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Tuesday, October 20, 2009

I'm 20! and this is the 100th post!!!

It's been like what, 4 years since i've started blogging? Hmmm, 25 posts per year, an avg of 2 post per month, not bad la. But still, I'll need to blog more, many people have already pass the 200 mark in less than 2 years. Can't blame me, i have no life. But actually, I'm just another lazy person. Doubt people still come here. I mean, some even thought this blog is already dead. Haha.

I'm 20 now.... GOSH! I feel soooo old liao!!! It feels like a truck just slam right into my face. I mean i'm 20 and i feel like i did nothing for the past 20 years. Yeah, i know i've turn 20 last 3 weeks liao. -.-"

10 Stuff I had not done in the past 20 years but should had:
1. I never worked even part time(but if you considered working for 1 day as working...)
2. I haven't learn how to drive (most of my friends does now! even LYY)
3. I never had a girlfriend before, or a boyfriend for that matter in case some day i discover i'm gay, haha
4. Never went into a club before
5. Had not get laid, HAHAHAHAHA
6. I'm still not 100% sure what I want in life, is this the course i really want?
7. I have not travelled out of South East Asia.
8. I never got dead drunk
9. Went on a real adventure such as climbing Mt Kinabalu, camping in a REAl jungle...etc
10. I still don't have a credit card but ho, i'm still asking money from parents le.... so erm.. optional la. But would be nice to have one ma... ;(

10 things I'm done which a 20 year old should:
1. I've smoked before (once before 10 anyway then never again)
2. I stay up for 24 hours straight.
3. I stay out of the house until after 3 in the morning at least
4. I went travelling with friends only. (Last year KL and this year, we're going sg!)
5. I watch movies meant for the adults (R rated)
6. I found my best friends.
7. I lived out of the house... being independent, doing housechores, etc,etc
8. I took care of doing official papers without any help. (I applied and settle everything in uni myself)
9. I stood up for myself.
10. I did things a responsible adult would do like calling my parents to tell them i'm ok after a flight, making calls/sms to people in case of change of plans, etc,etc. There are some stuff i won't do when i was younger. I try not to make my parents worry.

Let's see, how life in uni. Not bad lo. My results are quite good la. If i try a bit more harder for my finals, i think i have a chance in getting into the dean's list. Why would i suddenly become so kiasu and want to get into the so called 'cream of the crop' students? I just want to enter just once la, at least to make my resume in my future job application to look more prettier. Can add 'outstanding dean's list student le'! So why not? Plus, they say first year,first sem is the easiest semester to get into the list, of course i must try this sem.

I still sleep in class though. Haha, and very exaggerating one. I lay down on 3 seats and slept for the whole 2 hours. Hahaha. SART dao... And i really need to try presenting more and more lo. I really suck at presentations. Haiz...

Let's get on to some mushy stuff now. Being 20, I feel that I really am very lucky to be able to find friends who trusts me, loves me and are always there for me. You guys are really one of a kind(you know who you are!) and it seems very hard for me to find others like all of you wherever i may be. I mean, for lot of people in uni, I act alot. I don't show my true colours and am polite, patient, humble and generous and stuff.

I'm no angel that i can tell everyone but i'm only human. I don't do serious crimes or mistakes. I don't frame people for what they didn't do and I certainly did not betray the ones who are my true friends. I can be very tolerant to my very good to best friend. Look at that sampat la, even if he's so paranoid, sampat and critical, i'll stay by his side all the same la,haha. But seriously, trust is important to me in a relationship whether it's between families, friends and lovers. I just realized. No trust, no confidence then no will to continue the relationship.

Oh my god, since when did i become emotional de? Bah, stop here liao. update next time bah!

Labels: Feelings, Me, Perspective, Uni

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Friday, April 10, 2009

Changed perspectives?

Oh my, recently i just don't seem to be attracted by any looks. I mean naturally i supposed a lot of people(or most) are superficial about how looks are and i had even admitted before that I am very concerned how people are born to look like. I am kind of superficial in a way...

When i look at myself in the mirror...

I see a guy who looks alright. All my features are normal. To some point that i can actually be considered as someone handsome? Hahaha~~~! So paiseh to say like that also! *blushes*. I am not getting vain!Ok,maybe not but at least i look human.

Anyway, as i was saying, when i flipped through some youth gossip magazines my sisters bought, I see a bunch of normal good looking people who are actually stars! Case: I used to be VERY attracted to Jolin Tsai's looks. It's appealing to me really. Sexy and cute at the same time. Not too slutty, not too conservative. Just nice.

But, now she looks kinda old to me... in a magazine... she just looks like a normal person. I mean if she wasn't a star or anybody, i might take a second look at her if i pass by her on the street. But that's it. Life goes on.

Ok, some might say she IS getting older and that i might be getting sick of looking at her. Could happen. But could that happen to ALL the stars? There are also He Jun Xiang, Zheng Yuan Chang, Hebe, Lin Yi Cheng and even some of the DBSK members. All which i had admired their physical appearances or their charisma before. Now, those admiration went flush down the toilet.
I know I'm very addicted to Korean entertainment recently. But i don't find one star there which i would go WOW! That's one hot face. They are some appealing but up to the 'wow' level.
I came to the conclusion that there are 2 possibilties. One, my standard in looking at looks just upgraded, which is bad. I may as well live mywhole life alone. Two, I don't care much about looks anymore but rather it's the inside that counts. Oh boy....two extremes...

Kinda reminds me of how i shocked SPY about her weight being at the two extremes when her competition ends.
1. She gets fatter and bigger than before. Due to stress, she'll eat more than she normally do. Also, 95% of the other competitors are chopsticks so, if there's unfinished food, she might get the bigger portions.
2. She'll lose weight. Being put on diet by the people there and gets exercises learning hand gestures or even dance. Also, being surrounded by chopsticks, a sort of peer pressure to prompt her to lose weight will probably smack her right in the face!

AND VOTE FOR SPY on ASTRO!She's no. 15! I personally think she's actually the 2nd prettiest out of the girls(if i look from the individual photos)! Good enough! My sisters and I are keeping up with her competitors but we don't know how long we will last. It gets harder and harder. She's barely winning now thanks to us but the others will sure catch up.

I know the polls won't affect her chances for winning but who knows! It might act as something to show that she has a strong base of supporters. To boost her confidence! Plus, I am indeed kiasu also. Haha. My sister even got someone living in south korea to vote for SPY also. Haha. Cool ,right?

To end the post, one video!

BigBang ft. 2NE1 - Lollipop Mv (for a phone commercial)

Sorry,I couldn't resist the temptation ;)

Labels: Big Bang, Friends, Me, Perspective, Praise

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Saturday, April 26, 2008

Hectic and...?

Ok, i was lazy and so didn't blog for quite a while (one month?) It was such a hectic and damn tiring month for me. Never seem to have enough sleep and rest. My eyes got smaller and my 'hei yuan quan' has gotten deeper and wider due to lack of sleep. (btw, what's english for hei yuan quan?) Pardon my poor english now. Form six here is definitely damn torturing.

We're having weekly tests nowadays. -.-" The teachers just have to give us the short quizzes and tests so that we can study. I mean it's good la considering that will definitely motivate me to study earlier before the 1st semester test. But what's annoying is that my stupid bio teacher expect us to have time to study, read the reference, do homeworks and read newspaper. Sounds like no problem. But when you have to stay back at school for four days a week for extra classes, duties and group study(after the extra class and a free tuesday), where do you have time for that? What?! Aren't we human?!!? Stupid B!@tch!!! We need at least a bit of time for something to release our stress called leisure! What the heck? You want us to go over the bend issit?

And somehow, I think she think we have so much time that instead of doing our work, we're wasting it off! We don't! We also have our responsibilities and need some personal time off!
I mean, teenage life is a hard phase of life we're going through so STOP assuming everything, you ******! Stop saying what we should have done, what we should do next! You don't have control over our life you control freak!

Sigh.... My forehead is still a grand canyon, sprouting out new geysers( at the average of 3) everyday. Can see my stress or not? In form 5, when i don't have much stress, i won't have much pimples anyway but now... sigh... Man, say stfu also kena condemn. My class is just full of 'polite' people and nerds. To me, polite people something makes me feel that they're so fake. Not sure la, that's just me. Scary also, i like to be around real people which the human nature to joke and stuff, not some future good employees (people who can rarely savour financial success due to lack of creativity and ideas).

So sien one.... I mean, it's like you won't break any traditions and just follow the the cycle which bourgeoisies have install for you. Just study, work, marry, give birth, retire and die. Why can i have like travel around the world or get rich or have fun for 10 more years in that list?
For nerds, ok la. I'm saying this because i've become a nerd and thus will try not to laugh at them. XP

We'll be practicing our dissection on mice on tuesday and i think it ain't gonna be pretty. See? Have to stay back also. What's more, we have short tests: maths 1 on monday(which i'm definitely going to flunk), pa on wednesday and friday(very long so have to split into half). Luckily thursday is labour day so won't have to go to school otherwise, they'll be a test as well. Test for whole week lagi.... Haven even go through that week and is already feeling the pressure. I'll definitely take the pics of my dissection experiment ;)

OOOoo, btw, my dad came by just last saturday. ;)

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Wednesday, December 12, 2007

I may not know it but i understand

Wah, my first post after a long time of inactivity on the blog scene. My excuses this time? Erm... let's see, nothing interesting happened. Well, not that my life had been a roller coaster ride. But i seem to have an inspiration to blog right now. Strange, i thought i lost that when i went to kuching. I'm searching for a new skin for my blog now... So leave a comment in case i do change it. Maybe i should make one myself! ...................errr ok... comp idiot here, i'll stop embarrassing myself now -.-"

Well, food for thought first. Have you ever wondered what will we be like in the future? Your high school friends, your bff.... your ex maybe? Ok, i have no ex so cut me some slack. Imagine, one day when you were picking your daughter/son from school in maybe America?(who knows that you might migrate there). Then a horny,bitchy bitch honked at you because she couldn't get pass your car although you think there were enough space to pass. So, you raise your middle finger to her and say 'fuck you!'. LOL!!! She came out of her car and asks you to pull down your window where you both realized almost immediately that you were high school friends back in the days.

Lol. Now that's would be an awkward scenario,wouldn't it? Let's add some more spice into the scenario. You see that she's pregnant and suddenly a kid runs towards her yelling mommy! Wow, some shock. How about we replace that friend with your ex who you dumped? And what's worse, your wife. Awkward~~~

But nah, it wouldn't be awkward for me. I mean if it's my friend(Eteng, Chiayee,Mayan....etc) then i have perfectly no reason to be awkward let alone embarrassed by my finger pointing act. LOLx! We would laugh about it, i'm sure :p Why? Because i have never been too polite to them(but not too rude either,mind you) to begin with. They know my style and since we're true friends, they would have expect and accepted the way i acted. What i want to prove here is that friends accept the way you are and won't change you if your personality is not that bad. I mean if you have the tendency of doing over unacceptable things, true friends will change you and guide you in telling you what's wrong with you. No, they wouldn't laugh at you or at least deep down inside them. And if you can't accept the criticism or the embarrassment that they have thrown at you, then i'll say you're such a nice 'true' friend you are yourself.

I mean if you can't forgive them for something they did wrong to you, then how can they forgive you if you did wrong to them. True friends are about forgiveness. If you are causing great distress for your true friends(or so you thought they're true) then what kind of friends you are. Of course this only apply to friends who had been with you through thick and thin.

I want to say STOP dreaming for those who has ever been complaining and whining about friendship problems, blah,blah,blah~~~ Friends are not perfect, even true friends and bff. Your friends are won't be there every time you get into deep shit. They would like to but they can't. It's the heart that's count. I mean even if your bff can't be with you when you're in deep shit, they'll still be worry about you, and wonder how things turned out. You might not know it but if your friendship holds true, then it's certainly is that way.(if they knew about it)

Face it, your true friends are not made to be a perfect companion for you. They still have flaws you have to learn to accept. Your life is definitely not like those novels or movies! Yeah right, as if 'may death do us apart' kind of friends is really that easy to find in real life. Lower your expectations! On them and yourself. You all expect too much! I did once but now that i've accepted the fact, it's great! i have great and true friends and i'm positive about it! Although not many but it's enough to last me a hell of a lifetime.

I'm not some over egotistic self proclaimed social butterfly who has always think that they have sooo many friends and many more of that would want to be their friend. To tell the truth, i have not many friends. Heck quality beats quantity as i always have believe. Are you sure that you so called friends wouldn't back stab you when you turn around? How about when you're in deep shit? will they help you? They might be drop another kick at you while you're at it.

Ok, this next statement might seem harsh although i do drag social situations. Some people around me, i never consider them as friends. Seriously. You can feel it when I'm with them and it's a bit obvious. I considered them as just acquaintances, people i know. The people i'll greet when i meet them(or not) but not saying anything more than that. Maybe a few more topics on common stuff but that's all. It's not like i'm going to pass on some hot juicy gossip about who just came out in the open to someone i don't familiar with,someone i don't quite trust(you have to earn trust). I may look like a 'big mouth gossiper' but that's only around some people. Hey, what's life without some juicy gossip to spice up your life?

Jeff, if you're reading this, then let me tell you. You are VERY shitty at times!!! LOL!!! You're sometimes too judgmental but, never mind. I have accepted it. The point i'm trying to prove here is that i don't talk behind my true friends' back. I tell them in the face! LOL! And yet, does that break the friendship? No! If it does then it's not true to begin with.

My last words, don't expect too much, this hurt both sides of a budding friendship. Well, hope this post will entertain you guys. Well, at least some of you XD

PS. True friendship doesn't need advertising! You don't need it out loud even for that friend. No reminder and no regrets! It's a you know i know thingy...;p

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Thursday, August 30, 2007

I'm becoming worse.

Sigh...... i feel like an old man these days and think maybe i should retire or something.... I'm just too tired to do anything except watching movies and not moving entirely until the movie ends. The point here is, I'm getting lazier and lazier..... O.O" how can a person like me get lazier and lazier when i am already a lazy person? Well, it's worse now.... even i get the feeling that I'm being too*10000 lazy.

Failed every single tests here.....Not that I'm the only one failing but everyone, failed as well in maths paper 2 and chemistry. Only some people passed maths paper 1.... We haven't gotten our bio back but the teacher had already told us that it was disastrous. I know i failed that one too and so is P.A(Pengajian Am, the compulsory Malay subject that we needed to take...) Heard that the highest is only 12.5 out of 25..... So pass is the highest. I know i failed because:
1. I didn't finish my conclusion
2. I only wrote about 200plus words in which the requirement is between 300 to 350....

I'm just getting slower and slower.....like getting old.... Though i don't expect my self to pass but i also didn't expect myself to fail so miserably... So terrible, it's even worse than when i was in form 5. Depressed? Definitely. Suicidal thought? Unless it's the end of earth.

Planned to go out to Santubong, a place with thick forest as well as a nice beach to catch insects for our group project with my group. We're doing preservations of the insects as well as plants. Due date is three weeks later but it's not enough(for the plants). We need to catch insects! Things that i don't usually touch or even dare to share the same space with. Sigh...... It was suppose to be tomorrow but it was postponed to Saturday....

Now the end of all these shits.

I GOT A NEW LAPTOP LAST SUNDAY!!!! Congrats me and it's great! Web cam is infused into the laptop already!!! All for RM1999! With space of 120GB HDD, DVD player and a digital surround system which comes with it(the catalogue say one la). It's definitely worth it. Did i mention it's ACER? Well, it's my prize possession now. Treasured it really, really much.

That's it. That's the only thing i feel happy about these days....

I'm thinking of taking IELTS. aka The International English Language Test System. I mean with my ability, I'm confident that i won't fail it.....yet, not getting a good results either... Heard that it's really hard but they holding it once a month if i'm not wrong. The catch is.... it cost a bloody 500+ ringgit to take a test like that. don't have that much money... don't wanna waste money unless I'm absolutely confident about taking that test.(which i don't think I'll ever will.....) Oh well, at least it's an internationally recognized test.

I want to learn to drive but i don't think i can with my current schedule..... Sigh.... Life is hard....

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Saturday, July 07, 2007

Fate decides it all.And It wants to torture me!!!

Bah, it had been decided that i'll be studying in Kuching permanently...Studying Sciences, the subjects that I dread so much, the subjects that i vowed never to take again. Sigh, if arts subjects were in English that would be a different story but no..... they have to use malay to teach it. Will begin my search for any nearby tuition for Chem and Maths. Luckily, heard that tuitions are cheap in Malaysia when compared to Brunei.

Decided to join the English club, The Red Crescent Society and ummm, for sports, i might take up bowling or badminton or any other 'easy' sports. Just have to go to the Red crescent for like 18 times a year and the other two clubs for 12 times. Should be easy. But i did take another extra co-curricular activities to gain more marks for my report. Librarian. Heard that it's one of the easiest way to gain more marks,so i just took it. Should be nothing except that i'll be going there every Wednesday.

Currently trying to patch all of flyff's files and it's taking so damn long!!! Why can't they put it with the downloads? Been patching for like 2 hours and it seems like an endless task! But what to do? Have to find something to entertain me until i get back to Brunei for the holidays on 18th Aug. Should be around that date BUT!!! I heard that everyone will be having their tests and exams around that date too!!! Drat! If i miss that chance to go out with them, then i have to wait around until December! Hmmmm, must plan AEAP.

My life is currently as boring as hell! Though the relatives i'm staying with are all swell and good people, they have their own life too, you know....So like i'll be sticking around the house with no one and if i go crazy one day, it has to be because i've been in the house for too long. Hmmm, seems like all i'm doing in my blog is complain,complain and complain which i love to so much. Am wondering what happening in Brunei... There might be a news/rumour so big that i don't even know. Sigh....makes me feel so detached from Brunei... please, someone, keep me updated with the rumours. I can't live without them.

There are a few good things in Kuching that i have to say:
1. The food!!! OMG!!! Everywhere you go, there're bound to be all sort of food! Hmmm, might be the food heaven on Borneo Island. If i keep what i had been doing this entire week, you might see fatty siang the next time i go back.

2. My dad agreed that i could buy a new laptop here if it's cheap.... Hmmm, since i have more freedom now than ever, I might as well buy a PS2 while I at it. Heard that it's around Rm 700
here so, i should be able to buy it. But.....Where can i get a tv? There's only one in the house and it isn't mine...Well, i'll see first, maybe i'll buy a new phone too, Haha~~~ Daydreaming~~

3. Jeff suggested that maybe i should go buy lots of stuff to make up for my mental needs. Errr, he's trying to convert me into a 'Bai jia' person like him, but he does have a point. I mean, if there's nice clothes here, i'll just buy them and use the excuse that i'm buying it for the Chinese New Year,haha!! There's one catch though.....The fashion they sell in Kuching tend to be a little more outdated than other parts of the island like Miri. Hmmm, i'll just pick stuff i like. Haha, if i find it unattractive after buying it, I'll just give it to ppl when i get back to Brunei! HAHA~~~

Oh yeah, no one knows it but i've cut my hair the day before i left Brunei. Well, somehow, it look like the style middle aged men loves to cut when i wake up late in the morning err...afternoon. Wash it and it instantly becomes more stylish. Maybe i should post my current photos of my current hair..... Nah, don't want to give anyone a chance to laugh at my pathetic face.

And there's one thing..... the dogs outside tend to howl every night from a specific hour but until a specific time, they all stopped howling all together. Feels creepy especially in the middle of the night. Everything is sooo silent. Escpecially when all the noises disappear together at the exact same time. And i thought that time just stop... And i just felt weird... I can't really describe it but feels like i'm being watched by many eyes but there isn't really anyone there....Hmmm, my mental health must be getting worse... might even be getting deaf.

Anyway, thanks to some people, i've made it through the first week in Kuching with only little emotional difficulties.
Thanks for:
Sze yee: For calling me as frequently as she could. Even finish her credits just for me though it was gonna be finish anyway -_-"
May yan: Messaging me. At least eventhough she had not been in Brunei, she still offer me emotional supports! Hmph, unlike some other ppl.
Eteng: She's the only one who actually showed some care. Heard from my sis that she called my house to know my number.
Jeff: Aiya, i know you're a cheap guy,so i didn't really expect you would call me. Bleh! But still, at least you are still aware that i'm still alive somewhere and not dead yet unlike some others!

As for others, thanks for letting me to pour all my grievances t0 you on MSN. You know who you are~~~Seriously, unlike some other ppl, yuck! You only know who your true friends are when you've having trouble.

By the way, my number is 0168939737. There, if anyone who still does know my numbers will get a piece of my mind when i go back. Do not give me any excuse! Hmph~~~

You Are 28% Shy

You are slightly shy, but overall, your reactions to social situations are normal.
You dread difficult social situations, but you still handle them with grace.

How Shy Are You?

Labels: Acquaintance, Crossroads, Events, Life, Me

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Tuesday, July 03, 2007

Bright but dangerous. Dark but safe.

First post from Kuching. Had been in a bad mood.... It's quite tiring and frustrating. Ok,the day i left i was very emotional. I don't know, maybe i just flipped or something. Was not really mentally prepare to leave. Who would when you only know that you're gonna leave your family and friends four days before you're leaving. Was as shock as anyone.

Oh well, i guess it'll be good for me? Miss my parents!!! T.T
I guess i might get use to it soon? I hope so..... I mean i'll leave them sooner or later but..... I DON'T WANT IT TO BE THIS SOON!!! Sigh.....On a side note: Be grateful you still have our parents around.

First day in Kuching: Well, got up quite early. Went to school and it seems that an academic officer was expecting me. Well, she knew i wanted art and ask whether i want to study in an account class or bahasa melayu. Errrr, dumb question for me, of course i'm choosing Account. And when i got into class, it was......not as i expected. You know, they said that Green Road Secondary School(GRSS)<----- [kinda look like grass......grass school?] is among the best school in Kuching. I was expecting sophisticated, brilliant and interesting minds, not the opposite...... Sigh, art class student are ummmm......artistic? And after a few periods i was dumbfounded...... I was expecting english medium but turns out that they use english in science stream and malay in art. So, how? Don't understand bo.....plus, the class was crowded. With about 30 to 40 ppl.

Day 2: Errr, a weird thing happened. You see, the seniors there( form 4,5 and 6) are all in the morning class and need to wear tie. And so, i went in without a tie since i haven't bought it the previous day. Kinda forgot about it. So ummmm, one of the 'pengawas'(prefect) there stopped me at the gate.

Pegawas: Eh?! Are you in the afternoon class or what? Why come so early?
Me: Errrr, I'm in the morning class......
Pengawas: !!!...... Then, why no tie?!?!
Me: Ummmm, I just transferred here yesterday.......
Pengawas: OHHH!!! Ummmm, well....be sure to take a tie.
*Other pengawas about 20 in line were looking at us the whole time.*
All the pengawas and the one who talked to me(who apparently looks like the head): WELCOME!!!
-_-"'

So now i look like a form 1 to form 3 student. HOW NICE......! *notice my sarcastic tone*
Mei Li Mao!!! Some of them are even younger than me.......and they looked at me with those shocked looks! And i'm suppose to be the senior...Sigh.... what to do? I look young ma.....Dunno whether i should be happy or sad.

I have something to announce..... I'M TAKING SCIENCE T.T..... Chem,maths,english, pelajaran am and the last....(bio or physics?).... I choose bio la. I don't need another subjects with lots and lots of calculations...... It's in english ba,that's why lo. By the way, I'm beginning to like chem....haha, the teacher was VERY NICE!!! Well, now i need to catch up a month's worth of work. Well, at least my new classmate are more friendlier and more what i expected. And guess what, there's only 15 ppl in the science one class and only 5 are boys.

Found out that i need to join a minimum of two clubs(or three)!!! Three categories: Uniformed clubs(cadet, prefect and such), Sports(!!!, Hey, i don't play sports one!!!) and ummm normal club(i dunno la, don't know what they have, i'll go see tomorrow....) Well.....I MISS EVERYONE!!! T.T

This world is sooo cruel.......Might have to go tuition for maths and chem.....

Your Inner Child Is Scared

Like a kid, you tend to shy away from new experiences.
You prefer what's tried and true - novelty is scary!
New foods, new places, and new friends are difficult for you to deal with.
Some say you're predictable, but you enjoy being comfortable.

How Is Your Inner Child?

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Sunday, May 27, 2007

Random Stuff

Sleep at 2am yesterday and woke up at 3pm!!! Wooooooo! Refreshing,no doubt. Let see,if my maths is still fine, I say that i've slept 14 hours! Yes,as expected from the self renowned sleeping club prez. A title i got from Cikgu Yahya if i'm not mistaken. But, that is not my record! It would be too short to be called a record. From what i remember all my life, my record time for sleeping is 17 hours! I am not call the prez for nothing! Hmpf.

Actually spent the night before watching the movie '28 weeks'. Yes, i might be too slow but who cares, it's not like it's the must see movie such as spiderman 3 or Pirates of the Carribean: At world's end. Damn that movie, have an urge to throw up. Oh,please don't misunderstand that i thought it was too bloody and disgusting that made me want to puke, it's the way the scenes are spinning around,trying to make the movie seem somewhat chaotic.

I have to rate the movie 2 out of 10. Stupid! It's very illogical and not even scary at all! I don't even find the scenes disgusting or whatsoever. Well, i have to say to the director of the '28 weeks' movie, 'Nice try but it's lame'. Don't even find any suspense or tension in the movie. Very predictable too and i could have make that movie myself. Hmmmm, must be some kind of low bugget/quality movie to scam people out of their hard to earn money. However,it does provide some thoughts to chew on,that's why it got a 2.

Firstly, if that kind of stuff happens in real life, what would you do? Obviously, the first thought that comes into the mind is that 'Nah, it'll never happen. It's just some wacky screen writer wanting to make some extra buck'. I think that's the problem with humans, they'll never think of the possiblity that it could actually happen.Me included of course. I mean,just because it never happened before doesn't mean it wouldn't,right? Ok, maybe everyone getting a virus transforming into some disgusting,bloody man eating kind of fast running zombie wouldn't exactly happen(exaggerating) but there could be some other chaos just waiting to burst out all of the sudden,right? What if there's some secret cults to erase all humanity had formed somewhere? Can we handle the surprise?

Oh well, i've have some thought to that and if that sort of things ever happen, i'll kill to stay alive, to survive. And if i could not fight it, if i ever get bitten,i'll try to kill myself first before turning into one of them. Hmmmm, hope they eat up my body after that so that no one can see my grosteque body. Well, at least i try.

Enough of these craps.........

I'll show you guys an example of how business companies take every opportunity there is to get money.

See that?
Bought it from Hua Ho Maggis Mall if you can see the tag.
Pardon the low quality photo.......
It's saying 'Have a lucky Break for your exam,have a kit kat'
Sigh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Since schools all over are now having exams, this would sell,i think. Good opportunists, that's why they've survive for some long. When i first saw it, my reaction was 'Wakau, this CAN'T be a coincidence.'

Well, i wonder why so took a peek at the back,it said: A hit in Japan! Kit Kat is taking Japan by storm and for a really cool reason too. The name of this delectable chocolate sounds like 'Kitto Katsu',which means "sure-win". And it has become the exam season buzz phrase used by Japanese students to wish each other good luck before taking their papers. Now it's your turn to do the same for your classmates and friends.With a delicious bar of kit kat,of course! Ok, seriously,since i've never miss their limited edition stuff,i've bought one. Plus, my sis's taking her mid year.....

Flashback: MMmmmmm,delicious, mouth watering dark chocolate kit kat~~~~~
Well, for more info: go on to their web here

Mentioned in my last post that i would post a short R rated story but i changed my mind. Reason: Maybe too dirty to handle and i might get a bad reputation out of this. Take this line for example: With his strong arms ,he held his partner tightly around his arms. Instantly, as if his partner had read his mind, tilted forward to meet his incoming,passionate lips. Then, he knew that the one now in his arm felt the same way he did. Like a bad pirated Dvd showing, their movement froze as if the scene got stuck. They feel each other's tongue in their mouth, savouring it. Their eyes close to enjoy the taste they both had long for........The taste of truth.

You DO NOT want to see the rest of it. No way. Gosh, that African novel must have really got into me. Aiye~~~~ I'm turning a bit yellow minded. If i continue, my blog might get ban for illicit contents. Well, that's long post. Have a feeling that i'll be lazy blogging.....

Your Hidden Talent

You have the power to persuade and influence others.
You're the type of person who can turn a whole room around.
The potential for great leadership is there, as long as you don't abuse it.
Always remember, you have a lot more power over people than you might think!

What's Your Hidden Talent?

If i ever influence anyone, plz do tell.

Labels: Criticism, Me, Movies, Praise, w/e

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Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Sickness in my heart and soul

I am going out of my mind. Yes, this will also be one of my 'i should had thought about the consequences before i acted' post. It happened yesterday and had been quite bothering me ever since. Ok, it was in EAS class and we were discussing about persuasive text/debate we had. Ok, Dr. Sunil(not really a medical doctor) was talking back on how we all had done well and went to the topic of............. you guess it,Love vs Money. He was making some statement about people with an high capita in one country having many worries.....etc. Naturally, as someone who has an immerse instinct to debate.............rebuke him.........Yes, you did not hear me wrong,i rebuked the teacher.

Well, after a brief exchange of arguements.....he said that i don't get the point. What???!!! I'm perfectly sure that i understood what he said. Well, i kept quiet then although i could rebuke him. In the end, the class progress normally. That's not the point, i just thought it was a harmless debate and lo and behold, one of my Eng Lit classmate who is also in my EAS and history, told me that she feels that sir was going against me or something. Of course she supported my points as she feels that they were good points but she found that sir was a bit annoyed by me. Instantly, my normal, lame mood suddenly turns bitter. Got depressed and couldn't really get it off my mind even until now.

Oh heavens, why did thee not give me any sign of dejavu? What did thee just watched in silent as if it were a drama in thy TV? And i've just made a bad impression on a History teacher(not mine though) before that scene happened.

Oh well, other thing is..... BANZAI!!! Yesh! It's the latest trend! It can be used as any words you like even as a swear word. I.e: A brick fell on your one of your foot and it can be used in 'Oh my BANZAI foot!' Ahahahaha~~~~ Man, i am getting REALLY lame.

And thanks to Eteng, the song 'Thanks for the memories' by Fall Out Boy is officially on my Disaster Box( even if i don't favourite that other song of theirs). And their MV for the song, weird but creative and hillarious. Well, watch it and you'll know what i mean.

I feel that the song's a bit gay. I mean they are a boy band right? Then what's with line in their lyrics about '.....He taste like you,only sweeter.....'??? Sounds gay to me. Oh and i have a great idea of a story that i'll be writing in the blog. Well, it's gonna be totally different from all those normal and unoriginal stories. It's gonna be a R-rated one,buahahahaha!!!! I think i would post it on my next post so if you're under 18.......ok,17, then you can't read it! This MEANS Wei Hon!!! Ahahahaha..... Well, here's a bit of idea; i got my inspiration from a book we're reading in EngLit and well, you DO NOT want to imagine what the contents are.

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
You're open to new people and friends, which makes you a pretty popular person.
Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down.

How Do You Live Your Life?

Labels: Banzai, Me, Skool, Songs

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Sunday, March 11, 2007

Whatever

Got tagged a few weeks ago and i think it'll be a bit rude if i don't post it~~~

â€œEach player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names.â€

1. I have to go pee either before or after i bath usually. It's a must for me.

2. If i eat or drink in the early morning,i'll either puke or have to answer nature's call. So, i tend not to eat or drink before school. Very troublesome.(Quite normal kua)

3. When i'm doing my business in the W.C, i need to find some other things to do like reading something or playing with the toilet roll. (I don't think it's weird)

4. I can't waste a single bit of good food even if i'm bloated. I have to eat it all up even if i puke. Also don't like to see other people waste good food and if you're really close enough with me,eg.my family,Jeff....etc and if you can't finish your good food,i'll be willing to finish it off for ya if you ask although i may complain.(Sometimes i may reject cause i'm full or not up to it bcoz i've finished mine) A bit disgusting but i think i'm practicing good moral. All thanks to my mom.

5. I like to complain......a lot.(Who doesn't). I can complain and bad mouth a stranger with my friend next to me saying stuff like he has no class or something......when that stranger does something wrong such as littering or spitting.

6. I hate it when i talk and people don't listen with any attention. I think it is very rude to do that. I mean when you guys talk,i'll listen with all my heart and yet when i talk, your mind will float away,thinking other stuff or you just talk about your own stuff not listening. It's not respecting the speaker! I like people to respect me so i tend to respect others first.

Beware! You might somehow step on my fox's tail without knowing it.

Other than this tagging thing, there's only some other boring stuff too. If you want, you can stop reading now.

Got my first book(Hurrah......) on Thursday from Sociology. Thicker than a dictionary and as big as a phone directory. I also finally receive a homework which i can't simply pour my ideas and creativity to it. Today, i cut my hair. Well, that's all.

Your Power Color Is Red-Orange

At Your Highest:

You are warm, sensitive, and focused on your personal growth.

At Your Lowest:

You become defensive and critical if you feel attacked.

In Love:

You are loyal - but you demand the respect you deserve.

How You're Attractive:

You are very affectionate and inspire trust.

Your Eternal Question:

"Am I Respected?"

What's Your Power Color?

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Yours Truly KSS