say) But, do not ever 'cover up' for a bad purpose, otherwise, when it is reveal, a punishment worse than death will await that one person.

What can i say, i don't think that 'it' experienced enough of life.Really,'it' may or may not have experience many things but i don't think that those experience really open 'it's 'eyes'. I'm not saying that i'm very mature or that 'it' is very immature,just that sometimes one small thing or action or even a word can have big effect on ppl. Ppl lived their past and if anything was done to trigger the wakening of those sorrow memories and you know it,it's time to make up for those ppl. 'It' just keep on triggering those memories,actually.

Lastly, I wanted to say that these are entirely my thoughts and no others' are in this post. Right now,i lost track of other things about 'it' but these listed are the more serious one.. Well, hope you guys enjoy this entertainment , hope that this tops the last criticising post.....or not.

Current worries: What to wear to the 'prom' and tomolo's commerce paper 2

Let the lightning dance for us!!!

2006-11-17T19:58:00.000+08:00

I have to make this a quick post as a storm is coming right now.
Firstly, the exams are over and let's all be joyful and happy,woohooo!!!! I thought at that day,i'll be sleeping like I usually do but i was too happy to be sleeping, Watch a movie series yesterday from episode one until 3 am,and still not wanting to sleep....bad me.

Went to the Mall to see movie,the Covenant this afternoon by myself after the others went to see death note cos i was late. But i don't mind cos i don't mind loneliness as it's a feeling i enjoy myself. It gives me the feeling of freedom and a sense of excitement,that something interesting is about to happen anytime.It's not like i'm anti social,it's just that i like to be alone once in a while.

I give a 4.5/5 for that movie,it was really good le~~~well,for me la. Dun think it is suitable for little bratty children though, have some exposure but overall,not bad for me. I thought it was something like a teen movie but as a horror flick,it's bad,cos there's no scary scene inside...

I'll trying to find a job but dunno la,Malaysian especially guys have hard time to find part time jobs in Brunei. But if i do get a job, i'll be delighted to do at least 2 months and leave one month for holiday. Got to be productive in the holidays~_~

Saw that jacket again this afternoon with MY,CY and CS and it was very nice looking for all of us but one thing is that it's a bit tight for me,but i still look good la.The white shirt that goes with it really spell the word 'fashionably fabulous',but over all,if i buy both ,it'll cost 70++. For a prom,is it worth it or not? Plus,i'm a person who doesn't have any money. Maybe i should just wear something casual for the prom then.....ah,my head hurts.....

The last war.....the last bloodbath......

2006-11-15T13:39:00.000+08:00

Physics today was okay la for me,cause i know that i can at least get a pass grade or higher but still,the last few days had been very tiring. Firstly,i couldn't balance my Balance Sheet in Accounts......well, at least one side of it is correct la~~~~But still,the chances of getting an A for Account has drop to around 50% lo,hope paper 1 can save me la...

Anyway,for Add maths,i was able to do about 40 plus worth of questions,in which there's only about 18 marks that i'm confident only.....hope that the marker for my paper will be kind enough to give me marks for my wrong working lo~~

However, the bloodbath will not only end there,we still have to get through it tomolo morning,which i doubt that i can....but i'll hang on for Chem,it's the least i can do to cover the loss of Add Maths. Plus,after tomolo,freedom and sanctuary will finally return to us (well,at least for 6 days la.....(i took commercial studies....)

But,i'm very,very excited about the graduation ceremony la, just one thing....where can i get a 'formal' wear which i don't have money to buy? Sure,my dad's a tailor,expertise at making those formal wears,but he wouldn't cause he need to pay for the wages in making it,which is expensive la,i know.....so i think i'll go buy the jacket i wanted since i first lay my eyes on it.(for about 5 months,actually) one more thing,Captain Carrot Soup got a similar jacket(not of similar colour) i wanted from someone on his birthday......so,i need to think first lo, maybe i'll just wear something 'fashionable' but not formal one lo~~~~

Arrrgh! my heads hurts!!! need to sleep now or else,i'll wouldn't be able to concentrate for tonight's midnight oil.....

Cursed of the Bs

2006-11-11T20:18:00.000+08:00

B....B....B....B....B.................
Since i was small,i felt that i was always cursed,having bad luck all the time.It really amazes me how strong my will is since 'suicide' is a word never ever in my mind. You could say that i'm really the happy-go-lucky kind of guy. But there is one thing that i always wanted to prove.... that i'm not the useless good for nothing idiot.....That's why i'm always trying to excel my sister in studies.

Being that second born of every family is almost always the hardest.Since you have one older sibling ahead of you and one small sibling behind you....it's always hard. The pressure,the negligence.... it's the things that's parents will make you feel.... Not that i'm complaining about my family,they are the greatest... Also,my parents rarely pressure me.

I've always trying to outdo my older sister in studies because once i excel her and set a higher bar for the younger siblings,i will prove that i am indeed the smartest child my parents have.I really wanted to make them proud...O level is the one thing that will make this happening. This is the results of the government exams of my sis and i,in the form of My sis's As:Mine As

PMR~~4As : 4As
PMB~~4As : 7As
GCE 'O' Level: No As : ????

Therefore since i didn't attend tuition for the exam this year,it's the year to prove myself. But i'm cursed. By the letter B....I'm always the B class student to her..and she always enter A class easily.Which makes me realize that their class year doesn't have much genius,do they? And when i got number 1 in class,she always says that because the teachers pity us,the stupid ones.

The exam this few days made me losses my confidence. If i get one A,i'll prove myself.But even commerce gave me a slight hard time,which i'm confident that i'll get at least a B.But,that was one of my hope. And i think i'll fail Add Maths too.Life isn't really fair and i know it. Nevertheless,my only hope now is Accounts,and i will do everything in my power to ace it,no matter what!

Anyway, the best results i expect from the exams up until now are all Bs. Nothing else. But nevertheless, i hope everyone is doing better than i am.Ah~~~
Here's an old song that i heard on tv yesterday and i hope you'll like it.Evonne Hsu isn't really that young now,isn't she?

A mix of this and a mix of that!!!

2006-11-09T15:38:00.000+08:00

I'm still bother by the comment thingy, yet all i ever do is to put the comment this way....kinda spoil Lipiang's art,really.....So lipiang, sorry.It's making the blog messy.....But i did my best...spent 1 hr for this.....Hope you could help me solve this soon......
Today,Biology was alright considering that i actually studied for it for like 6 hours from 8 to 2:30 last night.....But i think still can get credit eh.......Don't get me wrong....i'm just trying to comfort myself,i'm not like the one who's bragging and showing off all the time....~_~"
I'm having Commerce tomorrow,yet....i'm still wasting my time here on this blog and watching tv.Seems like i'll have to study up until very late in the morning.Hope i'll be able to make it cause if i don't,i'll be ashamed of myself~~~

Anyway,I think i'm quite pai-seh about not posting my 'masterpiece' yet so here the preview of the start of it,it's still in work but soon,the entire post will soon be reveal.Here's goes......

~~~~~I've seen many types of people that appear in my life and had earned more than enough experience to criticise yet another lower level organism. Being drifting around the different classes in our grade,i had interacted with almost all the ones that studied in our grade and find that ppl i had met,not only are interesting but full of soul and kind intentions. What can i say,it's not like i'm the one who's always lazying around or don't even use my brains.I used them very,very frequently~~~~(no,it doesn't have anything to do with studies)

The one i'll be criticising about is one that i find disgusted about it's actions among all the good ppl i know. Yes! from this sentence on,i will be refering this low life, an 'it'.With reference of 'it' to bacteria,virus......etc. But i wouldn't of course focus on just criticising,i will be adding positive quantities of it inside.(since last time,one reader urged me not to look only at the bad side) To be fair....honestly.But with reference to 'it' is to cover any info about the person only.....(got you there,didn't i?)~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Ah ha! No more to reveal for now,time is running short for me so....please wait for my complete post for this 'masterpiece'.It might me after the exam,but i'll be posting other short things for the time being....

Anyway,here's the quote by Enma Ai~~
"O miserable shadow clad in darkness! Hurting and disdaining people, a karmic soul drowning in sin... Would you try dying for once?"

But in Animax,it said~~~
Your pitiful shadow cloaks in darkness,You have caused great pain and suffering, Your hollow soul drowns in your sins....I will show you what death is like....

Weird! Can Japanese translation be so big of a difference????

Well,no enough time....phew

2006-11-06T20:25:00.000+08:00

I was gonna present my 'masterpiece' but don't have enough time left as i need to alter a bit on the html codes for this new layout,but i save it as a draft anyway. The only prob is that i can't have a comment war with this layout,though i really,really love this layout. Superb,if ya ask me.
Any suggestions or can any of you help me lo~~~

Anyway,since my 'masterpiece' is working in progress,i'll intro something to you all then....
First up, here's a song that's really,really good! It's from 3DG aka Three Days Grace, their music are like a mixture of Linkin Park and Gorrilaz,of course they also have their unique quality.
Here's 'Pain'

And this is a song from one of my favourite band,Evanessence.Wow, Amy Lee's getting more and more attractive everytime!Yes,another 'dark' song!! Call me when you're sober,huh? So....who's drunk?

Lastly: News of the day....
Uh ummm....(cough,cough). Today, the rain came to wash away my sorrow for not completing the Maths paper......though one question only la....WHY!!!!???? I also wasn't able to complete the last part of BM paper 2 a few days ago......
Oh, a sorrowful life i have.......sniff,sniff
Luckily the espeed recovered two days later(today) to cheer me up.....

No,this is not it.

2006-11-04T16:55:00.001+08:00

No, this is not the post i promised,just a fresh criticism which came to me when reading the newspaper.....

I developed a conclusion myself that smart is stupid and that stupid is smart. Get it?
Smart= Stupid, this two are both similar in a way actually. For example, have you ever thought that jokes told by 'smart' ppl(geeks or whatever you want to call them),in a way, funny? It's not really funny to ppl not of their same type of person. Their jokes are somewhat too intelligible to laugh at.

On the other hand, silly jokes (or if some call stupid,lame) are really the one making us laugh ,most of the time. It's not that because ppl are stupid or lame that they laugh at those jokes, it's just that maybe jokes are meant to be lame and silly to be able to be 'laughable'.Jokes are told to relax ppl and that jokers are indeed really smart ppl. They have the mind and creativity to joke and in a way, being smart.

But this is not the point of this post......
The one i am about to criticise is K.Fed, Britney Spear's husband(for now).
He is a waste of space in this planet as some critics say it. I think so too.What a garbage he is really. 'If you want to hate me,cool,hate me' is what he said. This may seem like a dumb thing to say but,in my opinion, i think a smart thing to say, cause if he don't care about how ppl look at him or talk about him, ppl will eventually be made looking like a fool, bad mouthing or scolding him like a mad person.

BUT! I hate him too and this kind of attitude will not bring him far in stardom. Not that he is really famous or a star(at all).... To me, he is just 'Mr Spears' or Britney Spears's hubby, a person who will soon be forgotten and vanish off the face of celebrities'world. But, even if he is to be remembered, he is always and will forever be regarded as 'Ex. Mr Spears'(once Britney ditched him, of course)

Of course,he had done smart things which we must admit:
1. He was able to hooked up with that dumb blond Britney even with two children.
2. He produced an album of his own with BRITNEY's money.(smart...xian bai lian)
3.Quoting that line.
4.Since he's a poor ass asshole and a junk to the world, he is eligible to demand compensation from Britney,making him $10 million richer than he is now.

Since i am not in anyway defaming him but praising him, it's not a bad post,isn't it? Buahahaha..
And since if he successfully gets the money, who needs fame with all those ka-ching,huh?

Don't laugh,it's on a trial....

2006-11-02T20:32:00.000+08:00

Ermmmm, I'm now going to write a poem,plz don't criticise,i know it's not as good as someone else,i know,but plz bear with it.Trust me,it's worth reading.Thanks

The judgement of the nine virgins

Nine out of nine,
The virgins loses their innocence,
Though properties retained,the elements not,
Suffering will soon befall on purity...

May it seems hellish,May it seems judgement,
Blame mental, not physical,
Yet,if promised land is what they seek,
Then,only the sea of isolation will find them...

Flow not a river wouldn't,down the crystal clear sight,
Flames will soon burn down the blight,a curved crack which gives birth,
May the virgins resist with all their might,
Desperation is all that will be found on the earth...

May it be words from a tormentor,or words from a sore loser,
Fools of no past will of course,deprive of future,
May it be an enemy who's sword was broken in war,
Lose, he may in battle but not overall...

Heavy may the burden be, of maturity and ability,
Though the virgins may possess the power to great heights,
Lack of enlightenment is what will bring judgement day,
As a red sea will soon be made out of their pride...

Blow a tornado if they want or even conjure a storm,
No matter the process,but believe the end,
How pitiful of them to even discard the bonds with fury,
If only had the third eye open at dawn...

Admiting is not a shame but a skeleton key,
To save themselves from the baby rats within,
Open the door for an inevitable defeat with both hands closed,
There, is where the real promised land is locked...

Will they receive enlightenment and acquire survival?
Or will they rebel the will of their own mind?
Though they may thought they had gotten away,
But nevertheless a judgement have begun to stretch its claws...

Wakakaka, this poem took an hour and a half to finish,waaaa.....anyway,if you really can understand this one, u'll be someone really,really great, cause frankly, i'm trying to make this poem,'un'understandable.What's a great poem without a few twist and turns,anyway however there is still some part that even i myself need a few moments to recall its meaning. I'm a little proud of myself,really. NO! Don't you dare laugh, Captain Carrot Soup!

Finally.....phew.....

2006-11-01T14:14:00.000+08:00

WTF!!! My espeed was down for like 2 weeks, so i wasn't able to update my blog....phew, prob finally fix.....
Finally was able to see an episode of Jigoku Shoujo aka 'Girl from Hell', i think it's nice, considering that it exploits those dark sides of ppl. Imagine, being brought to hell by a cute, dark haired girl when being cursed by someone else... Like the phrase 'when one is cursed, two graves are dug' that Emma Ai said, oh man, this line is awesome! I also like the songs.

Haven't started on Add Maths yet, which is coming 13 days later.... a bad omen....Anyway, POA paper one was quite alright, considering my confidence was stripped off me at the very day. Did a paper at CCS's and was only able to score 28 over 40....a prob that will also stripped me of my aim.

Chem practical at that morning was disastrous. Inhale sulphur dioxide which causes me to cough frantically, not to mention pain to my stomach,just horrible! Overall, i think i'll fail coz heard that results of titration was 26 in which my answer was 26.9, a too big of a difference.Kektio...

Ah yes, i have another post about critisism in mind, right now, but will save for next post...Buahahaha, so stay tune for more of my 'masterpieces' which is not the average boring post, rather it will be pieces that will stir emotions and thinking, wahahaha!

180hrs to go....-_-"

Resolving problems and rectifying mistakes

2006-10-23T15:53:00.000+08:00

Ah yes, two of my masterpiece have been such a drag, i need to rectify all...Ai...I am sooo ke lian
First, i must apoligize to some of the ppl(only some) who were unintentionally being embarass and critisize in my post entitled 'So...You think You're right???!!! NOT!' Ah yes, if you would like to see what happened plz go to the comment for that post....I'm really tire bout it. BUT let me tell all that it would NOT stop me from writing stuffs about like that again so if you can't take it anymore, plz do not hesitate to not read my blog after this post anymore....Thank You.

Secondly also in another one of my masterpiece entitled 'Last Words'. One advice: Think throughly in a fair way before you act or type. My masterpieces might not be agree by anyone but still it is in fact a masterpiece of entertainment really. Whether it is amusing or not, it really does in fact amuses me. Whether it is evil or not, depends on how ppl think.

Look, i really do not, by any means have the absolute power to judge, yet you don't either. I am now typing in a fair and calm manner... and putting off all the personal issues. Anyway, i am really surprise at how my masterpieces affects ppl, i'm flattered, Thank You All.^_^ Arigato.

------------Lastly, here a piece of crap story, which i made up during boring time. Since it's crap, the rights to close the blog immediately is allowed. Thank You---------

Once upon a time , a little boy met this really cool and special toy car in a toy store. It was love at first sight between the both and the boy happily bought the car. The happy times they share is going to be long and memorable.
The car grew fond of him and is willing to know him better or all, coz the boy once show off the car in front of his friends in a toy car race saying that the car is his only precious. Yes, the car thought so too and was dumb enough to take it all and as a few months passes, the popularity of toy cars of course like any other stuffs cool downs.
The boy of course grew tired of the car and left it under his bed which is full of his useless stuff. Weeks passes and the car tries hard to strenghten the bond between them but the boy doesn't even care. He had used the car's purposes and he no longer need it. Finally, the car realize that fact.
One day, the boy accidentally step on the car and slip. He blames that car and attacked the poor,poor car. The car was later found in the junkyard by a worker who works as a toy car assembly line. He recognised the car immediately and brought it home, giving it a facelift. However, though the worker did a great job, the car was never the same again.....

Buahaha! A really short story. This is another type of post i've been wanting to write, so.... ummm.....try to tell me if this type of post is entertaining or not, huh? Thanks

Stress free song....

2006-10-22T14:00:00.000+08:00

Here's a lyrics which i edited some of it..... sing it out if you want

Stacie Orrico
(There's Gotta Be) More To Life

I've got it all, but I feel so deprive
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I think I am reading
And why can't I let it go

There's gotta be more to life...
Than studying,studying all of the damn time to achieve high grades
Cause the more that I'm...
Reading out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than studying more

I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm in front of the net
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's studying

There's gotta be more to life...
Than studying,studying all of the whole time to get many 'A's
Cause the more that I'm...
Practicising thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than studying more

I'm waiting on something other than this
Why am I feeling like there's something I missed...

There's gotta be more to life...
Than studying,studying all of the long time
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than studying more

Wahaha...I must have lost it.....kek tio.... Anyway, it's something to entertain ppl who's stressed out and i hope this lyrics wouldn't offend Stacie Orrico. Oh yeah, all right for the original are reserved to....blah blah blah

The original purpose.

2006-10-21T14:37:00.000+08:00

The original purpose of this blog is serve as a diary for me for a diary keeping activity with the others who don't blog.(only i did) anyway, seems like i'm the only one dumb enough to do it. Oh well, i don't mind being flown airplane anymore coz i have oredi overcome this negative feeling since early this year.

Well,anyway i've been feeling a little (just a little) pressurized lately with the studying and all but luckily found some website to release it like two of these:
www.bitterwaitress.com ----------> for people who likes gossips (like me)
www.arcadebliss.com ------------> to play entirely free games
or search for mobile wallpaper and stuff....all free
www.freemobilefun.net

Well, these are something to entertain me online and also neopets. Aim to earn 500000 nps, wahaha and is about 80 percent finish. Anyway, found the opening of the Nightmare before Christmas,my most favourite Tim Bunton's production.

195.5hrs to go.....

Mobile and attempt.....

2006-10-19T17:06:00.000+08:00

Now, i got a cheap but quite nice looking 3G mobile phone made in China (which i hope doesn't explode when i'm using it) I'm using some time to 'master' its uses and successfully master almost 95% of its uses. Well, at least it can go online and view all of my friends' blogs.
The phone is white in colour and looks like this...

Anyway, it distracted me from my studies only a little bit....(coz i didn't really study hard) That's why i am going to attempt something i never try before....
Until before the O Level exam,i'll try to study up to 200hrs....Yup, two hundred... ( which by the way, can be achieve if i don't sleep,eat or drink in the next 8 days)

The catch if is i don't achieve it, i'll....erm.... haven't figure that out yet so.... any suggestions? Well, i was thinking of not eating meat for a month which is impossible coz it's natural for me to eat meat first at the table....hmmm
Anyway,there's still 198.5hrs to go....

By the way, i finish Diner Dash 2 oredi....hehe...

So....You think you're right?! NOT!

2006-10-17T22:00:00.000+08:00

Yes, another post to criticize the low life scums, buahahaha!!! (*triumph music*)

Got the inspiration at school today for this post after Biology Practical. I thought why not? No one had ever spoken out their minds about these pathetic beings. Well, i'll be the first one then.

That bunch of ppl(I'm not pointing my fingers to anyone *sarcastic grin*) are nothing but real shitheads, sure.... they may have slightly better than average results (except for the dispicable head who have the lower than average) but doesn't make them in what we consider popular.
Oh... I change my mind, they are popular..... Popular and famous losers,that is. I wonder why would they formed such a laughable group? In my opinion, they are in fact insecure, they are unwilling to show their weaknesses to others. These kinds of wimps are in fact not true friends materials to ppl outside their group. They're likely to try and attract ppl to join them, which classified them as the attention seekers as we all know.

Under their system, the head holds the veto power and decides all the things. Well, they may vote but in some situations, i've seen the votes become useless and any opinion rejected. Heh, the jocks wannabes..... i pity those who blindly follow that what the hell corrupted minds which heads this group of wannabes. But at last, no one can save them except their own willingness.

The fact that the head talks like he knows everything when he doesn't really is annoying. Plus, he's a stupid fake who thought he cover up perfectly when all souls who 'see through' him are actually backstabbing him. Hehe...... this actually amuses me, to see how long he can hold on when he in fact really knows all of these backstabbing activity.
Which reminds me why he talks about buddhism a lot (I'm a buddhist), coz he's too evil at heart and maybe his parents knows it, that's how his parents tries to educate him.

I am not afraid to admit that the all these are the words from my heart. You can hate me or say that i'm evil, but truth is at least i'm true to my feelings and at least i had tolerate that group for a long time by not humiliating them at the very least.

-----After such a serious post, let me recommend a song to relax------
I like this song but you may not......
Welcome to the black parade by My Chemical Romance

Ah!!! Bomb!!!!

2006-10-15T19:56:00.000+08:00

The 'Bomb' sold at the Fun Bakery at the Mall is really a great snack for a afternoon tea. Too bad there's too much malay ppl around us... it's really quite rude to eat in front of them during puasa. I almost bought one when i got to the Mall immediately, then realized all the malay ppl around me. I don't even have the courage to buy a drink at the food court.

Anyway, we were shopping for New Years clothes oredi.It's actually too early considering that Chinese New Year starts at around February Next Year but seeing that there'll be no more discount around that period i guess shopping earlier doesn't seem to be a bad idea, doesn't it?

Personally, i would like to buy some clothes from one of those branded chain store or something like ego or bingo.... but considering i don't have any income yet, i'll need to save up by buying from supermarkets. I didn't see any clothes that suit me though, maybe mainly because i had bad experience about it, like the 1st second i look at it, it's gorgeous but the next thing you know, it turns into something ugly. I guess that's the way with ppl, always demanding more and more new stuff.
But anyhow, it's not like i bought anything yet. I was just browsing around.Oh yeah, the men pants selling at Utama Grand is sooo pathetic, i don't know why i even bother to look at them. Digusting's the word. Therefore i'm advising not to buy pants there for guys, that is.
Ok,ok I maybe exaggerating but who knows, i have my own point of view.

I need to start 'K' ing the books tonight coz i totally forgot Tuesday is the day for Bio Practical.
I'm doomed.

Memorable and Important Pictures

2006-10-13T16:21:00.000+08:00

Here's a few of the pics when we celebrate at Paw Paw's house. Quite nice dun you think? Everyone is sooo happy that night, i think.... okay,okay, I may have spoil a little bit of it by not being surprise but it's all about the times we share together.

Here's where we all lay down after much fun, we were on auto camera.What a wait!There were a few unsuccessful attempts but this one's the best.

We were fighting not to sit in the middle due to suspicion but guess what happens;>
Anyway, i think i'm a bit exposed. -_-"

The silly photo of the girls, suits them if ya ask me, hohoho! Piggy wasn't taking care of her 'image'

Personally, i like the group photo with the alcohol better, hmmm i wonder what happened to those....

These are a few photos that is memorable but i still have more of it, just want to share it with my fellow bloggers :)
Anyway, there's one thing i must ask, do you ppl really have time to read my post cause i update it soo often?

Last words....

2006-10-12T20:05:00.000+08:00

These are some of the last few words i wanted to say for a long time and before it all ends, i must really say it... (by the way, this is the second post of the day)

----The following content will be full of critisism and bullshit, please do not hesitate to not read it. Thank You.------

I've seen some ppl in class always doing stupid useless, unneeded things which maybe they're trying to attract attention. Low life attention seekers...... don't they know that the more harder you try, the more unpopular they get. I'm not pointing my fingers at anyone but still, it causes unnecessary distractions which is quite annoying.

Deep down, i know they just needed somebody to care for them, to love them but still they used the wrong method. I feel quite pity but yet at the same time disgusted about how they acted. Why wouldn't they see that if they don't have any friends when they are their true self, there must be a certain problems in their attitude that ppl doesn't like.

Please don't go on me like 'what do you know, you have someone to care for you. '
Well, i for one had started to change in my ways a long time ago. I may not be the oh so popular guy or the oh i have so many ppl who wants to be my friends sort of guy but still the least i know that whenever i'm down, my friends will be my strength to go on....

----As you finish this post, you may think that 'hey, this guy is acting like he's know everything,big show-off, well let me tell you this i dunno everything and as far as i'm concerned you don't either and different ppl have different point of view, okay-----

The end is but the beginning

2006-10-12T18:30:00.000+08:00

Today is the official end for classes and for everyone bring a different meaning, however although some may not realize it, it is always the beginning of something new.

Flashes of light can be seen at the last few period, each and everyone have mixed feelings.
Anyway, the atmosphere was like we had finished our exams oredi, nothing but relaxation..... ahhhh..... how i wish this kind of atmosphere to be more frequent.

I will have to start working hard or else i wouldn't be able to achieve a goal of 3 to 5 A at the most. My forecast is like 1A, 5B,2C, 1D and 1U.Quite a weird forecast actually but still at least i've got 8'O's which i'm very happy about it. I'm no scholar, i must admit that but still something inside of me kept me from giving up, yet i have no will to maintain it... oh well, as J said when the times come, i'll study.

Anyway, here's a video which i think is really suitable for our graduation ceremony. Tonight by nan quan ma ma

Regret is but an experience

2006-10-11T17:42:00.000+08:00

Ah.... heard some good news about my forecast results.One A and 7 credits and also 1 pass and only one fail, but who cares, it's good enough for me and for college. Anyway for most college, 5 credit is going to get me far anyway, who needs Chemistry and Add Maths anyway. I know i don't.
But I'm confidence if i work a little extra hard on Maths D and Accounts, it shouldn't be a prob for at least an A2. I'll really try to show that bitch Chemistry teacher about unfairness, i will be aiming a higher grade than what she gave me (D7). I'll show her that even without her, someone out there is able to get a credit without listening to her bullshit in class, hehehe.

Learned something new to play today, not good at it yet but I know the rules oredi and played one game with Sheeling, she's a very funny and likeable person. But what i like most about her is that she follow her own ideals and well to me never fake about her feelings(though she can be a little too straight at certain times) But still, to me having a friend who's true to herself is what i wanted most, that's why at times i may be picky about friends.

Arrggggh, I have no curry puff for today!!!! The ones at the canteen is sooooo nice! But it's only available at wednesday, but today, arggggh! The smooth and crispy layer and that spicy sauce and the well done potato and meat inside made it a MUST eat pastry on every wednesday. Mmmmm.... I wonder if it would come tomorrow......

10th post and still on the go......

Genetic or Talent? That is the question.

2006-10-08T21:38:00.000+08:00

Second post of the day(coz i'm sooo bored and forgot to post this in my last post)

We were having some booze at Paw Paw's house in which I had a tiger beer. I drank it like it was water, man. I think i'll be an alcoholic.... My face didn't even change color (and if it did, it should turn green)
Ppl who turn green via drinking alcohol are really good at drinking alcohol(sources from my parents and bio teacher) And i'm proud to be one!
Found out that i may have inherit the 'Alcohol' genes from mom or i just have the alcohol drinking 'zai' naturally. My mom's a better drinker than my dad and when she told me that, my dad jokes about how mom drunk him when they were young in one fateful night. Said he's being responsible right now, hahaha. It's really funny!
Only my mom and me have this special skill but i think I would like to see how my 2 yr old bro would do when he grows older,hehe.....

But.... it's so obvious!

2006-10-08T16:55:00.000+08:00

I'm a person who doesn't get surprise easily in real life ( which excludes watching horror flick) and let me tell all why.

Yesterday (7th Oct 2006), Me and a few great friends, Jeff, YY,SPY,Paw Paw, Sze fish, Louis and Reb were at Paw Paw's house celebrating the mooncake festival. After a while as i was in the kitchen, i have already confirm my suspicion. They were also celebrating another occasion beside the mooncake festival...... my belated birthday. (23rd Sep)
This is the things that makes the whole 'surprise' not surprising:
1. They were giving me the 'looks' and they seem to say that I really must attend the occasion.
2. When i was helping around the kitchen in Paw Paw's house, i saw a cake box in the open fridge( we were taking some food for steamboat)
3. When Jeffrey came, he was carrying many things including a wrapping paper.
4. Halfway taking photos, Louis gave away by saying ' I thought this is Siang Siang's Birthday?' (ermmm ^_^")

Sorry guys, but it's just that it was really too obvious.... And when i told my younger sis this, she said I should at least fake a suprise look to be polite. WHAT??!! I'm not polite???!!!Well, excuse me if i can't be surprise so easily and i hate fake personality(which i wouldn't act that way)

Anyway, I really want to thank you all guys for putting such an effort just for me. I'm really touched at heart but you guys should know that i can't shed tears easily (sorry). But, guys i really love the presents, it's the best! The Jack Skellington plushie and that jeans really rocks!!!
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My sincerest thanks.

Out??!!Out!!?? AND HE'S OUT COLD!!!!

2006-10-07T15:19:00.000+08:00

Ahhhh... very tired.... think i'll pass out from staying up late to study commerce.. well, it didn't went well but i think i can still score about 60+, i hope, it's a very, very low mark oredi. Well, i have to admit, it was my own fault that i'm so goddamn tired coz i started to study at about 11 30 last night, and end at 2 30....

I'm seeing a weird sign today, seeing a few guys in a bad, bad mood...hmmm, is the mooncake festival cursed???!!! Talk about 'once in a blue moon' huh. Played a few candles yesterday which seems to become a tradition in our family oredi as we play it every year....Quite weird actually, considering you were suppose to light the candles in the latern(which we didn't, by the way)

Also, this blog is getting more exposed everyday which i didn't hope for coz as you see,my blog title is "Private Life", which means to have as less ppl as possible to see my blog.... Well,it's not that i don't like ppl reading my blog, it's just that there's bound to be grammar and vocabulary errors which i am not proud of.

Now, that i'm 'exposed' , maybe i should change the title to Public life? (Of coz, i have no intention to do so...)

Discovering Enlightenment....

2006-10-06T22:50:00.000+08:00

Ahhhhhhh, I think i'm soo lazy that even my butt hurts when i'm sitting. Tomolo,I'll be having a commerce 2nd trial test paper 1(thought not accounted for our report cards) and I'm still here blogging, anywayI seriously wishes to get an A for commerce without any effort but who am i kidding. But I'm sooo seriously gonna do what i have to do, to eliminate all distraction and stay focus.

I'm also beggining to feel sorry for how i used to treat Mr Chew coz since he started to teach us, i've been bad mouthing him about how old he is, blah blah blah. Anyway, i think he gave me an 8 out of 10 for my assessment mark. WHAT!!!! I didn't even do one single work he has given. Man,i'm feeling really guilty now......

Just bought two Dvds and one cd yesterday and finished the two dvds: The break up and the Lake house, I like the Lake House better coz there's almost one drop of tear in my eyes which is rare but was really 'gan dong' by the movie....
Also went to the Mall yesterday afternoon and watched the Ghost Game with Jeff, YY and Reb. I really didn't want to watch the movie (coz i heard it wasn't nice) and after much persuasion by them, i still didn't want to watch it and as they were about to enter the Cineplex, I change my mind coz SOMEBODY (Jeff) said something about him being out for the last time as he needs to start studying and he didn't fly aeroplane this time (which is rare as everyone knows it). Oh yeah, we're flown aeroplane by Paw Paw this time ('jian' cat)
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I think my mom is gonna let me buy a 3G handphone but it's soo cheap that it seems like a toy. $99 dollars plus a line for one, huh???!!! Sooo cheap!!!!! But the brand is B mobile and i think it is of coz made in China but what i'm afraid most is that it might explode.....

Engulf in the flames of motivation

2006-10-03T14:18:00.000+08:00

Well, i'm rewriting this again cause there was a power shortage just now(phew)

I'm feeling great and is satisfied with the current results i'm getting except for add maths which i fail. Well... at least the results we're had oredi gotten.
Regarding the post title: Yes! I'm pep up with energy and motivation to do better in the exam after having a look at my dear friend Big Boobs's (ET for short) results and she reali, reali done a great work this time.
I must admit i'm happy for her but at the same time a little jealous of her. We may compete our results with each other but we're still a kind of special friend. Deep down i know that we actually rely on each other than competing. We're like pillars of support to each other.

I think me and ET are really good friends cause we don't let the differences in sexes to become a boundary for us as i think guys and gals can really become pure friends. So, i'm informing to whoever is lucky enough to discover my secret blog that me and ET are just really friends.

And now i'm addicted to the opening theme of The Law of Ueki, it's really nice!
'Falco' by Hitomi Shimatani.
Hey, i'm feeling empty now that 2nd trial is over and i'm bored. I was even thinking about writing an article entitled ' Why US will become the reason for its own demise' just for fun but then i may get arrested, oh well no hard feelings eh.(for those who i offended)

Better than before

2006-10-02T14:24:00.000+08:00

Well, my 2nd trial results i received today are better than 1st trial but i still flunked add maths, but still what hurts me most was my bio a 38/80 which i expect to be at least 50.....

Oh yeah, i found out that if the food we eat doesn't exceed 1200 calories per day, we can actually slim down, hoho. Talk about hard, even the rice have calories so I think i really need to burn the calories liao...
Got Diner Dash 2 from Chef Carrot Soup (CCS for short) and I thinkit's damaged or something coz it'll shut down by itself. Anyway, it's quite a nice game, provided that if you're bored.

Lastly, can anyone tell me that is the sentence "You're a jack of all trade, but a master of none" a compliment or not coz i compliment Yes Yes gurl (YY for short) and she shed some tears???!!! Weird actually.....

Yesterday Night

2006-10-01T17:10:00.000+08:00

Well, as the title states yesterday night was a eventful day. Me and 6 others went to see Rob-b hood, a movie that Jacky Chan produced and acted. It was better than i anticipated(which i didn't) and the baby was really cute. Anyway is that baby a 'mixed'???
After that, had no transport home so have to go on YY's car and her mom treat us to a Dim Sum buffet at Dynasty. It was tasty but i was very full oredi when we got there from the Mall ( I had three burgers) but i force myself anyway. And i got home at about 2 am (yes, in the morning) and took a bath.

Okay, i admit that i didn't shower since well, the whole day after coming back from Chemistry Exam but at least i don't smell....

Current addiction is Law of Ueki and an internet game called Etherena Beta...

Finally, Sanctuary!!!

2006-09-30T13:43:00.000+08:00

Yes, finally.... the 2nd Trial is finally over, phew.....

Well, can't blame me for being happy, it's just that doing Sciences and Maths just isn't my thing.
I was soooo stupid to have chose this path but however I never regret it. That's right. I may get bad grade, i may be hated by the teacher and others but when i think about it, i'll be much worse in other class. Why? Because i'm surrounded by smarty-pants (no offense,guys) who would get good grade and advise me to study by doing it themselves. I'm really quite lucky to study in this class (well, almost happy to meet the whole class).

Oh yeah, I'm quite worry about hippo now that she's so sick. Hope she gets better soon.....

Anyway, Chemistry today was okay but i wouldn't score good grade coz pass is good enough for me (I do hope i pass) and i am totally devasted by add maths(100% sure fail) .... Anyway i hope i wouldn't need to do any maths stuff after i graduate but still I am 100% sure that that's quite impossible coz i still need maths to help me count my many $$$$$,hehe.. ($_$).

Well, i also found out coz of rain, some water seep through the phone lines and now whenever it rains, i wouldn't be able to come online and use the telephone (totally disastrous) until it gets dry. hmmm... IT'S GONNA RAIN NOW!!!!! Adious!!!

Creating for Releasing

2006-09-27T18:00:00.000+08:00

Well, well,well......
Since having e-speed, I have a lot of time online and I found out.....

That once you have access to unlimited time online, you'll be bore after a few short weeks
Walau, never thought i would say this......

Anyway, I'm trying to do some blogging from now on to kill some time ;)
Stay back at school for english oral today and was quite nervous but not as nervous as Malay Oral (I'm soooo dead on this) and now trying to release myself to a private world of mine, that's free, peaceful and how i look at matters, so i'm gonna be very 'jian' with words but bear with me..hohoho

Today is also a rehearsal day for the stupid,lame Snow white drama and things went of coz, stupid.... The only thing is that i come back home at 4 00 instead of 4 30 mention on the blackboard of our class or so i thought but it turns out that (they) were staying until 5 30.

WHAT!!!!!!????? How should i know!!!!??? No one informed me. And this is one of the things i quite fed up with some ppl coz no one ever informs me of the changes in plans! So,is it my fault that i didn't stay back?! huh!? huh!? This is so stupid!!! I'm always getting flown aeroplane by ppl.....