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Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Great news

Right, And here comes the good news. I PASSED ALL MY TESTS IN LAST TWO WEEKS' PRE SEMESTER TEST!!! Yes! You did NOT read it wrong! I PASSED ALL!!! Quite unexpected when a few number of people still failed in certain subjects. I'm so proud actually. I'm not that good in science subjects but since this pre semester exam, i feel more confident in achieving the 3.5 pointer i set myself for STPM. O, for an extra info, the overall pointer is 4. So, 3.5/4 is very hard to get. Getting 4 are for people like chi how, ccs and jie ming (Hmm, i'm turning into a geek? LOL!)

Here's the report of my grades( for form 6, 45 is the passing mark) :
Biology: 32/70= 46 and i might be able to get 47 if i get that extra one mark out of 70
Chemistry: 50 (Yes, over 100 and quite a good score compared to others)
English: According to my calculations, it's 81
Maths: Paper 1= 23/100 but paper 2= 72/100, so it's 47.5
PA(Malay)= 58/100

Right, i know it's still not good considering that most subject are in the boundary line of life and death . But still, when everyone have something that fails, it's a great achievement for me. Hello, this is Mr. KiSS you're hearing from. I mean, i prove myself that i can study and can achieve what others don't expect me to get, that i can be a genius as well. Side note: In other class, no one passed biology and i did. And the one who should had gotten the best mark in my class turned out to have 1 mark less than me. ;P

Here's a hurtful conversation someone had with me before the biology paper was given.
Sad guy who failed despite having tuition: Did you hear, all Sci 3 students' Bio paper 'quan jun fu mo'? The highest is only 41!
Pitiful me: What? Hmmm...(not much reaction)
SGWFDHT: The person who got the highest in the other class got a big fat cross for her essay! And everyone's essays are also like that.
Me: Hmmm, right.... but i believe Abraham(the guy who always get the highest in class for bio) will bring glory to our class. And i think our class will be better than them.
SGWFDHT: I agree. So, what do you think of it?
Me: I still think I have a fair chance of passing... Although a bit low but nevertheless i feel that even if i fail the paper, i won't be far from passing.
SGWFDHT: Wah! The highest in other class got 16/20 in her objective, what makes you think you can do better than her?

Ahem, the conversation went on something like this in chinese. But hey, although i'm a bit hurt for being looked down on,but he kept his fricking mouth shut when i got 31/70*100=44. But that's not all, teacher left out 1 mark from the calculations of marks and i got 32/70*100=46. Yeah! I passed! In your face! I didn't have tuition and i got a pass, what did you get?! Hmph! I know he fail only la. He's expected to fail as well actually.... I mean, why can't i changed and pass? I mean everyone have a fair chance of passing so don't ever judge a book by its cover, ok?

Now that i whine about my life and brag about my grade, i'm expecting rewards. LOL!

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Wednesday, December 12, 2007

I may not know it but i understand

Wah, my first post after a long time of inactivity on the blog scene. My excuses this time? Erm... let's see, nothing interesting happened. Well, not that my life had been a roller coaster ride. But i seem to have an inspiration to blog right now. Strange, i thought i lost that when i went to kuching. I'm searching for a new skin for my blog now... So leave a comment in case i do change it. Maybe i should make one myself! ...................errr ok... comp idiot here, i'll stop embarrassing myself now -.-"

Well, food for thought first. Have you ever wondered what will we be like in the future? Your high school friends, your bff.... your ex maybe? Ok, i have no ex so cut me some slack. Imagine, one day when you were picking your daughter/son from school in maybe America?(who knows that you might migrate there). Then a horny,bitchy bitch honked at you because she couldn't get pass your car although you think there were enough space to pass. So, you raise your middle finger to her and say 'fuck you!'. LOL!!! She came out of her car and asks you to pull down your window where you both realized almost immediately that you were high school friends back in the days.

Lol. Now that's would be an awkward scenario,wouldn't it? Let's add some more spice into the scenario. You see that she's pregnant and suddenly a kid runs towards her yelling mommy! Wow, some shock. How about we replace that friend with your ex who you dumped? And what's worse, your wife. Awkward~~~

But nah, it wouldn't be awkward for me. I mean if it's my friend(Eteng, Chiayee,Mayan....etc) then i have perfectly no reason to be awkward let alone embarrassed by my finger pointing act. LOLx! We would laugh about it, i'm sure :p Why? Because i have never been too polite to them(but not too rude either,mind you) to begin with. They know my style and since we're true friends, they would have expect and accepted the way i acted. What i want to prove here is that friends accept the way you are and won't change you if your personality is not that bad. I mean if you have the tendency of doing over unacceptable things, true friends will change you and guide you in telling you what's wrong with you. No, they wouldn't laugh at you or at least deep down inside them. And if you can't accept the criticism or the embarrassment that they have thrown at you, then i'll say you're such a nice 'true' friend you are yourself.

I mean if you can't forgive them for something they did wrong to you, then how can they forgive you if you did wrong to them. True friends are about forgiveness. If you are causing great distress for your true friends(or so you thought they're true) then what kind of friends you are. Of course this only apply to friends who had been with you through thick and thin.

I want to say STOP dreaming for those who has ever been complaining and whining about friendship problems, blah,blah,blah~~~ Friends are not perfect, even true friends and bff. Your friends are won't be there every time you get into deep shit. They would like to but they can't. It's the heart that's count. I mean even if your bff can't be with you when you're in deep shit, they'll still be worry about you, and wonder how things turned out. You might not know it but if your friendship holds true, then it's certainly is that way.(if they knew about it)

Face it, your true friends are not made to be a perfect companion for you. They still have flaws you have to learn to accept. Your life is definitely not like those novels or movies! Yeah right, as if 'may death do us apart' kind of friends is really that easy to find in real life. Lower your expectations! On them and yourself. You all expect too much! I did once but now that i've accepted the fact, it's great! i have great and true friends and i'm positive about it! Although not many but it's enough to last me a hell of a lifetime.

I'm not some over egotistic self proclaimed social butterfly who has always think that they have sooo many friends and many more of that would want to be their friend. To tell the truth, i have not many friends. Heck quality beats quantity as i always have believe. Are you sure that you so called friends wouldn't back stab you when you turn around? How about when you're in deep shit? will they help you? They might be drop another kick at you while you're at it.

Ok, this next statement might seem harsh although i do drag social situations. Some people around me, i never consider them as friends. Seriously. You can feel it when I'm with them and it's a bit obvious. I considered them as just acquaintances, people i know. The people i'll greet when i meet them(or not) but not saying anything more than that. Maybe a few more topics on common stuff but that's all. It's not like i'm going to pass on some hot juicy gossip about who just came out in the open to someone i don't familiar with,someone i don't quite trust(you have to earn trust). I may look like a 'big mouth gossiper' but that's only around some people. Hey, what's life without some juicy gossip to spice up your life?

Jeff, if you're reading this, then let me tell you. You are VERY shitty at times!!! LOL!!! You're sometimes too judgmental but, never mind. I have accepted it. The point i'm trying to prove here is that i don't talk behind my true friends' back. I tell them in the face! LOL! And yet, does that break the friendship? No! If it does then it's not true to begin with.

My last words, don't expect too much, this hurt both sides of a budding friendship. Well, hope this post will entertain you guys. Well, at least some of you XD

PS. True friendship doesn't need advertising! You don't need it out loud even for that friend. No reminder and no regrets! It's a you know i know thingy...;p

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Saturday, July 07, 2007

Fate decides it all.And It wants to torture me!!!

Bah, it had been decided that i'll be studying in Kuching permanently...Studying Sciences, the subjects that I dread so much, the subjects that i vowed never to take again. Sigh, if arts subjects were in English that would be a different story but no..... they have to use malay to teach it. Will begin my search for any nearby tuition for Chem and Maths. Luckily, heard that tuitions are cheap in Malaysia when compared to Brunei.

Decided to join the English club, The Red Crescent Society and ummm, for sports, i might take up bowling or badminton or any other 'easy' sports. Just have to go to the Red crescent for like 18 times a year and the other two clubs for 12 times. Should be easy. But i did take another extra co-curricular activities to gain more marks for my report. Librarian. Heard that it's one of the easiest way to gain more marks,so i just took it. Should be nothing except that i'll be going there every Wednesday.

Currently trying to patch all of flyff's files and it's taking so damn long!!! Why can't they put it with the downloads? Been patching for like 2 hours and it seems like an endless task! But what to do? Have to find something to entertain me until i get back to Brunei for the holidays on 18th Aug. Should be around that date BUT!!! I heard that everyone will be having their tests and exams around that date too!!! Drat! If i miss that chance to go out with them, then i have to wait around until December! Hmmmm, must plan AEAP.

My life is currently as boring as hell! Though the relatives i'm staying with are all swell and good people, they have their own life too, you know....So like i'll be sticking around the house with no one and if i go crazy one day, it has to be because i've been in the house for too long. Hmmm, seems like all i'm doing in my blog is complain,complain and complain which i love to so much. Am wondering what happening in Brunei... There might be a news/rumour so big that i don't even know. Sigh....makes me feel so detached from Brunei... please, someone, keep me updated with the rumours. I can't live without them.

There are a few good things in Kuching that i have to say:
1. The food!!! OMG!!! Everywhere you go, there're bound to be all sort of food! Hmmm, might be the food heaven on Borneo Island. If i keep what i had been doing this entire week, you might see fatty siang the next time i go back.

2. My dad agreed that i could buy a new laptop here if it's cheap.... Hmmm, since i have more freedom now than ever, I might as well buy a PS2 while I at it. Heard that it's around Rm 700
here so, i should be able to buy it. But.....Where can i get a tv? There's only one in the house and it isn't mine...Well, i'll see first, maybe i'll buy a new phone too, Haha~~~ Daydreaming~~

3. Jeff suggested that maybe i should go buy lots of stuff to make up for my mental needs. Errr, he's trying to convert me into a 'Bai jia' person like him, but he does have a point. I mean, if there's nice clothes here, i'll just buy them and use the excuse that i'm buying it for the Chinese New Year,haha!! There's one catch though.....The fashion they sell in Kuching tend to be a little more outdated than other parts of the island like Miri. Hmmm, i'll just pick stuff i like. Haha, if i find it unattractive after buying it, I'll just give it to ppl when i get back to Brunei! HAHA~~~

Oh yeah, no one knows it but i've cut my hair the day before i left Brunei. Well, somehow, it look like the style middle aged men loves to cut when i wake up late in the morning err...afternoon. Wash it and it instantly becomes more stylish. Maybe i should post my current photos of my current hair..... Nah, don't want to give anyone a chance to laugh at my pathetic face.

And there's one thing..... the dogs outside tend to howl every night from a specific hour but until a specific time, they all stopped howling all together. Feels creepy especially in the middle of the night. Everything is sooo silent. Escpecially when all the noises disappear together at the exact same time. And i thought that time just stop... And i just felt weird... I can't really describe it but feels like i'm being watched by many eyes but there isn't really anyone there....Hmmm, my mental health must be getting worse... might even be getting deaf.

Anyway, thanks to some people, i've made it through the first week in Kuching with only little emotional difficulties.
Thanks for:
Sze yee: For calling me as frequently as she could. Even finish her credits just for me though it was gonna be finish anyway -_-"
May yan: Messaging me. At least eventhough she had not been in Brunei, she still offer me emotional supports! Hmph, unlike some other ppl.
Eteng: She's the only one who actually showed some care. Heard from my sis that she called my house to know my number.
Jeff: Aiya, i know you're a cheap guy,so i didn't really expect you would call me. Bleh! But still, at least you are still aware that i'm still alive somewhere and not dead yet unlike some others!

As for others, thanks for letting me to pour all my grievances t0 you on MSN. You know who you are~~~Seriously, unlike some other ppl, yuck! You only know who your true friends are when you've having trouble.

By the way, my number is 0168939737. There, if anyone who still does know my numbers will get a piece of my mind when i go back. Do not give me any excuse! Hmph~~~

You Are 28% Shy

You are slightly shy, but overall, your reactions to social situations are normal.
You dread difficult social situations, but you still handle them with grace.

How Shy Are You?

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Saturday, April 07, 2007

Life's like LOL??!!!

Today i found a shocking fact that there's a friendly malay girl from an all girl's school had been in all of my class (History,Sociology,Eng Lit and EAS) for the past 2 months. Well, almost. She dropped her EAS and changed to GP so, almost every class. But she's also have the same PS block with me and has the same Civic class. Kektio, such a coincidence and i just realize today...... *lots of lines coming down in dark blue background*

Haiz, i think i'm stuck in MD liao lo~~~~Drat! Even if i wanted to go, i don't have a chance. Yeah right, the'r words was like treating me like a mature adult and yet in the end, to them, i'm just their little boy forever. Jeez wheez, they want me to grow up and mature but how could i if they're actually not letting me. Parents.......sigh. I think i'm trap in the bonds that will destroy my future life.

So,how do you guys think of the new layout? Found it on blogskins and couldn't resist to use it. Of course i kept a copy of Piang's work and i think i'll switch between them,hohoho. Plus, what do you guys think about the song 'Set the fire to the third bar' by Snow Patrol? Is it my taste getting worse or just that my sis doesn't really have any good sense in music anyhow. I prefer to say that she has worse taste than me. Kids can't really 'feel' the songs. That's a phrase i've gone through.

I'll be busy next week....real busy. All my sub are gonna be doing lots of stuff like we'll be having a quiz with assessment marks in EAS, Essay from Socio due on next Thursday,Play in English Lit which we have to memorise the lines( all the thee and thou,jeez) and for history, a possible essay assignment. *Faints* Plus, i'll be presenting the Civic stuff on Monday which i did not entirely lay a finger on it or even seen it yet. The unforturnate partner of mine is doing all the work, so to not entirely embarass myself,i'm doing research now on prayer. I think maybe i'll also get some info on other religion's prayer, to prepare myself and enrich the presentation. God, i have to speak Malay!(which i got E last yr for the oral......)

Thinking of dropping Kendo,too bothersome to go from place to place.Especially when my transports are limited. Unless i drive which wouldn't happen for at least a year. Sigh~~~ Life's a joke if ya ask me.

I find that some people are so funny because unlike me, they crave for popularity which i think is an empty thing to have. Why have plastic when you can actually have warmth? In fact, i happen to laugh at the one who wants popularity more than everything else. I mean, anyone can achieve popularity, just that it's something i think will pass eventually. I've been popular once,(note:once) but i just threw it away. It kinda limits stuff you can do. And why would you need it when you don't have the real 'soul'? I rather have the real 'soul' devoted then having a temporary shelter full of lies~~~~

You Are As Cool As They Come

Rational and relaxed, no one could accuse you of being dramatic.
You roll with the punches, and nothing ever gets you too worked up.
You are able to maintain perspective and see the big picture.

And even if you're emotional inside, you don't let it show.
You're great at keeping it together, and you're rewarded for that.
People see you as an ideal friend, employee, and partner.

Are You a Drama Queen (or King)?

Seriously, i'm really full of drama. So, REJECT!

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Yours Truly KSS

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