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Saturday, April 26, 2008

Hectic and...?

Ok, i was lazy and so didn't blog for quite a while (one month?) It was such a hectic and damn tiring month for me. Never seem to have enough sleep and rest. My eyes got smaller and my 'hei yuan quan' has gotten deeper and wider due to lack of sleep. (btw, what's english for hei yuan quan?) Pardon my poor english now. Form six here is definitely damn torturing.

We're having weekly tests nowadays. -.-" The teachers just have to give us the short quizzes and tests so that we can study. I mean it's good la considering that will definitely motivate me to study earlier before the 1st semester test. But what's annoying is that my stupid bio teacher expect us to have time to study, read the reference, do homeworks and read newspaper. Sounds like no problem. But when you have to stay back at school for four days a week for extra classes, duties and group study(after the extra class and a free tuesday), where do you have time for that? What?! Aren't we human?!!? Stupid B!@tch!!! We need at least a bit of time for something to release our stress called leisure! What the heck? You want us to go over the bend issit?

And somehow, I think she think we have so much time that instead of doing our work, we're wasting it off! We don't! We also have our responsibilities and need some personal time off!
I mean, teenage life is a hard phase of life we're going through so STOP assuming everything, you ******! Stop saying what we should have done, what we should do next! You don't have control over our life you control freak!

Sigh.... My forehead is still a grand canyon, sprouting out new geysers( at the average of 3) everyday. Can see my stress or not? In form 5, when i don't have much stress, i won't have much pimples anyway but now... sigh... Man, say stfu also kena condemn. My class is just full of 'polite' people and nerds. To me, polite people something makes me feel that they're so fake. Not sure la, that's just me. Scary also, i like to be around real people which the human nature to joke and stuff, not some future good employees (people who can rarely savour financial success due to lack of creativity and ideas).

So sien one.... I mean, it's like you won't break any traditions and just follow the the cycle which bourgeoisies have install for you. Just study, work, marry, give birth, retire and die. Why can i have like travel around the world or get rich or have fun for 10 more years in that list?
For nerds, ok la. I'm saying this because i've become a nerd and thus will try not to laugh at them. XP

We'll be practicing our dissection on mice on tuesday and i think it ain't gonna be pretty. See? Have to stay back also. What's more, we have short tests: maths 1 on monday(which i'm definitely going to flunk), pa on wednesday and friday(very long so have to split into half). Luckily thursday is labour day so won't have to go to school otherwise, they'll be a test as well. Test for whole week lagi.... Haven even go through that week and is already feeling the pressure. I'll definitely take the pics of my dissection experiment ;)

OOOoo, btw, my dad came by just last saturday. ;)

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Tuesday, July 03, 2007

Bright but dangerous. Dark but safe.

First post from Kuching. Had been in a bad mood.... It's quite tiring and frustrating. Ok,the day i left i was very emotional. I don't know, maybe i just flipped or something. Was not really mentally prepare to leave. Who would when you only know that you're gonna leave your family and friends four days before you're leaving. Was as shock as anyone.

Oh well, i guess it'll be good for me? Miss my parents!!! T.T
I guess i might get use to it soon? I hope so..... I mean i'll leave them sooner or later but..... I DON'T WANT IT TO BE THIS SOON!!! Sigh.....On a side note: Be grateful you still have our parents around.

First day in Kuching: Well, got up quite early. Went to school and it seems that an academic officer was expecting me. Well, she knew i wanted art and ask whether i want to study in an account class or bahasa melayu. Errrr, dumb question for me, of course i'm choosing Account. And when i got into class, it was......not as i expected. You know, they said that Green Road Secondary School(GRSS)<----- [kinda look like grass......grass school?] is among the best school in Kuching. I was expecting sophisticated, brilliant and interesting minds, not the opposite...... Sigh, art class student are ummmm......artistic? And after a few periods i was dumbfounded...... I was expecting english medium but turns out that they use english in science stream and malay in art. So, how? Don't understand bo.....plus, the class was crowded. With about 30 to 40 ppl.

Day 2: Errr, a weird thing happened. You see, the seniors there( form 4,5 and 6) are all in the morning class and need to wear tie. And so, i went in without a tie since i haven't bought it the previous day. Kinda forgot about it. So ummmm, one of the 'pengawas'(prefect) there stopped me at the gate.

Pegawas: Eh?! Are you in the afternoon class or what? Why come so early?
Me: Errrr, I'm in the morning class......
Pengawas: !!!...... Then, why no tie?!?!
Me: Ummmm, I just transferred here yesterday.......
Pengawas: OHHH!!! Ummmm, well....be sure to take a tie.
*Other pengawas about 20 in line were looking at us the whole time.*
All the pengawas and the one who talked to me(who apparently looks like the head): WELCOME!!!
-_-"'

So now i look like a form 1 to form 3 student. HOW NICE......! *notice my sarcastic tone*
Mei Li Mao!!! Some of them are even younger than me.......and they looked at me with those shocked looks! And i'm suppose to be the senior...Sigh.... what to do? I look young ma.....Dunno whether i should be happy or sad.

I have something to announce..... I'M TAKING SCIENCE T.T..... Chem,maths,english, pelajaran am and the last....(bio or physics?).... I choose bio la. I don't need another subjects with lots and lots of calculations...... It's in english ba,that's why lo. By the way, I'm beginning to like chem....haha, the teacher was VERY NICE!!! Well, now i need to catch up a month's worth of work. Well, at least my new classmate are more friendlier and more what i expected. And guess what, there's only 15 ppl in the science one class and only 5 are boys.

Found out that i need to join a minimum of two clubs(or three)!!! Three categories: Uniformed clubs(cadet, prefect and such), Sports(!!!, Hey, i don't play sports one!!!) and ummm normal club(i dunno la, don't know what they have, i'll go see tomorrow....) Well.....I MISS EVERYONE!!! T.T

This world is sooo cruel.......Might have to go tuition for maths and chem.....

Your Inner Child Is Scared

Like a kid, you tend to shy away from new experiences.
You prefer what's tried and true - novelty is scary!
New foods, new places, and new friends are difficult for you to deal with.
Some say you're predictable, but you enjoy being comfortable.

How Is Your Inner Child?

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Yours Truly KSS

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