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Saturday, May 30, 2009

My new house!

Tomorrow's... i mean today's going to be a busy busy day... WE'RE MOVING!!!
But sad to say i won't be having any internet connection for a week or 2... Haiz.... How am i suppose to live my boring life without it? I've stocked GAMES!!! I've got around 15 of them just waiting for me to install and play them XD

But ho, i'll be going back to Kuching from 12th till 15th. No computer for 3 DAYS!!! Haiz.... Although i'm still happy to go back. Can meet ALMOST all my relatives ;) (Note: not close with SOME relatives but generally we're all a happy bunch except a few outcast XP

Right, sorry for nagging. PHOTOS!!!
Pardon the low quality photos.
Although our house may not be as exagerratingly beautiful as our neighbours: pic below, it still is quite pretty. Didn't manage a photo of my house outside though... but it'll about the same as my neighbors. Their house were brighter. haha

And here's the front outlook of my house.Still not entirely complete though..

The living room

ANd there's 2 part for the kitchen. Weird. The 'dry' kitchen and the 'wet' kitchen. The dry one first. Spot my beautiful mother in pink in the wet kitchen.

And up the stairs we go.

And we end up in a small den. Don't mind the boxes. We've moved the stuff little by little but can't unpack yet. No furniture yet.

My room!

Open sesame!

And lastly, MY BATHROOM!.... ok, going to share with my other 2 sisters... Have two doors and both our rooms have access to it so have to lock both door when going in... HAHA. I just like the mirror.

Well, that's all. Hope our furniture won't spoil it when we move in.

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Thursday, May 28, 2009

Please forget... pleaaasssseeeee

Went out twice with May Yan before she left for KL. But the thing is, someone saw mw when we were at the Mall. NOOOOOOOOO~~~!! It was Sheeling. And she asked me when did i come back? HAHAHAHAHA!!!Ok, fine. I know i'm being a LITTLE anti social since i'm been in Brunei. But ho, since i have no jobs, no contribution and no income, a guy has to do whatever it takes to save or at least be more thrifty,right?

I'm becoming a hermit i know. It's recently that i found out that i can live for months without a friend to talk to. Ok, with occasional calls from Mayan but that was it. It just doesn't bug me than it does to some other people. Some people says one thing and does the other. Not me, I have already accepted the fact that I am not popular and have few friends. Ok, fine maybe not a few friends. I have quite a number of them actually(more than 10). Haha. But ho, i don't try to take any opporturnity i get to socialize. I don't know why. I prefer to be in my room and look at my dearest beautiful lappie.

Alright, video and introduction.

First up, there's this korean guy in youtube. Really talented. Searched for yoonha85 in youtube and you'll come across a guy playing a piano. A pianist he is. What makes him so special is that he does NOT need music sheets to play pop songs. Yes, he improvise pop songs just by listening. No sheet needed. Some of the improvisation songs i liked are 2NE1's FIRE, BB ft 2NE1's Lollipop, BB's Haruharu, Wondergirls' Nobody and Slumdog millionaire's Jai ho. Lots more to list out.

Currently listening to mostly kpop except for Listen to your heart - Roxette, Dead and gone - T.I and JT(like JT's part only), pokerface - lady gaga and Broken Strings - James Morrison ft Nelly Furtado.

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Monday, May 18, 2009

Swoosh~~~!

So fast, it feels like it was just last week that i updated my blog and now it's been half a month! I thought i'll be really active one now le. Blogging now just for the sake of maintaining my sanity. No, i'm not going crazy, but you'll never know when there would be the day when your mind suddenly goes 'click'.

I've been listening to more korean ballads recently than korean mainstream pop. Watch some kdrama here and there. Finished a 2004 kdrama called Gumiho aka Tales of the Nine tailed fox on youtube. I'm now onto another kdrama called witch yoo hee on youtube as well. It's a bit bland but getting interesting.

I'm moving to a new house soon around this week or next depending on whether, some additional construction is needed to make more space for the house. But ho, if i'm going to go study in Msia soon, it means that i'll be staying in MY OWN room for like a month only. Well, not an old news that i'm getting my own room since i'm the eldest son! XP Still, my sisters are damn happy that they're sharing a room between the two of them instead of sharing the same room with the workers. And when i'm going to study in other places, SOMEONE is going to move into my room cough*elder*sister*cough

Currently listening to some songs by SG wannabe, korean group which used to be popular. It's ok now but the music they produced now are not as appealing as it used to be. I really love their mvs because it's like a mini drama and it's just well explained. There's always part 1 and part 2 for their mvs. One of my favorite's this one.

and the part 2 with a different song.

Try their debut song too, Timeless. Love the song.

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Tuesday, March 03, 2009

Bo sim.

Wow, i must have broken some record for neglecting this blog for so long. 1/2 a year to be exact! Hurray~~!!! *confetti flies*

Actually, it's a bit hard to maintain 2 blogs for me. And there's no two authors in this blog lar. Jeffrey just need some place to vent out so i kinda offer him my blog. A one time deal.

Just going to summarised some of the bigger events that took part in my life.

1. After BigBang, i got into the Kpop world and I don't think i'm getting out of it! I just find korean songs really fresh and their mv are really creative. Some had asked me why i got so into korean pop. I'm not sure myself but i think a lot of songs rocks! Of course, BigBang #1 on my favourite kpop idol list!

I even asked my mom to buy 2 of their albums(one mini) when she went on a trip there last year and she got it! Oh man, how i wish the genuine albums in Brunei/Malaysia isn't so expensive! The full length album i got costs only 17,000won which is like B$17 dollars! I would have bought it online but i guess with the present state of my lappie, the credit card password might get stolen...

Went through the Kpop world with the BigBang craze, TVXQ craze, wondergirls' Nobody craze and now the SNSD's gee craze. It's currently the second song for this blog.

2. I went to KL for two weeks with some of the most 38ppl i know alive but they're also the coolest! Awww, touching ,ain't it. That was the best trip of my life i think there will be more? But don't expect I'll go for the Taiwan 2010 trip. Hey, can we wait when we start working? Haiz.... Tak ada duit.

Photos on facebook. Can't seem to upload it here. What's wrong with that? And imeem seems to have gotten faster. It was very slow so i stopped using it and didn't changed the song for 6 mths.

3. A few days before going back to kuching for Chinese NewYear, there was a flood in Brunei. I'm sure most of us experience it. I was at the Mall when the it flooded. Lol. Along with some friends. Wasn't able to went home for the night. I could have but it seems there was no electric at home so my parents asked me to stay at Chungsun's house where i watched eagle eye. Ty chungsun and his parents.

4. While in Kuching, i went to visit my friends. Hmmm, it's the first time really that i went 'bai nian' in kuching in a group. I mean, not counting the family ones. Something happened in Kuching also. It's a flood! Haha!! And guess what, it was up to 2 .5 feet and me and my cousins went swimming while it's raining! Water WAR!!!! Also the water was quite dirty and i did in fact swallow some water, it was still fun.

5. Last sunday, i went to work as a sort of waiter at the award ceremony at the chinese temple. Was only busy for like 2 hours distributing food although we went from 7:30 till 1. But still it was the easiest and not to mention the first 30 bucks i earned in a job! Ok, it's my first real job also la.

Wow, some people had passed the 100 post mark in their blog and i'm still in my 80s coming 90. Well, I'll try to get to 100 mark before i go for NS! My results coming out soon too so wish me luck. Yes, I will try my hardest to maintain 2 blogs! Sorry but the 2nd blog is a blog i shared with the top J.O ppl so it's sort of not open to public. Right? Szeyee?

P.S, can somone help me change my layout for this blog or not? I can't seem to do it. Also don't feel much like blogging when i log into my page. Haha. I would sure like an autumn theme layout @@

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Saturday, July 12, 2008

Really Randoms

If my blog is a person and posts are what keeps him alive, my blog must be a bed-ridden sick old man. Might as well end life, cut loose and get on with life. Haha. Tried changing the skin but can't seem to do it right. Skins from blogskins doesn't seems to work. LOTS of editing needed. Being a Tech-no doesn't make it more easier. Darn it. :/ No, i'm not closing down my blog. Just lazy to update. I do read others blogs and i admire their passion to keep it updated like kennysia, xiaxue and my friends like liping and chung sun. no wonder my english seems to be getting quite poor compared to when i was in form 5.

I'm feeling pressured. Failed maths and chem on the last sem's finals. And by a really big margin too. I'm thinking of going tuition for maths. For chemistry and bio, i'll be working my arse on it. On a side note, i've still managed to pass that compulsory sub but not safe yet. Just pass is not going to cut it. Might go tuition for that as well. How come my friend like Jeff have that kind of serious attitude when it comes to studying and i don't? I thought you'll become more similar with the people you hang out with over time? Man.....

I just need to be in the right mood i think. Hmmm, it's really hard for me to have that mood lo. It only happens right before exams and tests. Even for O level, i studied last minute. Was lucky to pass all. Lots of specs dropped for that ;-) I've been a happy go lucky guy for most part of my life. But this time, it's different. I feel the vibe. That this is definitely one of those obstacles that determines my life. One of those time point which changes my entire life and how i'm going to live.

I failed even in average for the last sem. And when i told this to mom, She said " You have to start working hard lo, If you fail, then what is the purpose for you to sacrifice a comfortable life to return to malaysia to study?" Somewhat like that. And it struck me hard. She clearly sounded disappointed. I've always tried not to let her down and it's been going well with few occasional disappointments but not in my studies. She never have to worry about that starting form 1. I was always in her expectation(I've always have higher la) to at least pass but now? I've assure her last time that i'll pass and i did. This time, i assured her that i won't fail too much in maths and chem but i did. At least 30% margin for both.

Sorry, if i bored you with this. It seems that all i can blog about are studies. I don't have an interesting life. It's just been like going with the flow of fate. Smooth, calm and nothing interesting ever seems to happen. Well, it's not like my life is dull, it's colourful. But once in a while i would live to have something extreme. Something totally out of ordinary of my life. But phew, if i'm always that way, i would have died of depression. ;)

Something out of ordinary
I had a grey hair plucked out of my head by a friend! GREY HAIR! Me! My face doesn't suit to have grey hair! It's like a baby with armpit hair! It's just plain unacceptable! I must be worrying too much and sleeping irregularly. Have to live like a normal teenage such as able to not sleep in class even if the teacher's one of the most boring teacher i've ever met. Yes, i still continue that habit ;( It acts as a defense mechanism for boringness. Haha! Might as well make that my resolution for next year. Hmm, don't think i've made any resolutions before. It would be a new start.

I found out that i'm a flirt or at least feels like one based on the reactions of people around me. Whenever I'm close to any members of the opposite sex, I would be deemed falling for them. Either we're together or i'm hitting on them. Ok, luckily people who truly knows my 'lovey' attitudes (which is few) towards female counterparts is just a sign of a deep rooted pure friendship with them. Maybe even sisters liao. Don't mind the rumours though, it must mean the people are jealous and are denying the possibly of a true pure friendship between man and woman. I feel sorry for them to live in such a small tiny world ;)

To end this post. I hereby solute two of my friends for understanding themselves and I'm really happy for them. Now the fun begins *evil grin* Hahahahahahhaha!! You know who you are Mr ------- and Miss -----. Ironic event. lol!

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Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Great news

Right, And here comes the good news. I PASSED ALL MY TESTS IN LAST TWO WEEKS' PRE SEMESTER TEST!!! Yes! You did NOT read it wrong! I PASSED ALL!!! Quite unexpected when a few number of people still failed in certain subjects. I'm so proud actually. I'm not that good in science subjects but since this pre semester exam, i feel more confident in achieving the 3.5 pointer i set myself for STPM. O, for an extra info, the overall pointer is 4. So, 3.5/4 is very hard to get. Getting 4 are for people like chi how, ccs and jie ming (Hmm, i'm turning into a geek? LOL!)

Here's the report of my grades( for form 6, 45 is the passing mark) :
Biology: 32/70= 46 and i might be able to get 47 if i get that extra one mark out of 70
Chemistry: 50 (Yes, over 100 and quite a good score compared to others)
English: According to my calculations, it's 81
Maths: Paper 1= 23/100 but paper 2= 72/100, so it's 47.5
PA(Malay)= 58/100

Right, i know it's still not good considering that most subject are in the boundary line of life and death . But still, when everyone have something that fails, it's a great achievement for me. Hello, this is Mr. KiSS you're hearing from. I mean, i prove myself that i can study and can achieve what others don't expect me to get, that i can be a genius as well. Side note: In other class, no one passed biology and i did. And the one who should had gotten the best mark in my class turned out to have 1 mark less than me. ;P

Here's a hurtful conversation someone had with me before the biology paper was given.
Sad guy who failed despite having tuition: Did you hear, all Sci 3 students' Bio paper 'quan jun fu mo'? The highest is only 41!
Pitiful me: What? Hmmm...(not much reaction)
SGWFDHT: The person who got the highest in the other class got a big fat cross for her essay! And everyone's essays are also like that.
Me: Hmmm, right.... but i believe Abraham(the guy who always get the highest in class for bio) will bring glory to our class. And i think our class will be better than them.
SGWFDHT: I agree. So, what do you think of it?
Me: I still think I have a fair chance of passing... Although a bit low but nevertheless i feel that even if i fail the paper, i won't be far from passing.
SGWFDHT: Wah! The highest in other class got 16/20 in her objective, what makes you think you can do better than her?

Ahem, the conversation went on something like this in chinese. But hey, although i'm a bit hurt for being looked down on,but he kept his fricking mouth shut when i got 31/70*100=44. But that's not all, teacher left out 1 mark from the calculations of marks and i got 32/70*100=46. Yeah! I passed! In your face! I didn't have tuition and i got a pass, what did you get?! Hmph! I know he fail only la. He's expected to fail as well actually.... I mean, why can't i changed and pass? I mean everyone have a fair chance of passing so don't ever judge a book by its cover, ok?

Now that i whine about my life and brag about my grade, i'm expecting rewards. LOL!

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Saturday, September 22, 2007

Adulthood and you know what that means...Booze time!!!

In just a few moments, my privileges will change forever! Not only can i do what i want (as long as it's legal) but i can decide my own life! Shocking isn't it to think of all the new work and responsibility you are going to hold. Which actually doesn't mean anything to me except that it would be very troublesome. Being an indecisive person as me, i'll take a lot of time to think about it. In short, i'm the customer who'll make the salesperson tick.

Anyhow, celebrated my birthday in advance with some good friends at the Hartz chicken. of course, i'm paying but only half of the price. Nope, not that it's my birthday(so they'll give a a discount) or i'm so cheap that i'll only pay for half the price....It's just that there's another one of my friend, Dinesh......who shares the same birthday date as me!!! Well, he's younger than me by one year and not to mention an indian. But anyway, it was ok but i feel really unwell after all those food.... Went to buy cd some more with that feeling in my stomach, you know the feeling you get when you're too full......

Spent a lot of $$$$$ today and i'm feeling a wee bit guilty towards my parents. Why? Maybe because i bought Cds with their hard earn money? What's more, games CD. I came all the way to study and why am i doing? Fluttering my money away which will harm me in my studies. Not that i'll study normally but still i don't need any more distractions than i usually have,right? The point is, now i'm spending money to distract my own self. How ironic....

And right now as i sit here typing this post, i had actually drank some alcohol!!! Hehe, i'm in the state between drunk and sober now.... Nah, just a little drunk but it's feels kinda good. I drank a 325ml of Tiger beer which consist of 5% of alcohol and a big mug of roughly the same amount of Royal stout which consist of 8% of alcohol. You think this is going to make me drunk? Hehe~~~

Anyway, my aunt actually allow me to drink for this once since i said it was my 18th birthday, a rite to adulthood. Haha.... and what can adult do which kids can't? Drink, fuck and drive. Since can't do any of the 2 later choice, i'll just pick door no.1. The heck. Anyway, that's all and i might not update my blog sooner since the semester exam is only 12 days away!!!!

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Thursday, August 30, 2007

I'm becoming worse.

Sigh...... i feel like an old man these days and think maybe i should retire or something.... I'm just too tired to do anything except watching movies and not moving entirely until the movie ends. The point here is, I'm getting lazier and lazier..... O.O" how can a person like me get lazier and lazier when i am already a lazy person? Well, it's worse now.... even i get the feeling that I'm being too*10000 lazy.

Failed every single tests here.....Not that I'm the only one failing but everyone, failed as well in maths paper 2 and chemistry. Only some people passed maths paper 1.... We haven't gotten our bio back but the teacher had already told us that it was disastrous. I know i failed that one too and so is P.A(Pengajian Am, the compulsory Malay subject that we needed to take...) Heard that the highest is only 12.5 out of 25..... So pass is the highest. I know i failed because:
1. I didn't finish my conclusion
2. I only wrote about 200plus words in which the requirement is between 300 to 350....

I'm just getting slower and slower.....like getting old.... Though i don't expect my self to pass but i also didn't expect myself to fail so miserably... So terrible, it's even worse than when i was in form 5. Depressed? Definitely. Suicidal thought? Unless it's the end of earth.

Planned to go out to Santubong, a place with thick forest as well as a nice beach to catch insects for our group project with my group. We're doing preservations of the insects as well as plants. Due date is three weeks later but it's not enough(for the plants). We need to catch insects! Things that i don't usually touch or even dare to share the same space with. Sigh...... It was suppose to be tomorrow but it was postponed to Saturday....

Now the end of all these shits.

I GOT A NEW LAPTOP LAST SUNDAY!!!! Congrats me and it's great! Web cam is infused into the laptop already!!! All for RM1999! With space of 120GB HDD, DVD player and a digital surround system which comes with it(the catalogue say one la). It's definitely worth it. Did i mention it's ACER? Well, it's my prize possession now. Treasured it really, really much.

That's it. That's the only thing i feel happy about these days....

I'm thinking of taking IELTS. aka The International English Language Test System. I mean with my ability, I'm confident that i won't fail it.....yet, not getting a good results either... Heard that it's really hard but they holding it once a month if i'm not wrong. The catch is.... it cost a bloody 500+ ringgit to take a test like that. don't have that much money... don't wanna waste money unless I'm absolutely confident about taking that test.(which i don't think I'll ever will.....) Oh well, at least it's an internationally recognized test.

I want to learn to drive but i don't think i can with my current schedule..... Sigh.... Life is hard....

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Thursday, July 19, 2007

Busy bee~~~

I know,i know.... i had been neglecting my blog for almost two weeks. Been quite busy trying to catch up all the topic i missed. I now announce that i like chemistry more than maths. Shocking, isn't it? Don't know but i can't seem to do even the maths i learned like logrithms.... Guess i've been wasting my time in maths class in form 4 and form 5.

Hahaha... Heard that if you have as many position in the clubs you joined at school, it would be more easier to get the scholarships. There was 15 classmate in my class two weeks ago but one left a day later but two more came a week later. Then after another week, another new guy came. So, basically we now have 17 ppl in the class with 7 guys and 10 girls.

There's one guy who came with a girl about a week ago, guess what? He was recruited into the prefects along with the girl the FIRST DAY he came to the school. And today, he was elected as head of prefects!!! Shocking eh.... heard that the reason was before he came to the school, he was already elected as head of prefects in his school before he got transferred. Lots of prefects who didn't get any position and had train for the whole month under rain and sun wanted to quit partially because they suspect that there were favouritisms in the election of the head prefect. It's unfair to them and i guess they didn't know that he was already elected in his previous school. But the other reason was purely because they didn't get any position. Kinda give me an impression that they have the 'sour grape' mentality.

Hmmm, as for me, i had only one position in all the stuff i joined. I was selected by the teacher as supervisor librarian for wednesday but it's all the same except that i get higher marks but more work like writing reports.... Still haven't found a sport to join yet since all the time between the sports and clubs clash together.

Will going onto the street to ask for donations as a member of the red crescent society. I think i'll be going on....umm.... sunday? Not really sure... Thus, you can see i've been really busy.

I think i'll be going back to MD when i go back to Brunei on August. Reason: I need to return the books i borrowed from the teacher personally. Ok, then maybe i can also meet some friends while i'm there as long as it's not too early.... Need sleep now.... good night.

PS. Don't you find my english deterioting? I do.... T.T

You Were Born Under:

Popular and crafty, you are a master at the art of seduction.
You are intelligent and intuitive - and make a savvy businessperson.
You live life to the fullest, even if it means maxing out your credit cards.
Many people are secretly (and hopelessly) in love with you.

You are most compatible with a Rooster or Ox.

What Year Were You Born Under?

Aiya, don't say anymore.... Can't pick business liao!!!

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Saturday, July 07, 2007

Fate decides it all.And It wants to torture me!!!

Bah, it had been decided that i'll be studying in Kuching permanently...Studying Sciences, the subjects that I dread so much, the subjects that i vowed never to take again. Sigh, if arts subjects were in English that would be a different story but no..... they have to use malay to teach it. Will begin my search for any nearby tuition for Chem and Maths. Luckily, heard that tuitions are cheap in Malaysia when compared to Brunei.

Decided to join the English club, The Red Crescent Society and ummm, for sports, i might take up bowling or badminton or any other 'easy' sports. Just have to go to the Red crescent for like 18 times a year and the other two clubs for 12 times. Should be easy. But i did take another extra co-curricular activities to gain more marks for my report. Librarian. Heard that it's one of the easiest way to gain more marks,so i just took it. Should be nothing except that i'll be going there every Wednesday.

Currently trying to patch all of flyff's files and it's taking so damn long!!! Why can't they put it with the downloads? Been patching for like 2 hours and it seems like an endless task! But what to do? Have to find something to entertain me until i get back to Brunei for the holidays on 18th Aug. Should be around that date BUT!!! I heard that everyone will be having their tests and exams around that date too!!! Drat! If i miss that chance to go out with them, then i have to wait around until December! Hmmmm, must plan AEAP.

My life is currently as boring as hell! Though the relatives i'm staying with are all swell and good people, they have their own life too, you know....So like i'll be sticking around the house with no one and if i go crazy one day, it has to be because i've been in the house for too long. Hmmm, seems like all i'm doing in my blog is complain,complain and complain which i love to so much. Am wondering what happening in Brunei... There might be a news/rumour so big that i don't even know. Sigh....makes me feel so detached from Brunei... please, someone, keep me updated with the rumours. I can't live without them.

There are a few good things in Kuching that i have to say:
1. The food!!! OMG!!! Everywhere you go, there're bound to be all sort of food! Hmmm, might be the food heaven on Borneo Island. If i keep what i had been doing this entire week, you might see fatty siang the next time i go back.

2. My dad agreed that i could buy a new laptop here if it's cheap.... Hmmm, since i have more freedom now than ever, I might as well buy a PS2 while I at it. Heard that it's around Rm 700
here so, i should be able to buy it. But.....Where can i get a tv? There's only one in the house and it isn't mine...Well, i'll see first, maybe i'll buy a new phone too, Haha~~~ Daydreaming~~

3. Jeff suggested that maybe i should go buy lots of stuff to make up for my mental needs. Errr, he's trying to convert me into a 'Bai jia' person like him, but he does have a point. I mean, if there's nice clothes here, i'll just buy them and use the excuse that i'm buying it for the Chinese New Year,haha!! There's one catch though.....The fashion they sell in Kuching tend to be a little more outdated than other parts of the island like Miri. Hmmm, i'll just pick stuff i like. Haha, if i find it unattractive after buying it, I'll just give it to ppl when i get back to Brunei! HAHA~~~

Oh yeah, no one knows it but i've cut my hair the day before i left Brunei. Well, somehow, it look like the style middle aged men loves to cut when i wake up late in the morning err...afternoon. Wash it and it instantly becomes more stylish. Maybe i should post my current photos of my current hair..... Nah, don't want to give anyone a chance to laugh at my pathetic face.

And there's one thing..... the dogs outside tend to howl every night from a specific hour but until a specific time, they all stopped howling all together. Feels creepy especially in the middle of the night. Everything is sooo silent. Escpecially when all the noises disappear together at the exact same time. And i thought that time just stop... And i just felt weird... I can't really describe it but feels like i'm being watched by many eyes but there isn't really anyone there....Hmmm, my mental health must be getting worse... might even be getting deaf.

Anyway, thanks to some people, i've made it through the first week in Kuching with only little emotional difficulties.
Thanks for:
Sze yee: For calling me as frequently as she could. Even finish her credits just for me though it was gonna be finish anyway -_-"
May yan: Messaging me. At least eventhough she had not been in Brunei, she still offer me emotional supports! Hmph, unlike some other ppl.
Eteng: She's the only one who actually showed some care. Heard from my sis that she called my house to know my number.
Jeff: Aiya, i know you're a cheap guy,so i didn't really expect you would call me. Bleh! But still, at least you are still aware that i'm still alive somewhere and not dead yet unlike some others!

As for others, thanks for letting me to pour all my grievances t0 you on MSN. You know who you are~~~Seriously, unlike some other ppl, yuck! You only know who your true friends are when you've having trouble.

By the way, my number is 0168939737. There, if anyone who still does know my numbers will get a piece of my mind when i go back. Do not give me any excuse! Hmph~~~

You Are 28% Shy

You are slightly shy, but overall, your reactions to social situations are normal.
You dread difficult social situations, but you still handle them with grace.

How Shy Are You?

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Tuesday, July 03, 2007

Bright but dangerous. Dark but safe.

First post from Kuching. Had been in a bad mood.... It's quite tiring and frustrating. Ok,the day i left i was very emotional. I don't know, maybe i just flipped or something. Was not really mentally prepare to leave. Who would when you only know that you're gonna leave your family and friends four days before you're leaving. Was as shock as anyone.

Oh well, i guess it'll be good for me? Miss my parents!!! T.T
I guess i might get use to it soon? I hope so..... I mean i'll leave them sooner or later but..... I DON'T WANT IT TO BE THIS SOON!!! Sigh.....On a side note: Be grateful you still have our parents around.

First day in Kuching: Well, got up quite early. Went to school and it seems that an academic officer was expecting me. Well, she knew i wanted art and ask whether i want to study in an account class or bahasa melayu. Errrr, dumb question for me, of course i'm choosing Account. And when i got into class, it was......not as i expected. You know, they said that Green Road Secondary School(GRSS)<----- [kinda look like grass......grass school?] is among the best school in Kuching. I was expecting sophisticated, brilliant and interesting minds, not the opposite...... Sigh, art class student are ummmm......artistic? And after a few periods i was dumbfounded...... I was expecting english medium but turns out that they use english in science stream and malay in art. So, how? Don't understand bo.....plus, the class was crowded. With about 30 to 40 ppl.

Day 2: Errr, a weird thing happened. You see, the seniors there( form 4,5 and 6) are all in the morning class and need to wear tie. And so, i went in without a tie since i haven't bought it the previous day. Kinda forgot about it. So ummmm, one of the 'pengawas'(prefect) there stopped me at the gate.

Pegawas: Eh?! Are you in the afternoon class or what? Why come so early?
Me: Errrr, I'm in the morning class......
Pengawas: !!!...... Then, why no tie?!?!
Me: Ummmm, I just transferred here yesterday.......
Pengawas: OHHH!!! Ummmm, well....be sure to take a tie.
*Other pengawas about 20 in line were looking at us the whole time.*
All the pengawas and the one who talked to me(who apparently looks like the head): WELCOME!!!
-_-"'

So now i look like a form 1 to form 3 student. HOW NICE......! *notice my sarcastic tone*
Mei Li Mao!!! Some of them are even younger than me.......and they looked at me with those shocked looks! And i'm suppose to be the senior...Sigh.... what to do? I look young ma.....Dunno whether i should be happy or sad.

I have something to announce..... I'M TAKING SCIENCE T.T..... Chem,maths,english, pelajaran am and the last....(bio or physics?).... I choose bio la. I don't need another subjects with lots and lots of calculations...... It's in english ba,that's why lo. By the way, I'm beginning to like chem....haha, the teacher was VERY NICE!!! Well, now i need to catch up a month's worth of work. Well, at least my new classmate are more friendlier and more what i expected. And guess what, there's only 15 ppl in the science one class and only 5 are boys.

Found out that i need to join a minimum of two clubs(or three)!!! Three categories: Uniformed clubs(cadet, prefect and such), Sports(!!!, Hey, i don't play sports one!!!) and ummm normal club(i dunno la, don't know what they have, i'll go see tomorrow....) Well.....I MISS EVERYONE!!! T.T

This world is sooo cruel.......Might have to go tuition for maths and chem.....

Your Inner Child Is Scared

Like a kid, you tend to shy away from new experiences.
You prefer what's tried and true - novelty is scary!
New foods, new places, and new friends are difficult for you to deal with.
Some say you're predictable, but you enjoy being comfortable.

How Is Your Inner Child?

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