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Saturday, July 12, 2008

Really Randoms

If my blog is a person and posts are what keeps him alive, my blog must be a bed-ridden sick old man. Might as well end life, cut loose and get on with life. Haha. Tried changing the skin but can't seem to do it right. Skins from blogskins doesn't seems to work. LOTS of editing needed. Being a Tech-no doesn't make it more easier. Darn it. :/ No, i'm not closing down my blog. Just lazy to update. I do read others blogs and i admire their passion to keep it updated like kennysia, xiaxue and my friends like liping and chung sun. no wonder my english seems to be getting quite poor compared to when i was in form 5.

I'm feeling pressured. Failed maths and chem on the last sem's finals. And by a really big margin too. I'm thinking of going tuition for maths. For chemistry and bio, i'll be working my arse on it. On a side note, i've still managed to pass that compulsory sub but not safe yet. Just pass is not going to cut it. Might go tuition for that as well. How come my friend like Jeff have that kind of serious attitude when it comes to studying and i don't? I thought you'll become more similar with the people you hang out with over time? Man.....

I just need to be in the right mood i think. Hmmm, it's really hard for me to have that mood lo. It only happens right before exams and tests. Even for O level, i studied last minute. Was lucky to pass all. Lots of specs dropped for that ;-) I've been a happy go lucky guy for most part of my life. But this time, it's different. I feel the vibe. That this is definitely one of those obstacles that determines my life. One of those time point which changes my entire life and how i'm going to live.

I failed even in average for the last sem. And when i told this to mom, She said " You have to start working hard lo, If you fail, then what is the purpose for you to sacrifice a comfortable life to return to malaysia to study?" Somewhat like that. And it struck me hard. She clearly sounded disappointed. I've always tried not to let her down and it's been going well with few occasional disappointments but not in my studies. She never have to worry about that starting form 1. I was always in her expectation(I've always have higher la) to at least pass but now? I've assure her last time that i'll pass and i did. This time, i assured her that i won't fail too much in maths and chem but i did. At least 30% margin for both.

Sorry, if i bored you with this. It seems that all i can blog about are studies. I don't have an interesting life. It's just been like going with the flow of fate. Smooth, calm and nothing interesting ever seems to happen. Well, it's not like my life is dull, it's colourful. But once in a while i would live to have something extreme. Something totally out of ordinary of my life. But phew, if i'm always that way, i would have died of depression. ;)

Something out of ordinary
I had a grey hair plucked out of my head by a friend! GREY HAIR! Me! My face doesn't suit to have grey hair! It's like a baby with armpit hair! It's just plain unacceptable! I must be worrying too much and sleeping irregularly. Have to live like a normal teenage such as able to not sleep in class even if the teacher's one of the most boring teacher i've ever met. Yes, i still continue that habit ;( It acts as a defense mechanism for boringness. Haha! Might as well make that my resolution for next year. Hmm, don't think i've made any resolutions before. It would be a new start.

I found out that i'm a flirt or at least feels like one based on the reactions of people around me. Whenever I'm close to any members of the opposite sex, I would be deemed falling for them. Either we're together or i'm hitting on them. Ok, luckily people who truly knows my 'lovey' attitudes (which is few) towards female counterparts is just a sign of a deep rooted pure friendship with them. Maybe even sisters liao. Don't mind the rumours though, it must mean the people are jealous and are denying the possibly of a true pure friendship between man and woman. I feel sorry for them to live in such a small tiny world ;)

To end this post. I hereby solute two of my friends for understanding themselves and I'm really happy for them. Now the fun begins *evil grin* Hahahahahahhaha!! You know who you are Mr ------- and Miss -----. Ironic event. lol!

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Thursday, May 22, 2008

Rat Dissection XD

My 1st sem exam was disastrous, not only will i fail maths, i'll also be failing chemistry too! Things doesn't look good for me. Fact: i've already got the maths 2 paper back which i had more confident in but then, i failed badly.... Everyone failed as well but how i wished i passed. Today is the last day of the exam... Maths 1 paper and duh, going to fail but have the feeling that it won't be as bad as paper 2. Man, and my maths 2 is supposed to be better than maths 1... Enough of this rubbish, i'm enjoying myself today! But then have to go back to school for 40 minutes tomorrow morning at 10 to finish up the last part of the mouse dissection. Drawing the heart we preserved in formalin. Will stink like soul milk....

Yup, the rat dissection is really fun and interesting! I never for a minute there thought it was disgusting and gross, ( a bit cruel but i got through) instead, i see lots of knowledge and guts and so on. Lol! Pics included! Get a bin or plastic ready in case of nausea ;) Don't worry, i'll start with some heartwarming pics. ;) Unfortunately i do not own a camera so it's all taken with my phone.

This is Mr. Mickey and Mrs. Minnie. I got them the day before the dissection. Need 2 white mice to look at the three systems in the body. (Circulatory, Digestive and Respiratory) And yes, i dissected not 2 but 3 white mice, wahahahahaha! One for practice ma....

!!! RED ALERT!!!
PICS STARTING TO GET UGLY

Anyway, i didn't take the pics of these two when i'm done with them but i did take some from the practice. (The bitch is a strict power hungry whore)

Anyway, first we crucify it like so.

Then we peel off its skin to see a transparent popia skin like skin? LOL! Even got some reddish black meat like thingy and greenish thingy that look like veggies le... Don't hate me if you don't like popia after this.... Haha. This photo is the most clear pic i can find on my phone. Stupid phone cheated me by showing a clear pic of it when i snapped it. Turns out this way :'-(

We need to cut open the popia skin and reveal a digestive system like this. Man, it smells like toilet! There seems to be some soury urinary smell. But i got used to it soon enough with the help of surgical mask anyway. The black thingy on the top are the livers. The greenish little thing just below is is the colon. Why it's green? The shit is still being half digest when i killed it, that's why. The others are the small intestines, large intestine and rectum and such.

This is how the final form of the digestive system will look like.

See any needles? ;) White mice are actually quite cute but for my assessment, i just had to killed it.

Whose hand is that? ;)

I'm focusing ok.... (actually just posing)

They say i look like a psychotic mad doctor here.... One of those bian tai.....

Loooookie here, it's dancing with me!

Don't drop your guts miss....

My last memories with Ms. Minnie. I made her a widow for 3 days by dissecting her husband Mr. Mickey. I finally release her from that pain of losing her loved one... To make up for her loss for the three days,i fed her cornflakes le... Ppl said i treated her better than when i treat a human. WHAT? Human will betray you ba. Unlike Miss mousy here. She literally gave me her blood, tears and life. Feel guilty especially when i accidentally cut her main vein which caused her to bleed non stop. Oh well. That's the end of this post. I'm going to play with my bro for now ;-)

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Saturday, April 26, 2008

Hectic and...?

Ok, i was lazy and so didn't blog for quite a while (one month?) It was such a hectic and damn tiring month for me. Never seem to have enough sleep and rest. My eyes got smaller and my 'hei yuan quan' has gotten deeper and wider due to lack of sleep. (btw, what's english for hei yuan quan?) Pardon my poor english now. Form six here is definitely damn torturing.

We're having weekly tests nowadays. -.-" The teachers just have to give us the short quizzes and tests so that we can study. I mean it's good la considering that will definitely motivate me to study earlier before the 1st semester test. But what's annoying is that my stupid bio teacher expect us to have time to study, read the reference, do homeworks and read newspaper. Sounds like no problem. But when you have to stay back at school for four days a week for extra classes, duties and group study(after the extra class and a free tuesday), where do you have time for that? What?! Aren't we human?!!? Stupid B!@tch!!! We need at least a bit of time for something to release our stress called leisure! What the heck? You want us to go over the bend issit?

And somehow, I think she think we have so much time that instead of doing our work, we're wasting it off! We don't! We also have our responsibilities and need some personal time off!
I mean, teenage life is a hard phase of life we're going through so STOP assuming everything, you ******! Stop saying what we should have done, what we should do next! You don't have control over our life you control freak!

Sigh.... My forehead is still a grand canyon, sprouting out new geysers( at the average of 3) everyday. Can see my stress or not? In form 5, when i don't have much stress, i won't have much pimples anyway but now... sigh... Man, say stfu also kena condemn. My class is just full of 'polite' people and nerds. To me, polite people something makes me feel that they're so fake. Not sure la, that's just me. Scary also, i like to be around real people which the human nature to joke and stuff, not some future good employees (people who can rarely savour financial success due to lack of creativity and ideas).

So sien one.... I mean, it's like you won't break any traditions and just follow the the cycle which bourgeoisies have install for you. Just study, work, marry, give birth, retire and die. Why can i have like travel around the world or get rich or have fun for 10 more years in that list?
For nerds, ok la. I'm saying this because i've become a nerd and thus will try not to laugh at them. XP

We'll be practicing our dissection on mice on tuesday and i think it ain't gonna be pretty. See? Have to stay back also. What's more, we have short tests: maths 1 on monday(which i'm definitely going to flunk), pa on wednesday and friday(very long so have to split into half). Luckily thursday is labour day so won't have to go to school otherwise, they'll be a test as well. Test for whole week lagi.... Haven even go through that week and is already feeling the pressure. I'll definitely take the pics of my dissection experiment ;)

OOOoo, btw, my dad came by just last saturday. ;)

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Saturday, March 22, 2008

The right major for me?

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Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Great news

Right, And here comes the good news. I PASSED ALL MY TESTS IN LAST TWO WEEKS' PRE SEMESTER TEST!!! Yes! You did NOT read it wrong! I PASSED ALL!!! Quite unexpected when a few number of people still failed in certain subjects. I'm so proud actually. I'm not that good in science subjects but since this pre semester exam, i feel more confident in achieving the 3.5 pointer i set myself for STPM. O, for an extra info, the overall pointer is 4. So, 3.5/4 is very hard to get. Getting 4 are for people like chi how, ccs and jie ming (Hmm, i'm turning into a geek? LOL!)

Here's the report of my grades( for form 6, 45 is the passing mark) :
Biology: 32/70= 46 and i might be able to get 47 if i get that extra one mark out of 70
Chemistry: 50 (Yes, over 100 and quite a good score compared to others)
English: According to my calculations, it's 81
Maths: Paper 1= 23/100 but paper 2= 72/100, so it's 47.5
PA(Malay)= 58/100

Right, i know it's still not good considering that most subject are in the boundary line of life and death . But still, when everyone have something that fails, it's a great achievement for me. Hello, this is Mr. KiSS you're hearing from. I mean, i prove myself that i can study and can achieve what others don't expect me to get, that i can be a genius as well. Side note: In other class, no one passed biology and i did. And the one who should had gotten the best mark in my class turned out to have 1 mark less than me. ;P

Here's a hurtful conversation someone had with me before the biology paper was given.
Sad guy who failed despite having tuition: Did you hear, all Sci 3 students' Bio paper 'quan jun fu mo'? The highest is only 41!
Pitiful me: What? Hmmm...(not much reaction)
SGWFDHT: The person who got the highest in the other class got a big fat cross for her essay! And everyone's essays are also like that.
Me: Hmmm, right.... but i believe Abraham(the guy who always get the highest in class for bio) will bring glory to our class. And i think our class will be better than them.
SGWFDHT: I agree. So, what do you think of it?
Me: I still think I have a fair chance of passing... Although a bit low but nevertheless i feel that even if i fail the paper, i won't be far from passing.
SGWFDHT: Wah! The highest in other class got 16/20 in her objective, what makes you think you can do better than her?

Ahem, the conversation went on something like this in chinese. But hey, although i'm a bit hurt for being looked down on,but he kept his fricking mouth shut when i got 31/70*100=44. But that's not all, teacher left out 1 mark from the calculations of marks and i got 32/70*100=46. Yeah! I passed! In your face! I didn't have tuition and i got a pass, what did you get?! Hmph! I know he fail only la. He's expected to fail as well actually.... I mean, why can't i changed and pass? I mean everyone have a fair chance of passing so don't ever judge a book by its cover, ok?

Now that i whine about my life and brag about my grade, i'm expecting rewards. LOL!

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Monday, March 17, 2008

Start of school sem?

Although the new school sem did start today but i don't feel like it's the real official start of the new school sem. Why le? Because ho, after wednesday, we will have a 2 days holiday for thursday and friday. It seems that there's someone very important in the country whose birthday is on thursday so we're on holiday again. Then on friday, it's good friday for Christians, so holiday lagi. Waseh, when we have good friday in Brunei, i don't see anything happen le~~~(at least not around me la)

And as usual, in Malaysia, there's no schools on Saturday and Sunday. But,buT,bUT,BUT... there's more. I heard that there's another occasion on next monday(24/3), so we'll have another holiday on that day too. Sart or not? 5 straight day holiday eh. Hmmm, so i'm not in the mood for studying yet. Go to school for three days after a 10 day holiday and another 5 day holiday comes by again. Mana ada mood? Why didn't i skip these three days' classes and went back to Brunei since the start of my last holiday ah? Sien.... just know about it today. And i must say, as always, my signal is considered fast and efficient.

Hmmm, i got a few of my papers back from my pre sem test today but i won't announce it first. Let's just say that things turned out alright for me.... Just alright.... Sigh, i'm staying back until the evening even for these three days of school. Haiz, what a busy life i lead. Bo pian, people who do big business like me are always busy one la~~~ hAhahaHaHA!! (ok, you can puke now)

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Friday, March 07, 2008

*Holiday*

It's holiday now and guess what? I don't have any homeworks! Erm.... not exactly though.... But i'm not doing it? Haha, going back to the lazy old self again right after pre semester test. I sort of have a very high on my biology, chemistry and maths 2. As for maths 1. I'm definitely flunked it.... Man! Big mistakes!!! And it was a very easy paper!!! People are so going to get 70 above while i have to be content with a 20. Argh!!! I'm so angry with myself! I was too confident so i only studied 10 minutes for maths 1.

I'm not usually good in maths but how could i had been so confident? It's matrices.... and should be very easy. But i messed up 3X3 matrices while the majority part of the scores come from.... Shang Xin... This is what i called stupidity. Taken aback by my own foolishness. I may as well dig a hole when i get that paper back to save myself from all the humiliation...

However, i'm quite confident in my maths 2. Cause i was able to do correctly a 14/50 mark question. Some people can't do it so i feel a bit proud la. Lol! I mean it's not everyday that you find me, Mr. KiSS says that he's expecting a high grade in a maths test. In case no one remembers, i failed every add maths test in all form 5. I managed to pass 2 in form 4 though... lol

Hmmm, went out with friends to eat sushi king today at the spring. Got very full until i can't eat dinner... And for Rm 31 . Hey, it's consider very cheap if you compared to Brunei. Don't know whether i can be full or not with B$20 or not.

Went to watch movie today after the sushi .. We were going to watch jumper but it had already shown at 2:30.(We got there at around 3:20) and who the hell say the movie starts at 3:30 arh? >.> But then they want to watch vantage point. And you know what? I, KiSS don't like no movies like these. Assassination movie with a cute and determined bodyguard. And some hot and pretty girl gets involved....blah,blah,blah. An TYPICAL movie. There's no originality already these days for action movies. Boring. I think the movie will end with either the assassin got his target and live freely after or the assassin was killed or captured. You want to read/ watch an action movie? I can also write one for you la. Here's an evidence to prove that i was right that it was gonna suck.

Anyhow, we didn't watch that movie. Cause i managed to convince them to watch this one instead. The Mist based on stephen king's book. If you don't know stephen king, erm... I'm speechless since even i know. Note that i don't like to read books....much. It's a VERY good movie!!! Must watch! All movie of my choice are always interesting de la~~~ coz i'm very interesting de ma *pukes* I rate it a 4/5. Why minus one? Because it made me very kek sim...

Well, anyway i'm off to enjoy my holidays. Tata~~

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Yours Truly KSS