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Friday, April 10, 2009

Changed perspectives?

Oh my, recently i just don't seem to be attracted by any looks. I mean naturally i supposed a lot of people(or most) are superficial about how looks are and i had even admitted before that I am very concerned how people are born to look like. I am kind of superficial in a way...

When i look at myself in the mirror...

I see a guy who looks alright. All my features are normal. To some point that i can actually be considered as someone handsome? Hahaha~~~! So paiseh to say like that also! *blushes*. I am not getting vain!Ok,maybe not but at least i look human.

Anyway, as i was saying, when i flipped through some youth gossip magazines my sisters bought, I see a bunch of normal good looking people who are actually stars! Case: I used to be VERY attracted to Jolin Tsai's looks. It's appealing to me really. Sexy and cute at the same time. Not too slutty, not too conservative. Just nice.

But, now she looks kinda old to me... in a magazine... she just looks like a normal person. I mean if she wasn't a star or anybody, i might take a second look at her if i pass by her on the street. But that's it. Life goes on.

Ok, some might say she IS getting older and that i might be getting sick of looking at her. Could happen. But could that happen to ALL the stars? There are also He Jun Xiang, Zheng Yuan Chang, Hebe, Lin Yi Cheng and even some of the DBSK members. All which i had admired their physical appearances or their charisma before. Now, those admiration went flush down the toilet.
I know I'm very addicted to Korean entertainment recently. But i don't find one star there which i would go WOW! That's one hot face. They are some appealing but up to the 'wow' level.
I came to the conclusion that there are 2 possibilties. One, my standard in looking at looks just upgraded, which is bad. I may as well live mywhole life alone. Two, I don't care much about looks anymore but rather it's the inside that counts. Oh boy....two extremes...

Kinda reminds me of how i shocked SPY about her weight being at the two extremes when her competition ends.
1. She gets fatter and bigger than before. Due to stress, she'll eat more than she normally do. Also, 95% of the other competitors are chopsticks so, if there's unfinished food, she might get the bigger portions.
2. She'll lose weight. Being put on diet by the people there and gets exercises learning hand gestures or even dance. Also, being surrounded by chopsticks, a sort of peer pressure to prompt her to lose weight will probably smack her right in the face!

AND VOTE FOR SPY on ASTRO!She's no. 15! I personally think she's actually the 2nd prettiest out of the girls(if i look from the individual photos)! Good enough! My sisters and I are keeping up with her competitors but we don't know how long we will last. It gets harder and harder. She's barely winning now thanks to us but the others will sure catch up.

I know the polls won't affect her chances for winning but who knows! It might act as something to show that she has a strong base of supporters. To boost her confidence! Plus, I am indeed kiasu also. Haha. My sister even got someone living in south korea to vote for SPY also. Haha. Cool ,right?

To end the post, one video!

BigBang ft. 2NE1 - Lollipop Mv (for a phone commercial)

Sorry,I couldn't resist the temptation ;)

Labels: Big Bang, Friends, Me, Perspective, Praise

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Wednesday, December 12, 2007

I may not know it but i understand

Wah, my first post after a long time of inactivity on the blog scene. My excuses this time? Erm... let's see, nothing interesting happened. Well, not that my life had been a roller coaster ride. But i seem to have an inspiration to blog right now. Strange, i thought i lost that when i went to kuching. I'm searching for a new skin for my blog now... So leave a comment in case i do change it. Maybe i should make one myself! ...................errr ok... comp idiot here, i'll stop embarrassing myself now -.-"

Well, food for thought first. Have you ever wondered what will we be like in the future? Your high school friends, your bff.... your ex maybe? Ok, i have no ex so cut me some slack. Imagine, one day when you were picking your daughter/son from school in maybe America?(who knows that you might migrate there). Then a horny,bitchy bitch honked at you because she couldn't get pass your car although you think there were enough space to pass. So, you raise your middle finger to her and say 'fuck you!'. LOL!!! She came out of her car and asks you to pull down your window where you both realized almost immediately that you were high school friends back in the days.

Lol. Now that's would be an awkward scenario,wouldn't it? Let's add some more spice into the scenario. You see that she's pregnant and suddenly a kid runs towards her yelling mommy! Wow, some shock. How about we replace that friend with your ex who you dumped? And what's worse, your wife. Awkward~~~

But nah, it wouldn't be awkward for me. I mean if it's my friend(Eteng, Chiayee,Mayan....etc) then i have perfectly no reason to be awkward let alone embarrassed by my finger pointing act. LOLx! We would laugh about it, i'm sure :p Why? Because i have never been too polite to them(but not too rude either,mind you) to begin with. They know my style and since we're true friends, they would have expect and accepted the way i acted. What i want to prove here is that friends accept the way you are and won't change you if your personality is not that bad. I mean if you have the tendency of doing over unacceptable things, true friends will change you and guide you in telling you what's wrong with you. No, they wouldn't laugh at you or at least deep down inside them. And if you can't accept the criticism or the embarrassment that they have thrown at you, then i'll say you're such a nice 'true' friend you are yourself.

I mean if you can't forgive them for something they did wrong to you, then how can they forgive you if you did wrong to them. True friends are about forgiveness. If you are causing great distress for your true friends(or so you thought they're true) then what kind of friends you are. Of course this only apply to friends who had been with you through thick and thin.

I want to say STOP dreaming for those who has ever been complaining and whining about friendship problems, blah,blah,blah~~~ Friends are not perfect, even true friends and bff. Your friends are won't be there every time you get into deep shit. They would like to but they can't. It's the heart that's count. I mean even if your bff can't be with you when you're in deep shit, they'll still be worry about you, and wonder how things turned out. You might not know it but if your friendship holds true, then it's certainly is that way.(if they knew about it)

Face it, your true friends are not made to be a perfect companion for you. They still have flaws you have to learn to accept. Your life is definitely not like those novels or movies! Yeah right, as if 'may death do us apart' kind of friends is really that easy to find in real life. Lower your expectations! On them and yourself. You all expect too much! I did once but now that i've accepted the fact, it's great! i have great and true friends and i'm positive about it! Although not many but it's enough to last me a hell of a lifetime.

I'm not some over egotistic self proclaimed social butterfly who has always think that they have sooo many friends and many more of that would want to be their friend. To tell the truth, i have not many friends. Heck quality beats quantity as i always have believe. Are you sure that you so called friends wouldn't back stab you when you turn around? How about when you're in deep shit? will they help you? They might be drop another kick at you while you're at it.

Ok, this next statement might seem harsh although i do drag social situations. Some people around me, i never consider them as friends. Seriously. You can feel it when I'm with them and it's a bit obvious. I considered them as just acquaintances, people i know. The people i'll greet when i meet them(or not) but not saying anything more than that. Maybe a few more topics on common stuff but that's all. It's not like i'm going to pass on some hot juicy gossip about who just came out in the open to someone i don't familiar with,someone i don't quite trust(you have to earn trust). I may look like a 'big mouth gossiper' but that's only around some people. Hey, what's life without some juicy gossip to spice up your life?

Jeff, if you're reading this, then let me tell you. You are VERY shitty at times!!! LOL!!! You're sometimes too judgmental but, never mind. I have accepted it. The point i'm trying to prove here is that i don't talk behind my true friends' back. I tell them in the face! LOL! And yet, does that break the friendship? No! If it does then it's not true to begin with.

My last words, don't expect too much, this hurt both sides of a budding friendship. Well, hope this post will entertain you guys. Well, at least some of you XD

PS. True friendship doesn't need advertising! You don't need it out loud even for that friend. No reminder and no regrets! It's a you know i know thingy...;p

Labels: Acquaintance, Friends, Me, Philosophy

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Saturday, September 22, 2007

Adulthood and you know what that means...Booze time!!!

In just a few moments, my privileges will change forever! Not only can i do what i want (as long as it's legal) but i can decide my own life! Shocking isn't it to think of all the new work and responsibility you are going to hold. Which actually doesn't mean anything to me except that it would be very troublesome. Being an indecisive person as me, i'll take a lot of time to think about it. In short, i'm the customer who'll make the salesperson tick.

Anyhow, celebrated my birthday in advance with some good friends at the Hartz chicken. of course, i'm paying but only half of the price. Nope, not that it's my birthday(so they'll give a a discount) or i'm so cheap that i'll only pay for half the price....It's just that there's another one of my friend, Dinesh......who shares the same birthday date as me!!! Well, he's younger than me by one year and not to mention an indian. But anyway, it was ok but i feel really unwell after all those food.... Went to buy cd some more with that feeling in my stomach, you know the feeling you get when you're too full......

Spent a lot of $$$$$ today and i'm feeling a wee bit guilty towards my parents. Why? Maybe because i bought Cds with their hard earn money? What's more, games CD. I came all the way to study and why am i doing? Fluttering my money away which will harm me in my studies. Not that i'll study normally but still i don't need any more distractions than i usually have,right? The point is, now i'm spending money to distract my own self. How ironic....

And right now as i sit here typing this post, i had actually drank some alcohol!!! Hehe, i'm in the state between drunk and sober now.... Nah, just a little drunk but it's feels kinda good. I drank a 325ml of Tiger beer which consist of 5% of alcohol and a big mug of roughly the same amount of Royal stout which consist of 8% of alcohol. You think this is going to make me drunk? Hehe~~~

Anyway, my aunt actually allow me to drink for this once since i said it was my 18th birthday, a rite to adulthood. Haha.... and what can adult do which kids can't? Drink, fuck and drive. Since can't do any of the 2 later choice, i'll just pick door no.1. The heck. Anyway, that's all and i might not update my blog sooner since the semester exam is only 12 days away!!!!

Labels: Friends, Life, Skool

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Yours Truly KSS

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